Chimerical
Permabanned
- Joined
- Apr 30, 2008
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- MBTI Type
- INTJ
- Enneagram
- 1w5
I'm tired of the bullshit sex brings about. Sex is perfectly fine by all means. But people's reactions are horible. Last girl I had sex with wont stop following me around and got really clingy and attached. She seemed fine enough, but she's too needy. Always asks me for money when I don't have any, always asking me for everything. I sure in the past two weeks I've said no more than I do within a year. I like life better when I don't have to say no.
Then there's Colleen. That could've worked out into a perfect friendship, but now there's next to nothing. I love her and want to be her friend. But she doesn't want to be much more than aquaintances. Thus I need to respect that and physically move on even if my emotions and mind hasn't.
The thing here is that I remember a time when I didn't have as much of a desire to have sex as I do now.
There was a girl I met named Jordan. She was pretty cool, a little younger than me. I knew I had the opportunity to have sex with her or date her many many times. But I never did. We'd go to the movies with each other, go out to eat, play sports, go to parties, but we never did much more than hugging on the physically intimate side of things. I loved it! She was my best friend at the time.
I thought she was attractive, she had a decent personality, but I didn't want to have sex with her nor date her. I just wanted a friend. She wasn't needy nor clingy and didn't try to milk me for money. When we'd go to the movies, sometimes I'd pay, sometimes she'd pay and the same with just about everything else. We never kept track of who was paying for what because we knew that in this whole thing we'd eventually even out and neither was mouching so it wasn't ever an issue.
When I think about it, I reallize that's what I could've had with Colleen, but things didn't work that way and I think it's because I ended up making out with her and having sex and all that.
Which makes me a bit curious.
I've only been in one relationship I was happy in, that was long enough to matter. There was a girl named Deb, who I'm still very in love with. We dated for a summer and had sex and all those other things but it didn't ruin things. She wasn't needy and neither was I. Things only fell apart because of our external world, not because of us.
But I can't pick out what was different about Deb and Colleen. I loved them both, had sex with both shortly after meeting them, but one relationship soared to the heavens while the other went straight to hell. And yes I haven't been able to figure out why things worked with Deb and didn't work with Colleen.
Everyone else I have an understanding of why things went the way they did except for those two. It's starting to bother me because it'd be very useful to know for future relationships.
Then there's Colleen. That could've worked out into a perfect friendship, but now there's next to nothing. I love her and want to be her friend. But she doesn't want to be much more than aquaintances. Thus I need to respect that and physically move on even if my emotions and mind hasn't.
The thing here is that I remember a time when I didn't have as much of a desire to have sex as I do now.
There was a girl I met named Jordan. She was pretty cool, a little younger than me. I knew I had the opportunity to have sex with her or date her many many times. But I never did. We'd go to the movies with each other, go out to eat, play sports, go to parties, but we never did much more than hugging on the physically intimate side of things. I loved it! She was my best friend at the time.
I thought she was attractive, she had a decent personality, but I didn't want to have sex with her nor date her. I just wanted a friend. She wasn't needy nor clingy and didn't try to milk me for money. When we'd go to the movies, sometimes I'd pay, sometimes she'd pay and the same with just about everything else. We never kept track of who was paying for what because we knew that in this whole thing we'd eventually even out and neither was mouching so it wasn't ever an issue.
When I think about it, I reallize that's what I could've had with Colleen, but things didn't work that way and I think it's because I ended up making out with her and having sex and all that.
Which makes me a bit curious.
I've only been in one relationship I was happy in, that was long enough to matter. There was a girl named Deb, who I'm still very in love with. We dated for a summer and had sex and all those other things but it didn't ruin things. She wasn't needy and neither was I. Things only fell apart because of our external world, not because of us.
But I can't pick out what was different about Deb and Colleen. I loved them both, had sex with both shortly after meeting them, but one relationship soared to the heavens while the other went straight to hell. And yes I haven't been able to figure out why things worked with Deb and didn't work with Colleen.
Everyone else I have an understanding of why things went the way they did except for those two. It's starting to bother me because it'd be very useful to know for future relationships.
