mental disorder

[meowington]

i am extremely withdrawl from the outside world. from the moment i wake up i'm brainstorming ideas and developing useless ideas that i often forget 5 minutes after. i dont like forming inter personal relationships. i dont like people at all. i just want to be alone. i try to avoid social contact as much as i can. sometimes in certain situations a fear will spawn in the back of my head, i cant really put it in words, but its like i'm extremely afraid of something for a short span of time - like 2 to 10 seconds. i'm extremely bad at communicating, i mispell words all the time, don't really know how to react to basic speech like "good morning!", eg, i will often respond with "yeah i'm fine and you?" with a spelling error, ie, saying "frine" instead of "fine". i just want to be by myself and possibly with my weaboo moe shit. i'm extremely energyless, i simply quit life because its easier than to go out and do whatever. i have so little energy that, if i were trapped to hell, and if there was a short ladder i could just take to get to heaven, i'd probaly just say to myself "nah" and try to get myself used to hell. i'm filthy, disgusting, ugly, unhealthy. i try to avoid thinking about things i should do ie try to get a girlfriend, have kids, minimally imrpove my life, etc. i'm happy with little.

what's the name of my disorder?

Your disorder is adolescence.

A few pointers :
-exercise (this might help your energy level)
-learn an instrument
-get laid

You'll get better at small talk in time (it's a necessary evil). I understand the fear you mentioned : this gets better through experience.

 

[SteinitzGamgbit]

Your disorder is adolescence.

A few pointers :
-exercise (this might help your energy level)
-learn an instrument
-get laid

You'll get better at small talk in time (it's a necessary evil). I understand the fear you mentioned : this gets better through experience.

I have an extremely shitty diet and I can't get arround it so I don't have the energy to exercise. I don't eat any of the vitamins, minerals, protein, good carbs and several other nutrients I need on a daily basis.

I already know how to play piano and bass. I had to learn them by myself, I used to be quite a fan of rock when I was 13 or so and got into piano more recently and so i figured i should learn both of them. And so did I.

I can't get laid, I'd rather live with my waifu instead.

Thanks for the try though.

 

[meowington]

I have an extremely shitty diet and I can't get arround it so I don't have the energy to exercise. I don't eat any of the vitamins, minerals, protein, good carbs and several other nutrients I need on a daily basis.

Interesting. Why is that ? money issues ?

I can't get laid, I'd rather live with my waifu instead.

Interesting. Had to look it up (getting too old for internet slang). If it means what I think it means, I repeat : get laid.

Anyway, if it's any comfort : we all have issues dude. I, for one, am paralyzed by the big picture of things. I can't see the trees through the forest. I need to know what happened before the big bang, before I wholeheartedly can engage in any further activity or make choices.

 

[SteinitzGamgbit]

Interesting. Why is that ? money issues ?

It's just too much of a bother to try and put food in my mouth, chew, etc.
Its simply easier to not eat.
Sometimes I drink water but thats when I'm extremely thirsty.
I sleep the whole day basically.

 

[Pionart]

I'm sorry to hear that, Steinitz. I hope you are able to overcome your withdrawal in time. I think forcing yourself into social situations can help, making lists of what you need to get done by what time etc. but I understand that motivation is a hard thing to come by, especially when you lack the motivation to look for it in the first place.

 

[meowington]

I'm sorry to hear that, Steinitz. I hope you are able to overcome your withdrawal in time. I think forcing yourself into social situations can help, making lists of what you need to get done by what time etc. but I understand that motivation is a hard thing to come by, especially when you lack the motivation to look for it in the first place.

I second that.

Take it easy, one thing at a time. Maybe focus on the vital things first (eating & drinking), even if you lack enjoyment from it.
Maybe you mentioned it and I missed it but try to seek professional help if things are going so rough. I went to a day clinic for a few months around adolescence when things were bad. It didn't cure anything, but it was enough to keep me going.
Try to set some small goals for yourself and try to take some pride from fulfilling those.

Good luck !

 

[geedoenfj]

I don't think I know anyone with these symptoms, but I suggest that you see a specialist because from your description I can see it is serious and you need help ASAP

 

[Kheledon]

I am not sure that you have a disorder at all. In Socionics theory, there's a whole quadrant (Delta) that shares attitudes like those you expressed in your post. Take a look at this and see if any of it sounds familiar:

Socionics - the16types.info - Delta Quadra The Complex of Clipped Wings by Stratiyevskaya

 

[miss fortune]

note... it is not the policy of this forum to diagnose anybody or to advise them on what form of treatment they should seek... none of us here are your doctor, who would be the appropriate person to ask such questions of

sorry

yeah... I'm going to quote myself as a reminder here because I'm classy like that