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Why do you hold your anger in? Why is it "wrong" for you to do so? It's a basic component of being a 1, that you be ashamed of your anger, but what exactly is the principle behind it?
I simply can't be bothered. I usually think that 50% of my anger is justified, even over little things like someone moving around my stuff after I've told them not to do so. I can't imagine that my adult life would be prodcutive if I were to allow myself to act on my anger every time I felt it. It's more of a mental storm that needs to be worked out, so expressing every angry thought and feeling would be inviting unneeded attention and intervention (sometimes) from the very people/things that caused my anger to awaken in the first place. Also, the idea that my anger can overshadow the actual issue is vomit-worthy. I'm not willing to come across as biased or incompetent just to allow anger to flow through me. I would much rather tear down the wall that's causing problems and I view that path as a long and calculated process.
I keep myself on a short leash, self-discipline is a passion for me. The idea of popping off about something based on pure raw emotion is sickening and so so wrong on so many levels. It's also a "speck-log" issue. If I'm operating on my emotions and that leads me to rant about the speck in your eye, that leaves me open for criticism about the log in my eye. I have to be sure that my anger is justified, logical, that it's sound and impersonal.
Follow-up question: Presumably a big part of your answer to the above question would be "Because letting out my anger would be losing control, and I never lose control". If that is the case, where do you draw the anger line, between being in control of your anger and not being in control of your anger? How angry do you let yourself be, before it embarrasses you?
The leash is very short so I don't suffer from embarrassment often. I typically run on cold anger, rarely will I have an outburst or a shouting match. For the most part, I build a case against people/things/beliefs and thankfully, that takes time, research, etc. In the meantime, I try to bite my tongue.
I have little tolerance for passive aggressive high school bs or snark of any kind so if I were to stoop to that level, I would feel embarrassed and ashamed. I don't have an issue with delayed gratification so I can be patient and in control so long as the itch gets scratched in the end.
I simply can't be bothered. I usually think that 50% of my anger is justified, even over little things like someone moving around my stuff after I've told them not to do so. I can't imagine that my adult life would be prodcutive if I were to allow myself to act on my anger every time I felt it. It's more of a mental storm that needs to be worked out, so expressing every angry thought and feeling would be inviting unneeded attention and intervention (sometimes) from the very people/things that caused my anger to awaken in the first place. Also, the idea that my anger can overshadow the actual issue is vomit-worthy. I'm not willing to come across as biased or incompetent just to allow anger to flow through me. I would much rather tear down the wall that's causing problems and I view that path as a long and calculated process.
I keep myself on a short leash, self-discipline is a passion for me. The idea of popping off about something based on pure raw emotion is sickening and so so wrong on so many levels. It's also a "speck-log" issue. If I'm operating on my emotions and that leads me to rant about the speck in your eye, that leaves me open for criticism about the log in my eye. I have to be sure that my anger is justified, logical, that it's sound and impersonal.
Follow-up question: Presumably a big part of your answer to the above question would be "Because letting out my anger would be losing control, and I never lose control". If that is the case, where do you draw the anger line, between being in control of your anger and not being in control of your anger? How angry do you let yourself be, before it embarrasses you?
The leash is very short so I don't suffer from embarrassment often. I typically run on cold anger, rarely will I have an outburst or a shouting match. For the most part, I build a case against people/things/beliefs and thankfully, that takes time, research, etc. In the meantime, I try to bite my tongue.
I have little tolerance for passive aggressive high school bs or snark of any kind so if I were to stoop to that level, I would feel embarrassed and ashamed. I don't have an issue with delayed gratification so I can be patient and in control so long as the itch gets scratched in the end.