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mein, memeself, and MeMe
- Joined
- Jul 19, 2015
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- MBTI Type
- ENFP
- Enneagram
- 9w1
- Instinctual Variant
- so/sx
I skipped a few questions, but I'll go back to them later once I feel like it. I dunno.
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
A: It was, at first, mainly the combination of my enneagram and Myers Briggs type. I used to type as a 4w3, changed into 6w7 which I'm now pretty sure of and I'm kind of debating about how high the probability it is of me getting the combination of an INFP and a 6w7. So I as leaning towards the idea of either being an ambivert leaning towards an extravert or if I used completely different cognitive functions. This might just be a temporary moment of doubt for me but I wanted to get external perspectives as to whether I might be typing accurately or not and maybe even where I went wrong in my thought process if I'm not the type I think I am, haha. I'm considering being an xNFP/xSFJ.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
A: My purpose in life is to bring a positive impact into the lives of other people, whether minor or not. To just know that my existence is worth something, and I think that I'd actually make myself of use if I took the initiative to try creating change. Whether it's becoming a counselor of some sort, or writing pieces of work - I just want to make other people feel something because of me. I don't know what I want out of my life nor am I really into finding that out as of right now so I want most of my life to be focused on helping the others around me. Just so by that, I know that I'm not completely wasting my life away.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
A: I'm still young and I don't have many memories from my childhood, so not sure if I can answer this question in a way that would be too helpful. I think I felt my finest a few months ago actually. Personal story coming up, but I'll try to be extremely brief on it. One of my teachers found out that I was self-harming after seeing some faded scars on my skin and after that, I met with the counselor at school regularly. Of course, it was shitty as I felt like an extreme burden but I formed closer bonds with her and two other teachers, one being my advisor and the other being the grade dean but at the same time, being able to vent out how I felt about things and why I felt them without receiving any kind of judgement and even having them empathize with me, and even like me more than they had before because of that made me feel so unbelievably good. I mean, it's not much of a change as I still interact with the counselor after this summer for a bit but in that particular and somewhat short time period, I didn't feel as alienated, you could say, as I had before.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
A: When I come to the realization that I'm overly clingy, needy, and almost always need external validation from other people on my "worth", however you define that. I almost always feel like my presence is an inconvenience to other people and when that happens, I can become extremely avoidant, stuck with the curiosity of wondering if anyone else would notice that and if they'd do anything about it. I'm just, annoyingly, an extremely sensitive and sometimes passive-aggressive person and despite being aware of it all, I often don't do anything about it and end up stuck with becoming the epitome of the phrase, "Woe is me!".
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
A: I definitely put how other people feel before my feelings on a topic. Sometimes, when I'm really frustrated, I can become condescending and patronize the choices that other people make, as I can become perfectionistic. I definitely consider every hypothetical and every important factor I should consider before making one, as I'm an extremely indecisive person. I want to make sure I understand how my decision is going to affect not only me but the others around me and the possible consequences a decision could lead to in the future, or the pros. I like to vary out my options as well, comparing all of them and objectively thinking about how one thing could lead to another. I definitely want to make sure that what I'm doing resonates with me intuitively, as well.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
A: My emphasis is usually on the outcome. It depends, really. If it's a graded project, I can definitely be a bit more assertive ("bitch" is also another word for it). My assertiveness level is all dependent on whether I'm going to be graded as an individual or if the whole group is going to be graded. If individually, and if I'm not lazy at the moment (and I don't have any ambition kind of at all either), then I put my focus first on how I do. How other people do, I usually don't give a shit about until I'm done with whatever I need to do. If I have to work with others to complete my part, then I usually do alright with that. More often than not, I don't bother to input my ideas and kind of work around it by myself without telling others unless I've formed some kind of relationship with them prior to project. But yeah, my emphasis varies depending on how I am at the moment and what project it is. To answer the second question, sometimes. I don't want to mess up things for other people but at the same time, as I've mentioned previously, I feel like I know better than others on certain concepts. I occasionally butt in with my ideas but if it's clear no one wants to consider them, I'm kind of just like, "Lolk." ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I mean, what can you do about it? I mean, things could have possibly turned out for the better but doesn't matter now, does it?
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
A: Is it, like, bad that I can't easily remember any fun memories? Mm. This wasn't a fun memory, it was actually quite painfully difficult but it's a memory nonetheless, maybe you can take something out of that. I had to go hiking as a school trip and after the end of it, we discovered we walked like eight fucking miles. I kind of can't do that considering that physically, I'm unfit as hell. But yeah, managed to do it anyway. I remember being with a "buddy" we were assigned to incase we got lost (though, unlikely, since the trail was filled with two teachers and two people who knew the trail well). Anyway, we kept on walking and walking. Didn't really appreciate the nature too well. I mean, I'm into the whole nature-y flowery uwu aesthetic shit but like, I couldn't help but think about later and all the possible embarrassing situations I would end up in. I saw a shit ton of pieces of shit that were mixed in with the dirt (what the fuck) and it was only in one of the stops which I came to appreciate it and think, "Oh wow. Maybe this was worth it." We hiked really high up and stopped to find a beautiful scenery of the city beyond the trees. But couldn't even enjoy it because we had to look at rocks. Rocks, goddamnit. We walked some more, had to walk an extra mile or two, and all I could do was focus in on the negative and tell everyone around me to "please be quiet" as I was too tired to attempt at talking to anyone else. I eventually felt guilty for thinking the way that I did and it was like, "I mean, it's clear that geology is boring as shit but that's only for me. Man, I don't need to be all down about this." The end.
... Was this relevant? No idea, but just needed to vent about this fully for some unknown reason despite it being months ago and irrelevant.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you?
A: What options do I have? Just because there are tons of ways you can learn stuff and I happen to feel comfortable with a lot of them. When learning facts, I usually learn better when there are visuals. Analogies to simpler concepts also really helps, as it gets me more into learning about a concept. It also helps when teachers state the fact or theory first before explaining it, if that makes sense. It's a pet peeve of mine when teachers want us to try figuring things out for ourselves before explaining it because chances are that I'm going to become too frustrated to the point where I don't care, but kind of stating something and explaining it all later is more helpful. If any of that made sense.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
A: Not very. I'm a major procrastinator and know that I'm fucking up my life but don't really do much about it and just kind of hope for the best, even with the realization that somewhere along the way, I did something in the past that would end ruining for me in the future. My mind is always scattered with the addition of being lazy as hell so. Yeah. Pretty straightforward, haha.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
A: The principles. *will expand later if I'm not lazy atm
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
A: Both. I want to make sure that everyone's comfortable with whatever's being spoken about or how people are handling situations but even with valuing that, I value sincerity a lot more. I think that in order to reach your full potential and to develop as a human being, you have to handle situations which you may feel uncomfortable with. Obviously, it's important to consider that there's always that boundary which you can choose to cross whether you want to or not because there are, objectively, some situations where you have to suck up whatever moral obligations you feel the need to abide by or "being yourself" but a lot of the time, it makes me feel uncomfortable when people abide to social norms just because without every bothering to questions why things are the way they are. Some things are awkward just because other people make it awkward and it's all just annoying.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
A: The kind that thinks before speaking. A lot of the time, I want to make sure that when I'm talking about something with other people, I'm not ignorant about the subject and can have a proper conversation about it with someone else who's as equally informed as me. And to answer the second question, it all depends really. If it's someone I'm kind of close with, then I'm all for that. Group discussions are alright but a lot of the time, when everyone's trying to get their opinions on a topic and there's a variety, that doesn't leave too much time for each person to kind of get into depth about how they feel about something. It shouldn't really matter too much, as long as I'm not interacting with strangers.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
A: My answer to 12 should answer the first question. But yeah, I usually like to know where I'm jumping before leaping in as not to risk putting myself into a position of ignorance or danger. And to answer the second question, it's kind of a gray area, though I'm mostly leaning towards yes. Explaining yes is self-explanatory, as you can use the reasoning that it's easier to talk the talk than to walk the walk. But, I mean, I feel that even with that, people can genuinely mean what they say but just have a difficult time syncing their actions with their feelings. But overall, yes
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
A: Once again, all subjective. It depends on the group of friends and where the night out is. If the night out doesn't consist of overly wild activities and if I'm close with said friends and some of that time is used for catching up with them, I kind of don't see why not.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
A: When I'm stressed out, I'm either:
a) a total bitch who lashes out my problems on other people and finds a way to put the blame on others instead of at myself
But, in the end, it's usually the first one that happens and the second one follows after, depending on how seriously stressed out I am.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
A:
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
A:
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
A:
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
A:
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
A:
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
A: It was, at first, mainly the combination of my enneagram and Myers Briggs type. I used to type as a 4w3, changed into 6w7 which I'm now pretty sure of and I'm kind of debating about how high the probability it is of me getting the combination of an INFP and a 6w7. So I as leaning towards the idea of either being an ambivert leaning towards an extravert or if I used completely different cognitive functions. This might just be a temporary moment of doubt for me but I wanted to get external perspectives as to whether I might be typing accurately or not and maybe even where I went wrong in my thought process if I'm not the type I think I am, haha. I'm considering being an xNFP/xSFJ.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
A: My purpose in life is to bring a positive impact into the lives of other people, whether minor or not. To just know that my existence is worth something, and I think that I'd actually make myself of use if I took the initiative to try creating change. Whether it's becoming a counselor of some sort, or writing pieces of work - I just want to make other people feel something because of me. I don't know what I want out of my life nor am I really into finding that out as of right now so I want most of my life to be focused on helping the others around me. Just so by that, I know that I'm not completely wasting my life away.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
A: I'm still young and I don't have many memories from my childhood, so not sure if I can answer this question in a way that would be too helpful. I think I felt my finest a few months ago actually. Personal story coming up, but I'll try to be extremely brief on it. One of my teachers found out that I was self-harming after seeing some faded scars on my skin and after that, I met with the counselor at school regularly. Of course, it was shitty as I felt like an extreme burden but I formed closer bonds with her and two other teachers, one being my advisor and the other being the grade dean but at the same time, being able to vent out how I felt about things and why I felt them without receiving any kind of judgement and even having them empathize with me, and even like me more than they had before because of that made me feel so unbelievably good. I mean, it's not much of a change as I still interact with the counselor after this summer for a bit but in that particular and somewhat short time period, I didn't feel as alienated, you could say, as I had before.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
A: When I come to the realization that I'm overly clingy, needy, and almost always need external validation from other people on my "worth", however you define that. I almost always feel like my presence is an inconvenience to other people and when that happens, I can become extremely avoidant, stuck with the curiosity of wondering if anyone else would notice that and if they'd do anything about it. I'm just, annoyingly, an extremely sensitive and sometimes passive-aggressive person and despite being aware of it all, I often don't do anything about it and end up stuck with becoming the epitome of the phrase, "Woe is me!".
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
A: I definitely put how other people feel before my feelings on a topic. Sometimes, when I'm really frustrated, I can become condescending and patronize the choices that other people make, as I can become perfectionistic. I definitely consider every hypothetical and every important factor I should consider before making one, as I'm an extremely indecisive person. I want to make sure I understand how my decision is going to affect not only me but the others around me and the possible consequences a decision could lead to in the future, or the pros. I like to vary out my options as well, comparing all of them and objectively thinking about how one thing could lead to another. I definitely want to make sure that what I'm doing resonates with me intuitively, as well.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
A: My emphasis is usually on the outcome. It depends, really. If it's a graded project, I can definitely be a bit more assertive ("bitch" is also another word for it). My assertiveness level is all dependent on whether I'm going to be graded as an individual or if the whole group is going to be graded. If individually, and if I'm not lazy at the moment (and I don't have any ambition kind of at all either), then I put my focus first on how I do. How other people do, I usually don't give a shit about until I'm done with whatever I need to do. If I have to work with others to complete my part, then I usually do alright with that. More often than not, I don't bother to input my ideas and kind of work around it by myself without telling others unless I've formed some kind of relationship with them prior to project. But yeah, my emphasis varies depending on how I am at the moment and what project it is. To answer the second question, sometimes. I don't want to mess up things for other people but at the same time, as I've mentioned previously, I feel like I know better than others on certain concepts. I occasionally butt in with my ideas but if it's clear no one wants to consider them, I'm kind of just like, "Lolk." ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I mean, what can you do about it? I mean, things could have possibly turned out for the better but doesn't matter now, does it?
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
A: Is it, like, bad that I can't easily remember any fun memories? Mm. This wasn't a fun memory, it was actually quite painfully difficult but it's a memory nonetheless, maybe you can take something out of that. I had to go hiking as a school trip and after the end of it, we discovered we walked like eight fucking miles. I kind of can't do that considering that physically, I'm unfit as hell. But yeah, managed to do it anyway. I remember being with a "buddy" we were assigned to incase we got lost (though, unlikely, since the trail was filled with two teachers and two people who knew the trail well). Anyway, we kept on walking and walking. Didn't really appreciate the nature too well. I mean, I'm into the whole nature-y flowery uwu aesthetic shit but like, I couldn't help but think about later and all the possible embarrassing situations I would end up in. I saw a shit ton of pieces of shit that were mixed in with the dirt (what the fuck) and it was only in one of the stops which I came to appreciate it and think, "Oh wow. Maybe this was worth it." We hiked really high up and stopped to find a beautiful scenery of the city beyond the trees. But couldn't even enjoy it because we had to look at rocks. Rocks, goddamnit. We walked some more, had to walk an extra mile or two, and all I could do was focus in on the negative and tell everyone around me to "please be quiet" as I was too tired to attempt at talking to anyone else. I eventually felt guilty for thinking the way that I did and it was like, "I mean, it's clear that geology is boring as shit but that's only for me. Man, I don't need to be all down about this." The end.
... Was this relevant? No idea, but just needed to vent about this fully for some unknown reason despite it being months ago and irrelevant.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you?
A: What options do I have? Just because there are tons of ways you can learn stuff and I happen to feel comfortable with a lot of them. When learning facts, I usually learn better when there are visuals. Analogies to simpler concepts also really helps, as it gets me more into learning about a concept. It also helps when teachers state the fact or theory first before explaining it, if that makes sense. It's a pet peeve of mine when teachers want us to try figuring things out for ourselves before explaining it because chances are that I'm going to become too frustrated to the point where I don't care, but kind of stating something and explaining it all later is more helpful. If any of that made sense.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
A: Not very. I'm a major procrastinator and know that I'm fucking up my life but don't really do much about it and just kind of hope for the best, even with the realization that somewhere along the way, I did something in the past that would end ruining for me in the future. My mind is always scattered with the addition of being lazy as hell so. Yeah. Pretty straightforward, haha.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
A: The principles. *will expand later if I'm not lazy atm
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
A: Both. I want to make sure that everyone's comfortable with whatever's being spoken about or how people are handling situations but even with valuing that, I value sincerity a lot more. I think that in order to reach your full potential and to develop as a human being, you have to handle situations which you may feel uncomfortable with. Obviously, it's important to consider that there's always that boundary which you can choose to cross whether you want to or not because there are, objectively, some situations where you have to suck up whatever moral obligations you feel the need to abide by or "being yourself" but a lot of the time, it makes me feel uncomfortable when people abide to social norms just because without every bothering to questions why things are the way they are. Some things are awkward just because other people make it awkward and it's all just annoying.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
A: The kind that thinks before speaking. A lot of the time, I want to make sure that when I'm talking about something with other people, I'm not ignorant about the subject and can have a proper conversation about it with someone else who's as equally informed as me. And to answer the second question, it all depends really. If it's someone I'm kind of close with, then I'm all for that. Group discussions are alright but a lot of the time, when everyone's trying to get their opinions on a topic and there's a variety, that doesn't leave too much time for each person to kind of get into depth about how they feel about something. It shouldn't really matter too much, as long as I'm not interacting with strangers.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
A: My answer to 12 should answer the first question. But yeah, I usually like to know where I'm jumping before leaping in as not to risk putting myself into a position of ignorance or danger. And to answer the second question, it's kind of a gray area, though I'm mostly leaning towards yes. Explaining yes is self-explanatory, as you can use the reasoning that it's easier to talk the talk than to walk the walk. But, I mean, I feel that even with that, people can genuinely mean what they say but just have a difficult time syncing their actions with their feelings. But overall, yes
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
A: Once again, all subjective. It depends on the group of friends and where the night out is. If the night out doesn't consist of overly wild activities and if I'm close with said friends and some of that time is used for catching up with them, I kind of don't see why not.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
A: When I'm stressed out, I'm either:
a) a total bitch who lashes out my problems on other people and finds a way to put the blame on others instead of at myself
or
b) an overly sensitive person who ends up being completely avoidant and doesn't talk to others for a while because of all the internalized stress, also end up being prone to finding faults on personal issues that might have had an effect to being the source of the stress (if that even makes sense idk) But, in the end, it's usually the first one that happens and the second one follows after, depending on how seriously stressed out I am.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
A:
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
A:
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
A:
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
A:
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
A: