A Demonic Lover
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- Aug 24, 2017
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- MBTI Type
- xNxP
- Enneagram
- 6w5
- Instinctual Variant
- sp
I was talking about being confused about what MBTI type I am and someone asked if I had made a Type Me thread, and I realized it would be a good idea.
Okay, my confusion lies in multiple things.
Okay, my confusion lies in multiple things.
- I am not sure if I am an extrovert or introvert. As a kid, I used to spend all my time on the Internet watching YouTube videos, daydreaming 24/7 about anime, writing about fictional characters, and I hated talking to others. I never interacted with the other kids because I found them boring and annoying. I also was (and I still struggle with this) insecure about my appearance and my lack of social skills (they are not as bad as before). I withdrew because I thought I would have gotten rejected. But I felt miserable with no friends, and once I made some, I was much better (until drama crap). I often used other people's criticisms in order to validate my fears and insecurities. But when I am with my friends and/or people that interest me, I feel energized with them. While I can be alone, I always have to be doing something. Either typing on my phone, listening to loud music, or writing, or playing the piano. Just sitting alone makes me bored, horribly bored. Most of my thoughts and imaginations come from things I have seen online and what I think they CAN become. I remember when I was eight years old, I ran around in circles thinking about if Spongebob had a collaboration with a bunch of anime characters. But like an introvert, I'm naturally private and I often don't share my thoughts because I feel like no one around me is interested or I just lose interest. But when I am in a supportive environment, I'm blunt and forthcoming in my thoughts and I can be very vocal about my thoughts and opinions. Though I try to be open-minded.
- I am not sure if I use Ti as a dominant or auxiliary function. I once wrote to an MBTI blog about how I think I am an ENFP but I realized throughout the entire piece, my reason for Fi was because all the things I am into are people-centric systems. I was trying to apply the principles (aka Core things about Fi) and trying to see how it applies to me and my life. I also suck with comforting people. I realized that I was constantly thinking about how something works and I often simplify it, while Ti descriptions seem like they are trying to overcomplicate it. I see Ti as "figuring out how things work and using it to help you". At least, that is what my understanding is. I thought I was an Fi user because I am a generally honest person and don't really care too much about what other people think. But I don't have a defined moral code and I often struggle with being indifferent. My morals don't seem to come from "within". I also lack Te because I don't organize my external world unless I am forced to. I can use Te in school (for assignments) but outside of it I don't. I don't abandon something if it isn't productive in the real world.
- I am pretty sure I am not an Ni/Se user. I lack the single-mindedness and I don't get "aha moments really. I also have very little awareness of my environment unless if I consciously force myself to do so.
- I believe I have Ne as either my dominant or auxiliary function. I constantly think "what if?" and I'm good at understanding multiple perspectives. I can easily connect things together to form a possible narrative, though I may not care to make it into a reality. I often have a multitude of ideas which I easily get bored from and I struggle with fully completing those ideas when I get bored of them. I believe Si is lower in my stack because I can forget to take care of my physical needs when I get invested in something, I either overindulge or utterly forget to do so. I am terrible with details and get eventually bored with repetitive tasks.