About half of all the times I've taken MBTI i get ENFP OR INFP. the rest of the times, I've ended up ENTJ or INTJ. the last 5 most recent MBTI have been INFP. when i took the socionics test, i got IEE, and after reading this description of Ne dominance. and extraversion, i finally see why I've alway felt more like an ambivert. its because i don't like to be around groups of people when I'm not in control of the content. My 4w5 definitely lends itself to introversion, though. But if I'm around the right people, i will chatter incessantly and ask enough questions until i know what they're about and can form a working model of them in my mind.
I was recently diagnosed with ADD and put on adderall after having also recently started prozac and have been curious what changes in my personality have occurred. strangely, I've felt more myself and a lot more able to confidently and freely be the ditz i am, rather than have to appear so pit together all the time to hide all the stuff that's falling apart like i did before. i feel like its simultaneously allowed me to enjoy and find great feeling things to do in my alone time. (Baths, crochet, cook actual meals, watch shows, get a yoga swing ), while also allowed me to feel more open during social time. almost no social anxiety right now. I wonder what role dopamine has to play in this.
because i was abused as a child, i have some strange contradictory patterns of inhibition and disinhibition. Suddenly, on the meds, i feel more like. myself,, if that makes sense. I'm excited to want to rummage through people's cabinets when i visit, to want to climb the interesting trees again, to get everyone i can think of to do it with me and feel this freedom and inspiration. i want to infect the whole world with enthusiasm and help them clear away the blocks. i remember reading that on theory of extroversion is the reward seeking activities are more abundant in E Vs I. i wonder if the extra dopamine has pushed my Ne up and put my Fi down. its all very fascinating and i wish i had time to sort through all the data, but there's never enough time.