I apologize for the length lol
If you are an INFP
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How do you respond to authority figures in your life? Do you generally question authority or are you pretty submissive?
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Generally, I hate being ordered to do anything, but if I know there's no ill will behind it or is for my own good (like the police, teachers, etc.) I'll give in. I know they're just trying to do their jobs and I'm not gonna give them any grief over it (unless they act unfairly). Although quiet, I was much more quick to verbalize it when an authority figure pissed me off as a kid, not usually enough to get me in big trouble though. I don't like getting in trouble, it upsets me, but if I'm being ordered to do something I REALLY don't like, I'll stand firm and object in my own quiet way.
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How do you respond to someone talking down to you?
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When it's from someone I love, I'll usually just take it if I don't feel it's worth arguing over. Other times I'll pull the, 'You think your shit doesn't stink?' card. I try to stay as calm as I can without letting my emotions get the best of me while still making my point. I always seem to be the one submitting in the end.
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Are you very emotionally reactive? If so, are you emotionally reactive in public or just with those you are comfortable with?
I'm very emotionally reactive, but I try my best not to let it show. If anything my eyes will probably express more of what I'm feeling than anything. I'm very facially expressive. Of course I'm more quick to express myself in front of those I'm close to. I very rarely act out on emotional impulse, like throwing fits (and objects), yelling, etc. It takes a lot to get me to that point, and I don't like being there. I'll totally admit that I'm a crybaby, though. I cry over guilt more easily than anything. My emotions just get so overwhelming at times, then they totally consume me and I break down.*
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Do you need a lot of attention in relationships?
What I need is a lot of assurance, I think, to be reminded that I'm doing well and that I'm loved. I really put my all into loving someone, so I guess, in a way, I kind of hope to be loved back just as much. I'll give them their space, and they sure as hell better give me mine lol
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Are you really sarcastic?
Probably more often than not I'm sarcastic in a humorous way, but I can be pretty sarcastic and snarky when pushed far enough, especially when I'm feeling irritable. I can be quite a cynic at times. I feel like I've grown a more realistic side to me in the last few years, especially when it comes to relationships and people in general. I'm still idealistic, but I know that people have their limits and that not everyone has good intentions.*
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Are you silly?
Oh yeah, I've got a very random sense of humor, but people don't usually realize it until they really get to know me. Although I have a tendency to do funny things in a subtle manner around people I don't know very well, in which they usually act totally shocked because, to them, it seems so out-of-character for me. It can be fun screwing with people in that sense lol I guess I use my sense of humor as something of a natural defense mechanism. I love British-type humor, making funny observations, puns, doing physically funny things, etc. Sometimes it's hard for me to take things seriously because I can find so much humor in almost anything. I just love making others laugh, it's one of the greatest feelings ever.
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Were you shy as a child?
Yeah, and it was a big issue for me. I wanted friends but I also liked being alone. It seemed so contradictory, I couldn't fathom it at the time. I gave my mom a lot of grief over this, but my introvert grandma understood me. Other kids would approach me and want to be friends all the time, but I always turned them down and went off to do something by myself. I had friends, just not that many. I'm still shy now, although I've gotten a lot better when it comes to approaching people and showing interest in them (like asking them how they feel, how's life, etc.).
*Do people mistake your reservedness for aloofness?
Oh yeah, or they'd misread me as being upset. Can't tell you how many times people have asked me if I was alright in school. I'd be totally fine, my head would just be elsewhere. After a while you start to figure that something must be wrong with you because people won't stop asking lol
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Do you have a hard time expressing yourself verbally?
Absolutely, and it can be rather annoying, even to me. I've got a great need to want and express myself, but my mind doesn't let me relax. I've got a horrible fear of being judged or misunderstood. I feel like I have to filter or modify what I'm going to say in order to adapt to whatever social situation I'm in, but while still trying to remain genuine. It can be really hard, like walking on eggshells. I can't stand the thought of offending someone when I don't intend to. I'm constantly retracting or further explaining statements to make the other person happy/feel at ease. I probably try too hard to please others emotionally, but it's nit something I can just shake, ya know? I feel devastated when/if I offend someone with my opinion. I don't like being harsh or pushing my ideals onto others. I don't think that's something you should do to people. There's always room to modify and grow when it comes to my opinions, I think, especially as I go about learning and obtaining information.*
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Have you always felt as though you were at the same mental age as your chronological peers?
No, not always. I felt like I emotionally matured faster than they did. My friends were very carefree, while I was already going through the rebellious emo phase in 5th grade. I'm just glad I got that over and done with before finishing middle school. I think I had a lot more mature interests than my friends at a young age, too. I was totally in love with movies. I think I was around 5 when I figured out what voice actors were. I thought it was the coolest thing and i was totally obsessed with reading the credits at the end of movies. I totally flipped when I found out that Robin Williams played Genie in Aladdin lol Hell, I started collecting Biography magazine when I was 8. I got totally caught up in watching old movies and musicals like 'My Fair Lady' and 'Breakfast at Tiffany's' before I hit middle school. I also remember having a profound fascination in the paranormal from a really young age (and I still do), although it kind of freaked me out at the same time. I dunno, I think I scared my parents sometimes lol Despite all this, I've always been very childlike in a sense. I love hanging out with kids and playing with them. Playing pretend is still so much fun :] For some reason they always end up gravitating towards me at family events. Maybe i look out-of-place amongst the mature crowd lol But really, I'd like to adopt kids someday. After seeing how some parents raise/treat their kids (mine included), I dunno, I just have this internal urge to bring up kids of my own in my own ideal way. Like... really teach them values, that we should accept others, and etc. I think it'd be a lot of fun to introduce my own kids to interesting things/ideas that most parents don't. Like traveling and interacting with people from different countries and walks of life. Sorry, I'm totally going on a tangent lol
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Are you a talented writer?
Well, I've been told that I am many times. My English teachers always loved me lol I was proud of myself, yet at the same time I kind of thought, 'This is kind of bullshit. It's too easy.' I felt like all I had to do was present a profound thought, insert some intelligent words here and there, then go on a total tangent when it came to the subject. I mean, it'd all be genuinely my thoughts and feelings, but I kind of felt like it was absurd that they thought my work was 'gold' or something. I didn't want the other students to think that I had a high opinion of myself or that I was just a goody-two-shoes. I do love writing though. I especially love creating and developing characters. It's a lot of fun. I've been writing since I was very young.
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What do you want to be when you grow up (career)?
God, I feel like there's so many things I want to dabble in. It kind of sucks, but I don't really have a passion for one particular thing. I love a lot of things. I know they're all rather unrealistic career choices, but I guess I can dream. Jobs I'd like: Writer, actor/voice actor, musician, magician, filmmaker/director, comic artist, video game creator, photographer, historian, sailor (laugh it up lol), teacher (elementary or high school), language interpreter, archaeologist, storm chaser, paranormal investigator, and animator (for actual cartoon movies, none of this 3D shit). Maybe I could be a ridiculous, yet heroic, masked vigilante that resides in a European city.