I explore emotions because they absolutely fascinate me. But here's the thing. I "probably" am not a core 4 because of the fact I normally don't experience much emotion. Normally I'm pretty placid, robotic, and I don't feel alot of emotions(though I do sorta fake it, except in random bursts of high energy or pain that might briefly hit me). I tend to numb it out when I start feeling any overwhelming pain nor do I ever show my vulnerability much aside from one on one friends which I do. Even if I'm somewhat analyzing it more than feeling it. However, the very four esq thing about me is that I do indeed fantasize alot. I fantasize about success, potentials or love (IF I'm in love, though I shut it off randomly too if need be), ect. I listen to very emotional music (not always am I in that state of mind but when I am, It gets VERY deep and poetic). I take moments alone to where I just give my emotions an outlet and start to bask in feeling, so that I can feel them, fantasize, and analyze and understand them for a while. i seek emotion out when I (in a neutral state of mind, especially without music or a trigger) I lack awareness of it. It's in these moments when I'm listening to music, that I end up deep feeling, poetic, I can be aware of it, ect. I adore music like a drug tbh. And not so much happy music as sad music because it brings up the deeper mysteries or purpose of life to think about, or people in it. Think in symbols and intuitive meanings. Whatever I want it to be. To which that line of thinking can end up very nihilistic, or idealistic. Without it though, i feel rather detached aside from random bursts of boredom.