Redbone
Orisha
- Joined
- Apr 27, 2010
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- MBTI Type
- ENFP
- Enneagram
- 9w8
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
Thinking about this a little more...
...it's like eating cotton candy. It's pretty much gone as soon as it melts in the mouth which makes me want to stuff more in mouth to compensate. That kind of gluttony.
So I have a problem immersing myself in an activity, experience, moment and truly enjoying it because my gaze and desire is far-sighted. This doesn't mean I'm not enjoying whatever I'm doing but the thought of "this is going to end, then what?" is always in the back of my head. I can feel upset or even frantic when things are winding down. I try to compensate by looking for very intense experiences so that I can feel "full" or even trying to push energy into things that I should just let die. I have gotten in over my head because of this.
[MENTION=10496]skylights[/MENTION] , this has been true but it was hard to recognize it for what it was. I only figured this out when I read another description of 7s going through a time where something wonderful was painfully ripped away from them (I think elfboy posted this?). It spoke of having a tranquil childhood period and then that being ripped away from them, similar to what 4s experience but later...a kind of ejection from Paradise. I think the description said being a suckling babe and torn away from the breast. There is a determination that this never, ever happens again.
It's a bad thing, I know. As a 7, I need to grow and appreciate/feel gratitude for the now/present instead of instead of engaging in this intense mental masturbation by focusing on the next thing I want to consume. I was lying in the dark thinking about this a few weeks ago and was really horrified when I realized this. I felt really bad and realized that I had ruined something good by focusing on the distress that it would be over soon and being upset that I didn't have anything else to "eat".
My sister is Se-dom 7w6 (ESFP). She is materialistic and immerses herself in physical, material pleasures. Her way is this kind of moment-to-moment, rung-to-rung movement from experience to experience. It's smoother and she seems much more open and present to whatever she's doing. I think she enjoys anticipation but seems to derive less pleasure from this than I do and doesn't seem to suffer from as much feeling let down if things don't play out like she imagined they should be. I'm much more likely to be pretty upset from things not playing out like they did in my imagination. She'd be quicker to find something else to do or affect the situation to make it more pleasing to her. I guess this ability to impact what's going on right now? Not sure how to describe it. I really, really envy that about her. [MENTION=6109]Halla74[/MENTION] does that sound about right to you as an Se-dom?
...it's like eating cotton candy. It's pretty much gone as soon as it melts in the mouth which makes me want to stuff more in mouth to compensate. That kind of gluttony.
So I have a problem immersing myself in an activity, experience, moment and truly enjoying it because my gaze and desire is far-sighted. This doesn't mean I'm not enjoying whatever I'm doing but the thought of "this is going to end, then what?" is always in the back of my head. I can feel upset or even frantic when things are winding down. I try to compensate by looking for very intense experiences so that I can feel "full" or even trying to push energy into things that I should just let die. I have gotten in over my head because of this.
[MENTION=10496]skylights[/MENTION] , this has been true but it was hard to recognize it for what it was. I only figured this out when I read another description of 7s going through a time where something wonderful was painfully ripped away from them (I think elfboy posted this?). It spoke of having a tranquil childhood period and then that being ripped away from them, similar to what 4s experience but later...a kind of ejection from Paradise. I think the description said being a suckling babe and torn away from the breast. There is a determination that this never, ever happens again.
It's a bad thing, I know. As a 7, I need to grow and appreciate/feel gratitude for the now/present instead of instead of engaging in this intense mental masturbation by focusing on the next thing I want to consume. I was lying in the dark thinking about this a few weeks ago and was really horrified when I realized this. I felt really bad and realized that I had ruined something good by focusing on the distress that it would be over soon and being upset that I didn't have anything else to "eat".
My sister is Se-dom 7w6 (ESFP). She is materialistic and immerses herself in physical, material pleasures. Her way is this kind of moment-to-moment, rung-to-rung movement from experience to experience. It's smoother and she seems much more open and present to whatever she's doing. I think she enjoys anticipation but seems to derive less pleasure from this than I do and doesn't seem to suffer from as much feeling let down if things don't play out like she imagined they should be. I'm much more likely to be pretty upset from things not playing out like they did in my imagination. She'd be quicker to find something else to do or affect the situation to make it more pleasing to her. I guess this ability to impact what's going on right now? Not sure how to describe it. I really, really envy that about her. [MENTION=6109]Halla74[/MENTION] does that sound about right to you as an Se-dom?