Totenkindly
@.~*virinaĉo*~.@
- Joined
- Apr 19, 2007
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Upon seeing my reflection in the mirror.
Hot damn, I am human after all.
What about the whiskers?
Upon seeing my reflection in the mirror.
Hot damn, I am human after all.
What about the whiskers?
i took a free test online (i think similarminds) for the first time when i was about 14. i tested as ENXP, and went back and forth between the two before i decided on ENFP. i forgot about mbti for a while, and then retook it and realized that i was in denial about being an introvert. i was answering questions as an extrovert because that's how i'd rather be, but not how i really am. i also think i mistook feeling for Fe (which isn't my strong point) over Fi, which is why i thought i could be a T (i'm definitely not).
and I could start to really think about "what made me, feel like a happy me".
With the logic craze gone, I realized that in actuality, I have very "F" behavior. I'm expressive, I'm "invested" (in ways that the T's are often detached)
i took a free test online (i think similarminds) for the first time when i was about 14. i tested as ENXP, and went back and forth between the two before i decided on ENFP. i forgot about mbti for a while, and then retook it and realized that i was in denial about being an introvert. i was answering questions as an extrovert because that's how i'd rather be, but not how i really am. i also think i mistook feeling for Fe (which isn't my strong point) over Fi, which is why i thought i could be a T (i'm definitely not).
How does someone explain something like this? I guess, if it has to be in words, then the simple reasons follow.
I reflected upon what I really feel inside and what emotions and expressions I have learned to suppress to survive and get along with people in this world; as well as understanding the shadow types that I show.
I decided to throw all that endless senseless logic about everything away from this and be honest with myself instead of trying to rationalize that I can be anything that I need to be and make that alone a reason not to regret anything I do...except I always feel paralyzed to some degree when I do this and something doesn't jive with me even if it does with everyone else. I'm very wary of people and their endless pushing of their own agendas without any consideration of what constitutes another persons being and own sense of fulfillment. I am very much an INFJ at the core. But I am not very overtly friendly or very trusting like the stereotype, nor do I care much to attend to social niceties and commonalities when 'it is so boringly obvious' that most of it is forced and fake. I'm not misanthropic, I just know when I'm hearing and being forced to deal with 'plain shit'. Why most stereotypical INFJs seem to be so fine with this, I don't know. Maybe their environments feel much more honest so they don't feel the need to be so defensive. Or maybe most are endlessly naive unless they end up learning all the harder truths and frustrations about human beings. I don't know. Or maybe I have ingrained some kind of cold negative XSTP mentality into my being and don't have much energy left to risk being drained by caring for someone only to find out I don't get enough back. I don't know, but no more analyzing. Oh, and this is the only type that doesn't feel like a lie, or even a mask I'm projecting or wearing, out of stress, or out of determination to make myself another type and not have to rely on anyone.
If anyone isn't sure of his/her type, the worst thing to do is to keep taking more assessments, whether they're free or normed instruments. ALL of them are self-reporting instruments, not diagnostic tools, and the more you know about the theory, the harder it is to report your preferences as opposed to what you should/have to/want to be.