Hmm, I know I said you come off as way more ISFJ than ESFJ and I hold to that, but this post is very ENFP-ish.
+ I know you're going to ask me to elaborate, so let me explain why. It just struck me in this post that you seem dissatisfied by the lack of feeling like your life is currently infused with spiritual purpose/deeper meaning. It also seems like the connections you have with people right now aren't profound or inspiring you in any way.
Also, being aware of why you are dissatisfied does not mean that you are self-indulgent or whining.
Seems like you can't become a satisfied person without figuring out why you're dissatisfied and how to be satisfied!
The interesting aspect to my decision making is that I usually come to a cognitive conclusion based on my personal views.
I do agree with Fe at least, but those personal views are generally not shared in the least by others and explanation of them usually causes derision.
I've basically been able to lead a life where, for the most part, I was doing things I actually wanted to do. Although lately I have been forced to find a job, two in fact, as is the dictate of a capitilist society.
Society, now there's a topic. That's something else as well, I'm not really in tune with my society, in fact I have little love for the concept of society at all, yes if it is a good and sound one it helps to govern and keep some people on a decent path, but too often it turns an oppression of some kind and one of the worst oppressions of a capitilist society is putting a price on life......that of 6.19 an hour.
On the other hand there are many benefits as well, such as materialistic goods to while the hours away with and a fairly whimiscal economy, oh wait that can also be bad.
If I were in charge of a society, ( the horror right?), I would probably try to introduce educational systems starting at school ages, that sought to introduce a better self awareness and understanding of the self. Because too long have people relied upon external structure for their governance in life. External structure helps of course, but that needs to be backed up by a deeper understanding of the consequences of our choices, the knowledge of ourselves and our own foibles, that we might guard ourselves against them and then eventually understand them.
External imposition through laws and rules can only take people so far, there needs to be more understanding turned inward as well.
I've always thought that people were far more psychological than they made themselves out to be. Even a group of people standing around just gossiping are being psychological in a way, as they are assessing others and maybe themselves, just on a small and superficial scale. But imagine tapping into that and giving the average person the mental equipment to go in-depth with those assessments and maybe come to a better consideration rather than just judging and moving on.
This I suppose is where the Fe-ism comes in because I have asked myself whether or not it could be that certain types of cognition are overly catered to and their negative sides enabled much more than others.
So It might seem like I'm trying to get people to conform to behaviour I see as proper, but really I want them to be themselves, but a much happier and healthy version of themselves which is beneficial for everyone in the long run.
I personally see this as one of the main routes we could possibly take in the future as a species, a movement towards a better understanding and consideration for all.
Now that's some serious Fe, although whether or not my vision is naive based on differences in intelligence and understanding and how these ideas could be translated across without diluting them too much, remains to be seen