4th day, more post-exercise soreness.
I think I'm figuring that crying is as good exercise as anything.
And Unkindloving, I think you have far too much faith in me. I'm about as rational as a housecat, and am so mentally and emotionally stunted that I'll stay that way for the rest of my life.
Actually hap, you remind me of an ISTP in Fe-meltdown mode with a Ti-Ni existential crisis thrown in. ISTPs in this mode often choose very self destructive behaviors, and then figure out pretty clever ways to justify that it was what they HAD to do.
Hap, here's my perspective. Your problem, as I see it, is that you are more concerned about proving yourself RIGHT than you are about actually getting better. Anything that doesn't fit into your current reality is immediately rejected. You don't remember a single thing anyone here has told you, but yet you cling to the horrible advice of your previous gym teachers. Why is that? Why do you listen to the people that cause you pain and ignore those that want you to get better?
You know I'm capable of a great deal of patience and support. But there's a catch: You have to show that you appreciate it. I'll help people when they respond, but I am beginning to value my time too much to waste it in places it's not wanted. And do you know how you show appreciation? By listening to what I, and other concerned people, are trying to tell you.
If yoga is causing you to cry for 4 days straight, quit going to yoga for now. PERIOD. If any exercise beyond walking is causing you extreme pain, QUIT DOING IT for now.
Go see a medical doctor. A DIFFERENT one. One through your school. You have stated that you have a condition that causes your body to process foods differently, and it sounds like it affects your pain levels as well. If you go to a doctor explaining this, you will eventually find one that can give you specific advice on how to adjust your lifestyle to fit your condition. It probably won't be a miracle cure that fixes anything immediately, but it will be a step in the right direction.
I'm glad that you scheduled an appointment with a psychologist. That's a HUGE step, and I wasn't kidding when I said I was proud of you for that. I don't underestimate how difficult that was for you. I hope that you share your experience in your blog and keep us up to date. I'll listen to that story, even if it hits road bumps.
However, what I will no longer do is respond any more of your posts that are only intended to whine and bring other people down to your level. I've seen a version of you that's better than that, and that's the Haphazard I want to see again.
And I'm sorry if this post comes off as unduly harsh. Know that to me, this type of honesty is a sign of respect and friendship. If I didn't care at all, I wouldn't have taken the time to write this out.