Honestly, no Enneagram type seems to fit. I've been typed as a 4, a 7, and an 8. 8 seems more wrong by the second, 7 is outlandish, and 4 is more the kind of scene I like than who I actually am, I see that now. So... I now have no idea what type I am =/ At first everything seemed to make sense because... I've been furious lately. And I'm being stubborn on an issue. That seemed 8-ish to me. But, on a regular basis... nothing fits.
when i started doing the tests, i'd come out as a 7 a lot.
but i knew i wasn't a seven. the fears and motivations
just didn't line up.
i knew i wasn't a seven because i don't fear pain, pain
actually brings humility to my cocky ass. makes me shutdown
and so i can internalize a bit. being very, very extraverted,
it's a strange mode to be in for me. but doesn't mean i fear
it. i was only like a seven in certain aspects: forward moving,
excited about what's next.
then i thought i was a 2 for the longest time, but i realised that
because i'm emotionally driven, the emotional manipulation i used
was just another form of control (and it wasn't about the other person).
which led me to re-read up on 8. because the first time i read about it,
i took it at too much face value. "i'm tiny and delicate, how can i possibly
be 8?" was my initial frame of thought.
and it just kinda fell in its place once i stripped away the external variables /
behaviour execution and started looking at it as general ideas. i dislike
weakness, and i dislike those that champion weakness so they can feel
as if they have a false sense of power over the weaker ones. above all
i dislike those that just self-victimize without ever considering to be
self-assertive so they can fall out of their destructive patterns.
the best way to really find out is to not rely on the tests, but use
it as guideline as where to begin exploring. read up, cross reference
different sources, there's so many schools of thoughts regarding the
enneagram, and it also helps to jot down some of your own fears,
and what your goals are, basically the more informed you are about
your own basic desires and fears it's easier to pinpoint what types align
with that so that you can explore in depth. just takes some effort.