Fair enough. You are like one of remedial students--you don't test well, but seem smarter that testing would suggest. I am constantly accused of being lazy and lacking urgency, but I wouldn't be surprised if I have a thyroid issue since I can assure you I push myself to my limit every day just trying to hold my ground and have a safe haven to relax and to one day have a great retirement. I was going to get my thyroid checked November 1st, but will be having it checked instead on November 15th. The massive fatigue day after day for nearly every day kills me. I need more energy to keep my job, since it doesn't look good to miss a deadline--and there is no sympathy for mental health issues. Hell, even the times I've shown empathy or leniency to others its backfired badly on me. The past year, I've made an effort to focus only on my own needs and building my personal wealth and power. I have tried to reserve my help for those that could maybe help me later, and even then, I share my resources sparingly. I'm a nihilistic pessimist who goes through the motions necessary in life to reduce my personal suffering in the long run. However, that doesn't change that life is basically coming into existance, only to suffer briefly then die--unless you are at a level of wealth I will not achieve. I've made it to the median income for my local economy, though-- 50% of people earn less than I do, 50% earn more. I hear above this point, each dollar you earn buys less and less happiness. This means somebody twice as rich as me would not be twice as happy. The person making twice as much income as myself will at most only be slightly happier. I always heard though, that making it to the 50% mark for your area of the world will get you all the happiness that can be rented for money. With wealth mostly out of the way, I suppose the next important thing is health. Health allows happiness.