Freesia
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I started a blog on here a while back when I first joined, but I was in an emotional dead zone and nothing was going on in my life so I didn't really have anything to write about. Then the blog disappeared, so that was that. Hopefully I can keep at this one, regain my ability to communicate my emotions through writing, and overall gain some insight.
On Friday (or today, since I just submitted my last final a few hours ago), I will have completed my first year of college. I'm not sure what I was expecting I'd feel, but I feel the same as always, I guess. Three more years, man. I'm suddenly reminded of last year when I was swearing up and down that I'd be out of the Midwest, but lo and behold, I'm still here. I think I'll play it safe this time and not promise myself or anyone else anything, lest I jinx myself and remain here (or end up somewhere worse).
I was a lot more upset than I thought I'd be when my roommate left, which sounds kinda cold, but she said that she'd keep in contact, so I didn't expect to be so torn up about it when she actually left. I hope that she knows how much I appreciated having her as a roommate (which she would probably have no way of knowing).
In other news, I'm really really dreading this summer; I fear it'll be the same old, with me feeling pressured to study for the upcoming year while not really accomplishing anything, meanwhile other people I know will be going on vacation, taking summer classes and getting ahead, and just generally living life. Only this time I'll have the added pressure of finding a decent job and securing transportation to and from work. On the bright side, I'll be able to catch up on my reading, as I am severely behind on it.
So. That was rambling. And boring. But it's a start
On Friday (or today, since I just submitted my last final a few hours ago), I will have completed my first year of college. I'm not sure what I was expecting I'd feel, but I feel the same as always, I guess. Three more years, man. I'm suddenly reminded of last year when I was swearing up and down that I'd be out of the Midwest, but lo and behold, I'm still here. I think I'll play it safe this time and not promise myself or anyone else anything, lest I jinx myself and remain here (or end up somewhere worse).
I was a lot more upset than I thought I'd be when my roommate left, which sounds kinda cold, but she said that she'd keep in contact, so I didn't expect to be so torn up about it when she actually left. I hope that she knows how much I appreciated having her as a roommate (which she would probably have no way of knowing).
In other news, I'm really really dreading this summer; I fear it'll be the same old, with me feeling pressured to study for the upcoming year while not really accomplishing anything, meanwhile other people I know will be going on vacation, taking summer classes and getting ahead, and just generally living life. Only this time I'll have the added pressure of finding a decent job and securing transportation to and from work. On the bright side, I'll be able to catch up on my reading, as I am severely behind on it.
So. That was rambling. And boring. But it's a start
