Here, take this test. Don't ponder over your answer, just go with your gut and choose what answer immediately stands out to you. With enough self-awareness, it should give some direction to your true type.
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-quick-amp-painless-enneagram-test
No need to worry about my self-awareness--I know everything about me. OK, here goes...
Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...
4- the Individualist
Thanks for taking the test !
"I am unique"
Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.
How to Get Along with Me
• Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
• Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
• Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
• Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
• Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!
What I Like About Being a FOUR
• my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
• my ability to establish warm connections with people
• admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
• my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
• being unique and being seen as unique by others
• having aesthetic sensibilities
• being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me
What's Hard About Being a FOUR
• experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
• feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
• feeling guilty when I disappoint people
• feeling hurt or attacked when someone misunderstands me
• expecting too much from myself and life
• fearing being abandoned
• obsessing over resentments
• longing for what I don't have
FOURs as Children Often
• have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
• are very sensitive
• feel that they don't fit in
• believe they are missing something that other people have
• attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
• become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized or not understood
• feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)
FOURs as Parents
• help their children become who they really are
• support their children's creativity and originality
• are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
• are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
• are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed
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Not to criticize the test, but it seemed rather short...Ah well, I definitly identify with my result.
Upon discovering the enneagram theory, I had identified as a 4w5. I never really doubted my type until I received feedback that my pattern was more 3w4 alike. The arguments of that person were logical, so it convinced me and I switched to 3w4. It was not long before I found many things that just...didn't fit. I just didn't relate to the unealthy states or healthy states of a Three, I am an obvious withdrawn, not an assertive, and on and on. Then, I settled for being an "unknown" and collected avidly enneatype info, evaluating each type in depth and trying to see ways I could relate to them all, no matter how slims the chances were I was such an such type. It probably wasn't the brightest idea, since it confused me and now I think I'm either a Four, Three, Five, Seven, or One. The process of elimination is rather slow.
Anyway..I made another thread before making this one and so far everyone has typed me as a 4w5. Honestly, I feel like it's what I am, a 4w5. But I don't want to settle for it in case it's a mistype. I'm leaning towards 4w5 7w6 1w9 at the moment. It would certainly explain why I see myself as all those types I have mentioned above. Fours, healthy ones, experience a connection to One, and 1w9 being in my tritype as well as helped by Fi used dominantly would make me a more justice driven Four than most. Five as a second motivation as my wing and my Seven fix integration to Five would explain how much I relate to eneatype 5w4, and 7w6 as the Head fix explains the Seven traits I have. In theory, everyone has two wings, but only(usually) one dominant one,so my w3 might just be well developped. Yup,
4w5 7w6 1w9 would sum up all my motivations and to which degree they are experienced.
I know my greatest need is to be unique, authentically. I know my greatest focus is on my identity and how to express myself, how to create things(mainly through writing) that will convey my self-meaning, and the meaning I find in the world. Without those,I don't see the point of being alive.