Sexuality is my personal paradox. Everyone seems so obsessed with it and I usually wonder what everyone sees or why they're turned on by things I'm not.
I'm barely sexual at all usually. Mainly I'm looking on and wondering why everyone's so obsessed with it.
Sexuality is usually more robotic and analytical for me. Experimentation. Sometimes actual urges come, but often not. I'm not sexual normally, but sometimes I'm randomly hit with definite urges from attractions. In terms of sexual classification I'm closest to a "gray-sexual". Typically I'm more likely to admire someone's features and want to draw them fascinated, rather than dive into their pants.
Sex is also sacred to me. I wouldn't ever "sleep around" and would rather just wait for the time to merge with one I felt deeply for enough, whether or not that consists of sex, so be it.
Sensuality on the other hand is something I value greatly. But sometimes even with that I can be distant and don't like public displays of affection, as it feels awkward. But privately is another story. I can seem a little intense on one end, but very distant on another. When it comes to affection. Wavers around.
It's complicated. . .