Ezra
Luctor et emergo
- Joined
- Dec 12, 2007
- Messages
- 534
- MBTI Type
- ENTJ
- Enneagram
- 8w7
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
"Rationals are very scarce, comprising as little as 5 to 10 percent of the population. But because of their drive to unlock the secrets of nature, and to develop new technologies, they have done much to shape our world." Source
I haven't shaped our world recently - have you?
As an ENTJ, I'm feeling inferior right now. If I was an ENTP or an INTJ or INTP I might be more lenient with myself, but right now, I'm mediocre. I'm studying philosophy at a pretty good uni (but not one of the best) - Manchester, I'll probably graduate with a low-to-medium 2:1 all the while I watch my peers around me succeeding, many of whom are most certainly not NTs, and yet they're on for Firsts and high 2:1s. I've done a bit of extracurricular on the side, like Officers Training Corps - although my role was nothing special; almost invisible, when really I should have taken the leadership roles naturally, surely? I did a bit of Quaker stuff where I flourished a bit more (maybe because Quakerism is in my family whereas the military isn't). I don't work, even though I'm in a stupid amount of debt. I probably won't find a job after I graduate - a job with prospects and a decent salary, and if I'm in the special 5-10% of the population, should I not at this moment be flying high with a great career lined up for me?
The thing is, it's not like I'm working towards anything. I don't even have the desire to. What the FUCK has happened.
Please, someone, preferably an ENTJ, tell me they also went from mediocre to good in ten to twenty years, or I might just end up failing to see the point of working at all.
I haven't shaped our world recently - have you?
As an ENTJ, I'm feeling inferior right now. If I was an ENTP or an INTJ or INTP I might be more lenient with myself, but right now, I'm mediocre. I'm studying philosophy at a pretty good uni (but not one of the best) - Manchester, I'll probably graduate with a low-to-medium 2:1 all the while I watch my peers around me succeeding, many of whom are most certainly not NTs, and yet they're on for Firsts and high 2:1s. I've done a bit of extracurricular on the side, like Officers Training Corps - although my role was nothing special; almost invisible, when really I should have taken the leadership roles naturally, surely? I did a bit of Quaker stuff where I flourished a bit more (maybe because Quakerism is in my family whereas the military isn't). I don't work, even though I'm in a stupid amount of debt. I probably won't find a job after I graduate - a job with prospects and a decent salary, and if I'm in the special 5-10% of the population, should I not at this moment be flying high with a great career lined up for me?
The thing is, it's not like I'm working towards anything. I don't even have the desire to. What the FUCK has happened.
Please, someone, preferably an ENTJ, tell me they also went from mediocre to good in ten to twenty years, or I might just end up failing to see the point of working at all.