FoulcherDeChartres
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Hello,
I have a bit of trouble to find my type even though tests seem to converge (I will not tell you because it will introduce bias and I probably biased myself the result by answering what I want to look like).
Thanks in advance.
I am a 26 years old data scientist working in France and I studied maths then engeeneering then business (double degree). I did this because I want to work on projects which involve strategy and where I can actually influence a company future. Despite being very shy and somewhat clueless in social things, I usually expect to have an influaential role on a company and somewhat to "be the best".
At work, I usually like to work on massive projects I take care by myself (from conception to execution minus "low value" tasks like normalizing data, connecting it to the server and so on...i.e. as soon as my solution proves to have good validated (by operational people) results, I tend to be reluctant in the next cleaning steps even though I judge my program well organized and production ready.
On the other hand, I tend to do "low value" stuff because I want to reach a better role in my company. My ideal role would be an external consultant who provide solution and give directions while also actually building solutions by myself.
Telling me to adapt someone's work is less appealing to me and I end up generally putting my own style on code and adopting a "proprietary" philosophy of coding.
What I HATE in work is :
- discussing theory to challenge my idea before it has be done (if it works, there is no need to prove it theoritically)
- following the "classical" way when I judge the steps waste of time compared to the benefit expected
- work meeting
In general, I am a developper 80% of the time and I like it because it helps me materialize a solution but I am not at all into "geek" things. I dislike discussing coding in a theoritical way (when I read a documentation or speak to someone, I just think "Ok what is the use of it ? Cannot they show a ****** example and speak in a simple, concrete way ?" ( I learn by trying a lot and reto-engineering code). I usually learn code fast but I am slow to use the "coding language".
On the "geek" note, I hate also people discussing about things that are pointless, like "there is an inconsistency in Star Wars" (common boy, this a an entairtainment movie, we do not care).
Apart from that, I am generally very stressed ans anxious at work. I think about consequences of my actions which make me doubt. I am so on the same time quite sure and directed on my work referential but very insecure on the inside ("maybe they will not use it or discard it". While not stressed (it is not that common !), I am pretty careless of the etiquette.
My problem solving style is always directed into finding a concept of solution (more than a really precise one : I see clearly how curves will move and process will go but implementation details can be reviewed during implementation). I like to materialize the problem by drawing matrices, plotting by hand, and so on... While alone, I also think out loud. I have also a roadmap sometimes like "ok The V1 will be this, this will do the job and have sufficient efficiency for the beginning, the V2 will add this ..." and so my V1 is ready for V2 addition before V2 has already begun.
On a more personnal level, I like to tease people I know like my girlfriend of my parents. I say things like "do you remember when X has done this..." to trigger a conflict (a conflict I judge funny but not on a serious subject). I am very childish in the close private sphere and somewhat obssessive around things which - I guess - people will not expect from what I appear usually. I like to imagine conversations, stupid thinks like "imagine my boss will tell me "this is your new job, you replace the dog"", playing with plushes. I am impatient and impulsive. When I have an idea, I stay obsessed by it and want to do it so I buy it (goid to theme park, ski). When someone tell me "you cannot do it", I try to prove him wrong (eating a big chili pepper, going out dressed very oddly, ...).
I would say that I love "adventure" but on the other hand I am quite anxious and physically sensitive so I procrastinate on things I judge "dangerous".
When in love, I can do completely crazy things like going on another country to execute my plan (I succeed once) and become bery romantic. While am I very practical at work, I also enjoy fundamental things like litterature, language and mathématics. I am very competitive around these topics (and others) and so dedicate to it until overdose (in the past, I wanted to become a master in French to performn in society and so I read many books, wrote down vocabulary with extreme semantics details and so on). During my adolescent phase (16-20), I was howver of the "poet" type (reading clasical romantic books, writing books, seeing the world as doomed, imagining me as a kind of dark knight, etc.) and wanted to leave engineering (my pragmatical part told me otherwise).
I am very concerned to expressing ideas and thoughts in the more accurate way possible.
I generally want to do many things and end up doing not that mluch because my time is short and I prefer doing nothing that doing it half. This frustratres me.
Here are also some random insights :
- I am somewhat paranoïd (in a sane way but I imagine hidden agenda everywhere)
- I do not like people stating problems and complaining about it without proposing solutions
- I HATE when people state judgements and then retreat when - angry - I told them to support their thinking, I can become very arrogant and angry at these moments
- I do not like people having an opinion and so accepting verything related instead of considering cases separately given context
- I can cry easily and I see pros and cons to be seen crying
- I am not able to relax, almost never
- I do not like sanbox games, an action must have a mean else it is waste of time
- I challenge mainstream ideas and HATE when people tell me "we do it because thie is the way to do/ because it is polite/ etc." (I consider it hypocrisy or pointless actions)
- I usually value PERSONNAL points on view as long as they are not stating something as truth (I consider that there is no truth about everything). I love the ones who gives a "color" of their judgement instead of prosaic material
- I HATE people who speak about the director of a movie instead of the movie itself to defend it (I do not care about who done what, I care about the "what")
- I can in some way be "influenced" easily by esoteric thinking since there is no proff it is wrong. I do not think it is true but it might be. I so had a hard time with Tarot since I could'nt prove it wrong and these cards have a lot of allegory inside which helps to make decisions. I am not a real "religious" person but somehow I seek to find meaning in an general way of thinking
- I am of "all or nothing"
- I prefer seeing a word, an idea as a painting than on a single point (I do not like synonyms because they do not capture meaningful differences, I do not like putting judgement everywhere when it is not justified and does not add value - destroys it instead)
I have a bit of trouble to find my type even though tests seem to converge (I will not tell you because it will introduce bias and I probably biased myself the result by answering what I want to look like).
Thanks in advance.
I am a 26 years old data scientist working in France and I studied maths then engeeneering then business (double degree). I did this because I want to work on projects which involve strategy and where I can actually influence a company future. Despite being very shy and somewhat clueless in social things, I usually expect to have an influaential role on a company and somewhat to "be the best".
At work, I usually like to work on massive projects I take care by myself (from conception to execution minus "low value" tasks like normalizing data, connecting it to the server and so on...i.e. as soon as my solution proves to have good validated (by operational people) results, I tend to be reluctant in the next cleaning steps even though I judge my program well organized and production ready.
On the other hand, I tend to do "low value" stuff because I want to reach a better role in my company. My ideal role would be an external consultant who provide solution and give directions while also actually building solutions by myself.
Telling me to adapt someone's work is less appealing to me and I end up generally putting my own style on code and adopting a "proprietary" philosophy of coding.
What I HATE in work is :
- discussing theory to challenge my idea before it has be done (if it works, there is no need to prove it theoritically)
- following the "classical" way when I judge the steps waste of time compared to the benefit expected
- work meeting
In general, I am a developper 80% of the time and I like it because it helps me materialize a solution but I am not at all into "geek" things. I dislike discussing coding in a theoritical way (when I read a documentation or speak to someone, I just think "Ok what is the use of it ? Cannot they show a ****** example and speak in a simple, concrete way ?" ( I learn by trying a lot and reto-engineering code). I usually learn code fast but I am slow to use the "coding language".
On the "geek" note, I hate also people discussing about things that are pointless, like "there is an inconsistency in Star Wars" (common boy, this a an entairtainment movie, we do not care).
Apart from that, I am generally very stressed ans anxious at work. I think about consequences of my actions which make me doubt. I am so on the same time quite sure and directed on my work referential but very insecure on the inside ("maybe they will not use it or discard it". While not stressed (it is not that common !), I am pretty careless of the etiquette.
My problem solving style is always directed into finding a concept of solution (more than a really precise one : I see clearly how curves will move and process will go but implementation details can be reviewed during implementation). I like to materialize the problem by drawing matrices, plotting by hand, and so on... While alone, I also think out loud. I have also a roadmap sometimes like "ok The V1 will be this, this will do the job and have sufficient efficiency for the beginning, the V2 will add this ..." and so my V1 is ready for V2 addition before V2 has already begun.
On a more personnal level, I like to tease people I know like my girlfriend of my parents. I say things like "do you remember when X has done this..." to trigger a conflict (a conflict I judge funny but not on a serious subject). I am very childish in the close private sphere and somewhat obssessive around things which - I guess - people will not expect from what I appear usually. I like to imagine conversations, stupid thinks like "imagine my boss will tell me "this is your new job, you replace the dog"", playing with plushes. I am impatient and impulsive. When I have an idea, I stay obsessed by it and want to do it so I buy it (goid to theme park, ski). When someone tell me "you cannot do it", I try to prove him wrong (eating a big chili pepper, going out dressed very oddly, ...).
I would say that I love "adventure" but on the other hand I am quite anxious and physically sensitive so I procrastinate on things I judge "dangerous".
When in love, I can do completely crazy things like going on another country to execute my plan (I succeed once) and become bery romantic. While am I very practical at work, I also enjoy fundamental things like litterature, language and mathématics. I am very competitive around these topics (and others) and so dedicate to it until overdose (in the past, I wanted to become a master in French to performn in society and so I read many books, wrote down vocabulary with extreme semantics details and so on). During my adolescent phase (16-20), I was howver of the "poet" type (reading clasical romantic books, writing books, seeing the world as doomed, imagining me as a kind of dark knight, etc.) and wanted to leave engineering (my pragmatical part told me otherwise).
I am very concerned to expressing ideas and thoughts in the more accurate way possible.
I generally want to do many things and end up doing not that mluch because my time is short and I prefer doing nothing that doing it half. This frustratres me.
Here are also some random insights :
- I am somewhat paranoïd (in a sane way but I imagine hidden agenda everywhere)
- I do not like people stating problems and complaining about it without proposing solutions
- I HATE when people state judgements and then retreat when - angry - I told them to support their thinking, I can become very arrogant and angry at these moments
- I do not like people having an opinion and so accepting verything related instead of considering cases separately given context
- I can cry easily and I see pros and cons to be seen crying
- I am not able to relax, almost never
- I do not like sanbox games, an action must have a mean else it is waste of time
- I challenge mainstream ideas and HATE when people tell me "we do it because thie is the way to do/ because it is polite/ etc." (I consider it hypocrisy or pointless actions)
- I usually value PERSONNAL points on view as long as they are not stating something as truth (I consider that there is no truth about everything). I love the ones who gives a "color" of their judgement instead of prosaic material
- I HATE people who speak about the director of a movie instead of the movie itself to defend it (I do not care about who done what, I care about the "what")
- I can in some way be "influenced" easily by esoteric thinking since there is no proff it is wrong. I do not think it is true but it might be. I so had a hard time with Tarot since I could'nt prove it wrong and these cards have a lot of allegory inside which helps to make decisions. I am not a real "religious" person but somehow I seek to find meaning in an general way of thinking
- I am of "all or nothing"
- I prefer seeing a word, an idea as a painting than on a single point (I do not like synonyms because they do not capture meaningful differences, I do not like putting judgement everywhere when it is not justified and does not add value - destroys it instead)