, however, is an exercise in futility. As approachable and relatable I seem, I'm really only good for that with one-on-one interactions. Past that, I tend to fade away, mostly chiming in here and there, laughing along when needed or staying silent when the mood gets a bit sombre. I don't have a problem with expressing my emotions, but I have problems trying to direct them. I also find it very tiring trying to keep it up IRL.
When I was younger, I used to have a habit of blurting out whatever that comes to mind. I still do now, but only with friends. With strangers/acquaintances/colleagues I've learned to stay silent because I might offend them, but it sure is stifling. I would like to be able to say whatever the hell I want, because I'm pretty sure it's entertaining or funny when you get to know me.