InfernoToucan
New member
- Joined
- Nov 1, 2017
- Messages
- 27
- MBTI Type
- ESFJ
- Enneagram
- 6w7
Alright, please here me out because I'm at a loss as to what to think. For months now, ive been struggling to figure out my type, not be in able to see any one of them distinctly more than the others. I also have suffered from anxiety and depression since a very young age, so I'm already not very consistent in my behavior and mentality.
Someone on Perc messaged me saying they were willing to help me find my type. They were confirmed to be an ENFJ by a professional, and also seemed to have contributed a lot to the forums and have a lot of "thanks" associated with their username. So I thought, alright seems legit. Also he has Ni which should help him to see things I probably can't...I probably am going to be biased in my own judgment of myself. Anyways, we chatted a LOT and I sent him really long answers on my questions. And guess what? He is 100% certain I am an ESFJ.
Let me tell you why this sucks: from a young age, ive barely made any friends. I've been constantly rejected by people my age one way or another. Went through tons of depressive modes, became a Sofia introvert essentially, and now trying to bring myself back up by having a life for myself and not one thats about obsessing over my loneliness/lack of people in my life. For a while I became happier do in that, happy focusing on other things. Now I find out: I'm supposed to be a freaking pushover all along. Letting others bully me and tell me what to do is my "strength". Not the openmindedness and creativity of Ne-doms, the internal strength of Fi-doms, the intelligence from Ti and Te, the ability to produce beautiful art/do awesome things with Se, and the ability to essentially dominate the universe with Ni. And yes, I may have Si as my auxiliary, but depression fucked it up. Depression = constant memory loss, terrible focus and attention to details, and terrible at holding to your commitments.
So yes, I may sound like I'm whining and all over the place self-pitying, but I really can't find a way to deal with this. I am a Fe-dom without any of the strengths and little desire to continue this sort of life. Essentially, I have to be everyone's nanny or nurse. And smile and ignore what's on the inside, right?
I know, I know. Maybe he's wrong. But there's a strong chance he's not. He's met Ne-doms before and could probably see that I am nowhere near the level they are in terms of coming up with ideas.
Someone on Perc messaged me saying they were willing to help me find my type. They were confirmed to be an ENFJ by a professional, and also seemed to have contributed a lot to the forums and have a lot of "thanks" associated with their username. So I thought, alright seems legit. Also he has Ni which should help him to see things I probably can't...I probably am going to be biased in my own judgment of myself. Anyways, we chatted a LOT and I sent him really long answers on my questions. And guess what? He is 100% certain I am an ESFJ.
Let me tell you why this sucks: from a young age, ive barely made any friends. I've been constantly rejected by people my age one way or another. Went through tons of depressive modes, became a Sofia introvert essentially, and now trying to bring myself back up by having a life for myself and not one thats about obsessing over my loneliness/lack of people in my life. For a while I became happier do in that, happy focusing on other things. Now I find out: I'm supposed to be a freaking pushover all along. Letting others bully me and tell me what to do is my "strength". Not the openmindedness and creativity of Ne-doms, the internal strength of Fi-doms, the intelligence from Ti and Te, the ability to produce beautiful art/do awesome things with Se, and the ability to essentially dominate the universe with Ni. And yes, I may have Si as my auxiliary, but depression fucked it up. Depression = constant memory loss, terrible focus and attention to details, and terrible at holding to your commitments.
So yes, I may sound like I'm whining and all over the place self-pitying, but I really can't find a way to deal with this. I am a Fe-dom without any of the strengths and little desire to continue this sort of life. Essentially, I have to be everyone's nanny or nurse. And smile and ignore what's on the inside, right?
I know, I know. Maybe he's wrong. But there's a strong chance he's not. He's met Ne-doms before and could probably see that I am nowhere near the level they are in terms of coming up with ideas.