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This is from Russ Hudson's Twitter
Self Preservation:
The 3 Zones of Self Pres in the #enneagram are 1) self care/health 2) practicality/resources 3) domesticity/home. When we are more present we simply respond to these needs as they come up. When we are dominant in SP, we get preoccupied & potentially neurotic about these areas Even if we are dominant in SP, we are usually not good at all 3 zones--usually 2 of them with 1 lagging. Some are good at practicality but not at self care for example. If SP is our weakest instinct, we are still adequate or even good at one zone. Which one is your best?
Sexual:
As with SP instinct, SX instinct is easiest to recognize as sensation in the body. SP showed up as specific sensations that tell us "how we are doing." Hunger, warmth, fatigue or feeling rested, etc, all are direct sensations. SX instinct is a different set of sensations.
SX instinct sensations feels more like tingling--an electrical feeling in the body. We might notice it in some areas more than others. As we pay attention, the feeling grows & fills in, like Whitman's poem "I Sing the Body Electric." When present, we feel more vital & alive. Distortions of this instinct bring in fears about desirability--often narcissistic problems. Their can be a need to keep amping up this instinct or a need to shut it down. It can lead to an addiction to risky-taking & even self destructive behaviors. Very different from SP. When we are present, SX instinct tends to attract us to people & things that are good for us, that evolve us. When not so present, we tend to get attracted to people & situations that are repetitions of our narcissistic wounds. We keep signing up for the same hurts & heartbreaks.
Social:
I guess it is worth repeating that all 3 dom. instincts seek intimacy & one-on-one relationship. Most people prefer this to "relating w. a group" which is one reason why many do not realize they are actually social dominant. We just focus on different things in our 1-1 relating.Social instinct is NOT only about "the group," it is about awareness of the OTHER. How is the other feeling? How are they reacting to me? How am I affecting them? Sexual instinct is about the energy (or lack there of) between us. Both can be present in the same relationship. SO instinct began w. parenting. Most species on earth do not parent--it is a fairly late development in evolution. But the awareness of the state of the young became crucial as more complex animals required more time to "grow up." So the parental bond is the origin of Social. Many people confuse SX & SO but of course everyone has both of these instincts. The drive to connect, to relate, to know each other, is social. It brings its own brand of intimacy. We can be attracted without bonding, and we can bond without attraction, or both can be there.
Even if an instinct is dominant, it doesn't mean you will be strong in all 3 zones. Usually one lags. And you will have at least one zone working in your weakest instinct. It's helpful to look at all 9 zones & explore your relationship with each one of them--customize this.
Blind Spots:
Self Preservation:
- Self Care/Health 1)health, diet, rest, exercise, etc. We pay attention to our physical well-being. The healthy side of this is genuine self care, listening to our body awareness. Getting real nutrition, exercise, rest When we are not present, our ego fears & distort our relationship with SP causing us to not listen to the body's wisdom & real needs. For ex. we might overeat for fear of starving or starve ourselves for fear of being fat. We might be indolent or exercise ourselves to death. To work with this zone of SP is a process of listening to the bodies messages as sensations, 7 discerning this from the fears that cause us to neglect our needs or exaggerate them through fear.
- Practicality/Resources The 2nd zone of self pres instinct is practicality and resources. Part of survival is having necessary resources. In human affairs this also means the management & maintenance of those resources. These can include items such as money, possessions, time and energy. Self pres dom. people tend to have a practical streak--this can be anything from being skillful running a business or personal finances to knowing how to fix things. There is a sense of persistence & going for long-range goals. They work to maintain the foundations of life. W/o presence this can lead to constant worry about resources & a grasping approach to life. Then SP dom people never feel relaxed or sufficiently secure. SP dom people might be focused on both the 1st & 2d zones or only good at one of them. Each person is different that way.
- Domesticity/Home The 3rd zone of self pres instinct is domesticity--creating & maintaining a home. People strong in the SP instinct may express this as a focus on home-life. This means doing what's needed to keep a home, but also liking to be home as a place to relax & recharge
One way people dominant in SP instinct may express the instinct is in cultivating a grounded, stable domestic life. They may prefer to be home than to travel or go out, & may develop skills for making the home comfortable & practical--sometimes even beautiful
W/o presence, this talent for domestic order can become a pattern of lethargy--becoming stuck in ruts. It can also lead to fears of stepping outside of familiar tracks. Positively, we tend to do better when we have some kind of sound foundation/base of operations for our life
The 3 Zones of Self Pres in the #enneagram are 1) self care/health 2) practicality/resources 3) domesticity/home. When we are more present we simply respond to these needs as they come up. When we are dominant in SP, we get preoccupied & potentially neurotic about these areas Even if we are dominant in SP, we are usually not good at all 3 zones--usually 2 of them with 1 lagging. Some are good at practicality but not at self care for example. If SP is our weakest instinct, we are still adequate or even good at one zone. Which one is your best?
Sexual:
As with SP instinct, SX instinct is easiest to recognize as sensation in the body. SP showed up as specific sensations that tell us "how we are doing." Hunger, warmth, fatigue or feeling rested, etc, all are direct sensations. SX instinct is a different set of sensations.
SX instinct sensations feels more like tingling--an electrical feeling in the body. We might notice it in some areas more than others. As we pay attention, the feeling grows & fills in, like Whitman's poem "I Sing the Body Electric." When present, we feel more vital & alive. Distortions of this instinct bring in fears about desirability--often narcissistic problems. Their can be a need to keep amping up this instinct or a need to shut it down. It can lead to an addiction to risky-taking & even self destructive behaviors. Very different from SP. When we are present, SX instinct tends to attract us to people & things that are good for us, that evolve us. When not so present, we tend to get attracted to people & situations that are repetitions of our narcissistic wounds. We keep signing up for the same hurts & heartbreaks.
- Attraction: The 1st zone of SX instinct I call attraction--both attracting & being attracted, magnetism. People strong in this instinct are more aware of what attracts them--they don't need a reason. They also put more energy into attracting others thru highlighting strengths/features. Many dominant in this instinct have heightened charisma. They broadcast a quality of energy that commands attention. Social dominants have something similar, but this energy attracts--draws others in. Even when they are not aware of it, this energy tends to broadcast.SX dominant instinct makes us more aware of our own attractions. When we come into a room, we notice the "hot spots"--areas of interest--very quickly. Similarly, it can be hard to pay attention to others when this attraction is not present. We can get restless & impatient.
- Exploration/Edge: The 2nd zone of SX instinct I call exploration & edge. People strong in this instinct are typically more interested in experiencing life powerfully than they are in stability or security. They are drawn to the edges of life to discovering their own edges, energetically. When this zone is strong our whole life has a flavor of exploration & adventure. We may fear getting stuck in a rut & be willing to sacrifice some forms of security to have an interesting lifestyle. This isn't about planning--more going with the impulse to try something out. Positively, this leads to a rich life & to broader, deeper experiences that we can bring to our work & relationships. Negatively, it can lead to dissipation or an attraction to danger--edge becomes putting ourselves at risk, drawn into an unsavory demimonde. Self destruction.When we are present, this zone helps us to get out of our lethargy, our comfortable "sleep." It activates us, & brings us back to the wakeful intensity of this moment. When not present, it makes us restless & in search of stimulation--it distracts us from our being.
- Fusion/Merging: The 3rd zone of SX instinct I call fusion/merging. It may be this aspect of the instinct that led to the concept of "one-on one." Many strong in SX seek intense fusion with the object of their attention. It goes beyond connecting (which is social) and is not only w. people.When this zone is strong we have a strong urge to lose ourselves in something or someone. Certainly with a person we are attracted to, but also to a piece of music or an engrossing book. We seek conversations where the rest of the world seems to fall away. And we like this.Positively, this leads to a a beautiful capacity for focus & for being with the energy of another. Negatively, it can lead to a recurrent pattern of losing ourselves in relationships as well as in preoccupations--a difficulty holding a middle ground. All or nothing is tough. This should not be confused with intimacy & thinking of ourselves as "intense" or "deep." Most people think of themselves that way. This part of us can involve into a fiery commitment to our awakening, and to to staying on track with our practice regardless of what arises.
Social:
I guess it is worth repeating that all 3 dom. instincts seek intimacy & one-on-one relationship. Most people prefer this to "relating w. a group" which is one reason why many do not realize they are actually social dominant. We just focus on different things in our 1-1 relating.Social instinct is NOT only about "the group," it is about awareness of the OTHER. How is the other feeling? How are they reacting to me? How am I affecting them? Sexual instinct is about the energy (or lack there of) between us. Both can be present in the same relationship. SO instinct began w. parenting. Most species on earth do not parent--it is a fairly late development in evolution. But the awareness of the state of the young became crucial as more complex animals required more time to "grow up." So the parental bond is the origin of Social. Many people confuse SX & SO but of course everyone has both of these instincts. The drive to connect, to relate, to know each other, is social. It brings its own brand of intimacy. We can be attracted without bonding, and we can bond without attraction, or both can be there.
- Reading People: I call the 1st zone of Social instinct "Reading People." When we are strong in this zone we pick up cues from others. We can read facial expressions & body language. We can read between the lines of what others are saying & get what they actually mean. We adapt accordingly. This zone helps us better navigate relationships. We can read an individual's state or the overall mood in a group. It's also what helps us be good parents/caregivers--we have to be able to sense what the child needs. It helps us adapt & respond to what we detect in others. It's difficult to accomplish much w/o some ability to tune into others so this zone is hugely helpful. But w/o presence it can lead to anxieties & self-defeating behaviors, over-concern about others--fearing exclusion or being devalued. We may reject our own knowing to please. Different types manifest this in different ways. We all have a different sense of what we can bring to others and how we can respond to them. But when this zone is strong, we are able to show up w. others & create truly collaborative & reciprocally beneficial relationships. Social instinct does NOT mean "socializing." It isn't "small talk." When people get together, it is usually for some reason. The reason might be from one of the other instincts (attraction or practical needs), but can be about other things too. For ex, 5s get for knowledge. SO is about the ability to get together for whatever we might be creating or exploring. This is tough to do if we are not interested in others or assume they have nothing to offer us. If we assume that, we are not paying much attention. But presence restore us quickly. It can be helpful to contemplate the question "What DO I like to do, create, accomplish, or explore with others?" There is always something. If our answer is a knee-jerk "nothing," consider that our inner critic might be at work, cutting us off before we even can explore it.
- Creating/Maintaining Connections: I call the 2nd zone of Social instinct "Creating & Maintaining Connections." Here, the title is pretty self-explanatory, yet this zone is often confused w. SX because of the misleading "one-on-one" term. People strong in SO work at their relationships & strive for reciprocity. This zone helps us in our ability to engage others, & to strengthen connections when it serves our purposes or desires. This does NOT mean that all SO dominant people are extroverts--MANY are introverts. But it does mean that people strong in this zone value communication. We might be able to attract people into our sphere with SX instinct, but SO helps us stay engaged with people ( or animals for that matter.) We reach out. W/o presence this zone can deteriorate into codependent behaviors & anxious attempts to ingratiate ourselves w. others. When this zone of SO is strong, we are more thoughtful & considerate of others. Beyond simply reading them, we acquire behaviors to connect--to create a sense of belonging for ourselves & for them. Even withdrawn types like 4 & 5 do this thru sharing ideas or experiences.
- Participation/Contribution: The 3rd zone of Social instinct is "Participation & Contribution." Humans NEED to be able to contribute, to know that their efforts are meaningful to others. It is instinctual. In this sense, we can also be passionate about what we contribute to others and this is Social. Participation also brings a sense of belonging--that we are welcomed & that what we are doing matters. When people do not feel this in their lives it can lead to depression & suicide. Our contributions may be very local or very public, but we humans don't do well w/o this. Participation does not mean joining everything or always wanting to be around people. We could be introverts & love solitude but still have a strong drive to contribute. It is the SO instinct that discerns WHAT we participate in, helps us realize what is NOT right for us. W/o presence, this zone can deteriorate into constant anxieties about belonging, creating in and out groups, & narcissistic needs to be important. But at its best, is the drive that keeps us contributing to the human journey and creating a meaningful life for self & others.
Even if an instinct is dominant, it doesn't mean you will be strong in all 3 zones. Usually one lags. And you will have at least one zone working in your weakest instinct. It's helpful to look at all 9 zones & explore your relationship with each one of them--customize this.
Blind Spots:
As we will see next, discovering our weakest instinct, which I call our "blind spot," ends up being the key to growth. The relationship between the strongest instinct & the blind spot is more important than deciding "which one I am." None of them is " my identity." As you ponder the 9 zones I have described, see if you can notice which areas you spend a lot of time with vs those that might need some more attention. It helps to let go of ideas about your dominant instinct while you do this. Kindness and presence are huge helps here! Best not to assume you already know about this. We might THINK about doing certain things, but some areas actually get our time and attention. Others, less so. We need to be gentle but honest with ourselves, and then a picture emerges of the habitual patters of our lives. We will get a felt sense about what will bring more wholeness & balance. This we can work with! We get insights into realistic changes that can support us flourishing & can create customized practices to integrate them. Now we begin to get what the Enneagram is really about. I offer this work also because people keep asking "Besides being present, what should I DO?" Living from presence will be one of the greatest challenges we ever undertake! And without this grace of awareness, the changes we make are likely to exacerbate our imbalances.When we are practiced enough to see our imbalances, we can begin to gently bring more awareness, time, and effort, to the neglected areas of our lives. The dividends are immediate & amazing. We also begin to relax our fear around our dominant instincts/concerns--a huge relief. So we want to look at the "blind spot"--our least developed instinct which has a lot of impact. It is tricky because this part of us creates issues & can even be mistaken for our dominant instinct as a result. Over the next few days I will offer some clues to help us find it. I am not totally certain our dominant instinct always stays on top. Many people have reported that their 1st & 2nd instincts sometimes have changed places. I have seen though, that the blind spot doesn't move. We can learn to work on it, but the habit to neglect it remains. Just as with our dominant instinct, we can see the symptoms of our blind spot. One is that it creates some of our most ongoing & painful negative self-concepts. Our inner critic brings these old fears up whenever we try to change our instinctual orientations & habits.
- SPWhen Self-Pres is our blind spot, we may still be competent at certain areas, but overall, our life lacks structure & regularity. We may even resist them. We do things more randomly & our schedule tends to be more changeable. We usually avoid at least 2 of the zones of SP. Some of us may really lack self care--avoiding medical & dental check ups, having haphazard relationships with exercise & rest, etc. We eat what we like w/o much thought about diet. We may also lack focus on resources, hoping others will handle this part of life. We get by. We may avoid focus on domesticity. Our home may be more of a "crash pad"--the place where I sleep & keep my stuff. We may even fear getting trapped by domestic life, seeing it as drudgery & heaviness. When at least 2 of these zones are challenges, this may be our blind spot. When we have trouble with the resources zone of Self Pres, it does not necessarily mean we are "bad" at handling money. It means we do not think about finances very much. We many not have a clear idea of what is in our bank account. We don't give our finances much focus. When we don't focus on these money matters, it can lead to trouble. There can be a quiet panicky feeling when we are called upon to deal with financial affairs. Things like contracts & financial discussions can make our eyes glaze over even when they are for our benefit.When we finally do focus on our practical foundations, we find it more interesting than we might have imagined & get more relaxed & energized. We feel more confident, finally addressing those nagging feelings in the back of our minds. We can consciously choose this. All of 3 blind spots come with forms of negative self talk, that function to keep the "old way" in place. These patterns were formed in early childhood and were likely necessary for our psychological well being at the time. But the patterns don't know we have grown up. When Self Pres is our blind spot, this self attack is along the lines of "I am a flake. I do not have it together & I never will. I am not sure how to be an adult & I feel like an eternal kid. I don't know how the world works & I am not sure how to establish myself in life. We sometimes try to overcompensate by emphasizing how youthful we are, what "free spirits" we are, but in more vulnerable moments these assertions feel hollow & we are left with the helpless feelings. It is important to realize these voices are NOT true--they are primal fears. Every time we make efforts to address our SP blindspot, some variation on these fears & negative voices may come up. So we learn to recognize them, take a deep breath, let the fear pass through us, & discover our own way of dealing with this part of life with skill & love.
- SX:When Sexual Instinct is our blind spot, it really doesn't say anything about whether we have sex or not. It also doesn't mean that we lack "intensity." There are kinds of intensity that come from other instincts. Social instinct might make us intense about our work, for ex. With the SX blind spot, we may feel passions & powerful energies. We may notice desires for new experiences & adventures, but we tend to procrastinate acting on these wishes. We postpone that which activates us & brings us excitement & energy. We turn away from this energy. Often, people with SX blind spot feel a heightened sense of responsibility. We had to be the sensible one to keep things together. Following these energies can feel too risky. But we can be surprised at how delighted our loved ones are when we allow our passionate energy. Of course Sexual Instinct blind spot comes with forms of negative self talk too, and as with Self Pres blind spot, it functions to keep us in old patterns. These cannot provide all the specific ways these "voices" show up, but they are meant to provide a flavor. Here we go. When SX is our blind spot, the self attack is along the lines of "I am hopelessly boring. I can't imagine anyone taking much interest in me, & if they do I suspect there is something wrong with them. Thank God I can be useful because few would be interested in me otherwise." Imagine if every time you start feeling your mojo, those voices come up. They are designed to make us turn back & give up. Sometimes we overcompensate by thinking of ourselves as wilder & more adventurous than we actually are. But it is more helpful to awaken to the voices. Being conscious of the voices & kind to ourselves--seeing they are NOT TRUE but that they may have served some purpose long ago, begins a process of freeing ourselves from these old patterns. Then we can begin to re-engage our blind spot which restores balance to our lives.
Re: blind spots, I should add that these self attacks do not always come as voices. They can manifest as losing energy, shutting down, feeling anxious, etc. This can be signs that we're getting close to our ego defenses. Then we need extra kindness & sometimes support from others. When Social Instinct is our blind spot, we reflexively think being with people is going to be a drag & a drain. It is different from the need to have space to recharge. It is as though we cannot remember that we often gain valuable experience & knowledge through interaction. This has nothing to do with not liking groups & parties. Most people have limits in enjoying these! It does not mean we only like 1-on-1 connection. Most SO dominants prefer 1-on-1 communication. It means we resist connecting until we discover the value in the connection.People with SO blind tend to associate human connection w. previous disappointments & humiliations. So it feels safer to not engage. "Step out of the sun if you keep getting burned." --Dear Evan Hansen. Healing comes as we discover myriad ways of connecting that work for us. People have asked about SO doms who are introverts. If you look at the 3 zones of SO: reading people, creating connections, & contribution, you can see how you might have great skills/capacities in at least 2 of these, but still need lots of private time to recharge.SO dominants may really enjoy people but find interacting tires them. With SO blind spot, there is a reaction/aversion to the idea of connecting. "Do I have to?" Again, this is based in conditioning, & we will look at some of the negative voices associated w. this blind spot.Social Instinct blind spot comes with another form of negative self talk, although it is a bit harder to pin down than the SP or SX blind spot voices. And as with the others there is a core of self attack obscured by a justification which keeps the old pattern in place.
- SO:When SO is our blind spot, the self attack is along the lines of "There is something deeply defective & shameful about me--especially about my emotions. I feel like I SHOULD care about people, but to be honest, often I don't. I am scared people will see my shortcomings." SO blind spot often manifests as an exaggerated self-consciousness. It's hard to relax & be w. people. We are afraid of making mistakes--"faux pas." It feels easier to simply avoid human contact than to risk being humiliated. But then we do not get practice or develop skills We may justify this by thinking people are boring, shallow, clueless, etc. But w. awareness, we see these as defenses against our fears about ourselves. Again, the voices are NOT telling the truth. We discover we connect ABOUT something interesting/important to us. We share.With all 3 blind spots, the idea is that none of the negative voices are true. But they scare/humiliate us out of trying new behaviors. When we DO tend to these neglected parts of our lives, we generally feel better & more balanced. We get less obsessive about our dom. instinct.
What I learned from years of working w. the instincts & seeing what helped my students is that it doesn't really work to try to "not do" your dominant instinct. It is like saying "whatever you do, don't think of the color blue." Just turns us into a psychological pretzel! What DOES seem to help is giving more compassionate attention to the blind spot. This tends to restore balance throughout & once we work through the initial resistance & inertia, we tend to feel way better about ourselves. It seems to take the pressure off the dom. instinct This doesn't mean copying the habits of people who have our blind spot as their dom. instinct. Often they are overdoing it & we don't need that. Part of the fun & creativity is finding our own way to address these needs. It usually helps to get support in learning new ways. It's in this sense that the Enneagram knowledge becomes useful. As we explore our relationship with each instinct & zone, we get real wisdom about where we need to bring more energy & attention & where we already have things handled. The balance makes it easier to stay present.
One clue about finding our blind spot. We tend to get triggered when a person whose dominant instinct is our blind spot is doing their "overdoing" of the instinct. It triggers us because it is shadow material--making explicit something about ourselves we haven't seen. If SP is our blind spot, seeing people fuss about SP issues drives us nuts. "Leave the thermostat alone. Why can't they get a life? Are you packing for a year?" If SX is our blind spot, we tend to see SX dom people as too much. "Such show-offs. Tacky. Get a room already." If SO is our blind spot we see SO dom. people as shallow, wasting time "socializing." "They are fake & don't really care. No one is talking about anything deep." The clue is that others aren't having the same reaction. People MAY be doing neurotic stuff, but WE are triggered. We have been looking at how working with the 3 instincts in the Enneagram is not about identifying with one of them, ("I am a __ subtype"), but becoming more conscious of our programming with all of them. We are seeking deeper presence & better balance in our lives. The instinctual areas of our ego tend to be the most unconscious & habitual part of us, so it takes extra awareness & kindness to deal with them. Traditionally, this was seen as advanced work, but with adequate explanation, I think many people can benefit from this study.
Beyond better balance in our affairs, working on our blind spot brings a real inner relaxation. We're better able to land where we are. I also have noticed that when people do this, previous creative & spiritual insights they've had finally get integrated into their lives. The triangle in the Enneagram symbol is a reminder that the way home is through paradox. We are this AND that. We live in dynamic polarities. We are both stillness & dynamism, strong & sensitive, courageous & anxious, joyful & sad. We have a type but we are more than a type, etc.
One clue about finding our blind spot. We tend to get triggered when a person whose dominant instinct is our blind spot is doing their "overdoing" of the instinct. It triggers us because it is shadow material--making explicit something about ourselves we haven't seen. If SP is our blind spot, seeing people fuss about SP issues drives us nuts. "Leave the thermostat alone. Why can't they get a life? Are you packing for a year?" If SX is our blind spot, we tend to see SX dom people as too much. "Such show-offs. Tacky. Get a room already." If SO is our blind spot we see SO dom. people as shallow, wasting time "socializing." "They are fake & don't really care. No one is talking about anything deep." The clue is that others aren't having the same reaction. People MAY be doing neurotic stuff, but WE are triggered. We have been looking at how working with the 3 instincts in the Enneagram is not about identifying with one of them, ("I am a __ subtype"), but becoming more conscious of our programming with all of them. We are seeking deeper presence & better balance in our lives. The instinctual areas of our ego tend to be the most unconscious & habitual part of us, so it takes extra awareness & kindness to deal with them. Traditionally, this was seen as advanced work, but with adequate explanation, I think many people can benefit from this study.
Beyond better balance in our affairs, working on our blind spot brings a real inner relaxation. We're better able to land where we are. I also have noticed that when people do this, previous creative & spiritual insights they've had finally get integrated into their lives. The triangle in the Enneagram symbol is a reminder that the way home is through paradox. We are this AND that. We live in dynamic polarities. We are both stillness & dynamism, strong & sensitive, courageous & anxious, joyful & sad. We have a type but we are more than a type, etc.