Azure Flame
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- Joined
- Aug 26, 2010
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- MBTI Type
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- 8w7
Why do women want to see me angry all the time?
Why do I get the impression that women get turned on when I'm pissed?
I don't enjoy being angry. It gives me flash backs.
I'm tired of fucking waiting. Waiting. WAITING. WAITING. WAITING
Waiting for shit to go my way. I'm tired of waiting for people who don't get paid to be honest with me to come back with an answer to my questions, I'm tired of having my broken fucking jeep. I'm tired of waiting for a broker to get back to me with word on a 14,000 square foot space.
I'm pissed off that my boss wants me to be a gymnastics coach of a team full of little shits who look up to me. I don't like the idea that I have to be in a peachy good mood all the time so that the little ones don't get scared and traumatized. Oddly enough, these kids who love me are my medicine. I go to work, and I leave feeling happier than when I came in.
I need to join muai tai and beat the fuck out of some god damn idiots. I need to join a blood sport. Gymnastics just isn't cutting it. I"m losing my fucking mind.
I'm tired of women who are everything I've ever wanted playing games with me.
I'm pissed off that I'm the most intense motherfucker on this planet who can only be satiated in a relationship that is unstable and ultimately drives me crazy.
I'm tired of stupid motherfuckers taking my bad moods and not seeing the motivation behind them. Are people really that fucking stupid that they think angry people "just are?" Am I just an "Angry person?" Am I just a difficult to deal with person?
I am so fucking tired of all the stupid motherfuckers who message me on youtube telling me how attractive I am. I am tired of all the women I meet who objectify me and tell me I'm attractive, then have no god damn interest in the book I've written or any of the sort of passion or feelings beneath a sexy body I was unfortunate enough to have been cursed with.
I'm pissed off that I was unfortunate enough to be raised by a mother of faith, where christianity binds me to living a peachy fucking lifestyle and sitting around waiting for god to give me what I need.
God has given me everything I need. God has made me nearly indestructible. Anytime I've been in trouble, suicidal, or about to murder someone, god has eased my pain.
How much longer do I need to hold "faith" that all will be provided for me? I want to live life, and I want to live it NOW. I don't have enough money to do anything fun. If I start this gym, there's a chance I'll be tens of thousands in debt by the end of 3 years. If I start this gym, I'll have hip hop dance classes and dancers practicing, and I'll be meeting attractive women left and right.
God what a fucking life...
*takes a deep breathe*
I'm gonna go take a shower then hang out with my friend. I feel so much pain. So much longing for that which I've lost in the past. I think I've dealt with too much rejection recently. I need to take a break from women and just enjoy life again until I'm feeling ready to dive back in. Its time for a break.
Why do I get the impression that women get turned on when I'm pissed?
I don't enjoy being angry. It gives me flash backs.
I'm tired of fucking waiting. Waiting. WAITING. WAITING. WAITING
Waiting for shit to go my way. I'm tired of waiting for people who don't get paid to be honest with me to come back with an answer to my questions, I'm tired of having my broken fucking jeep. I'm tired of waiting for a broker to get back to me with word on a 14,000 square foot space.
I'm pissed off that my boss wants me to be a gymnastics coach of a team full of little shits who look up to me. I don't like the idea that I have to be in a peachy good mood all the time so that the little ones don't get scared and traumatized. Oddly enough, these kids who love me are my medicine. I go to work, and I leave feeling happier than when I came in.
I need to join muai tai and beat the fuck out of some god damn idiots. I need to join a blood sport. Gymnastics just isn't cutting it. I"m losing my fucking mind.
I'm tired of women who are everything I've ever wanted playing games with me.
I'm pissed off that I'm the most intense motherfucker on this planet who can only be satiated in a relationship that is unstable and ultimately drives me crazy.
I'm tired of stupid motherfuckers taking my bad moods and not seeing the motivation behind them. Are people really that fucking stupid that they think angry people "just are?" Am I just an "Angry person?" Am I just a difficult to deal with person?
I am so fucking tired of all the stupid motherfuckers who message me on youtube telling me how attractive I am. I am tired of all the women I meet who objectify me and tell me I'm attractive, then have no god damn interest in the book I've written or any of the sort of passion or feelings beneath a sexy body I was unfortunate enough to have been cursed with.
I'm pissed off that I was unfortunate enough to be raised by a mother of faith, where christianity binds me to living a peachy fucking lifestyle and sitting around waiting for god to give me what I need.
God has given me everything I need. God has made me nearly indestructible. Anytime I've been in trouble, suicidal, or about to murder someone, god has eased my pain.
How much longer do I need to hold "faith" that all will be provided for me? I want to live life, and I want to live it NOW. I don't have enough money to do anything fun. If I start this gym, there's a chance I'll be tens of thousands in debt by the end of 3 years. If I start this gym, I'll have hip hop dance classes and dancers practicing, and I'll be meeting attractive women left and right.
God what a fucking life...
*takes a deep breathe*
I'm gonna go take a shower then hang out with my friend. I feel so much pain. So much longing for that which I've lost in the past. I think I've dealt with too much rejection recently. I need to take a break from women and just enjoy life again until I'm feeling ready to dive back in. Its time for a break.
