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The conclusion of my first relationship.
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And I still say my peers shaped my self-esteem and social self-confidence far more than anything that happened at home.
I'm at a point in my life where it doesn't matter anymore, actually.OH wow, crazy. Though I would say self-esteem and social confidence can be recovered but maybe you already know this from your own experience?
I'm at a point in my life where it doesn't matter anymore, actually.
I did once make an effort to re-acquire social skills, however, with some success.
5w6 for the win. Yes comedy is my fallback position too. I discovered that who I am is somewhat disturbing to others as they cant relate. So I just play the funny card and at the very least people can relate to that. But it isn't who I am and its exhausting playing a role just so other people feel at ease. No-one gives a fuck how I feel. The hyprocrisy makes me want to gouge my own eyes out. Its very unpleasant to walk the planet as some kind of shadow being who has what I consider very reasonable interests that are treated like some kind of sexual disease. Come on....gardening is not the equivalent of genital herpes!
I have a hunch that being ejected from the womb was the most painful thing that I've ever experienced and everything ever since has only been an echo of it. The only way I know how I could verify that is through hypnotic regression, and I couldn't trust the process. My subconscious is a charlatan.
I think losing my dreams are the the most hurtful things, especially when those dreams are attached to people that I love. And when I have to leave those people by my own choice, with nobody else to blame. And when I realize that I live in a world where that choice needs to be made. It's nearly unrecoverable.
But it is odd how some people get if you know too much about something other than idle gossip.
Any idea why? ...... some people can get upset if I use words that are too "complex". They think it's me showing off while it isn't.