lumenluminis
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Hi guys 
I thought I'd give typing myself a last try, and any insight on it would be highly appreciated.
0. What's making you unsure of your type? What research have you already done to determine type?
So, I'm into MBTI since I'm 14 (I'm 19 now) and I just got really curious, especially about my type. I was dealing with a lot od psychological problems at that time, and I was only 14, which made trying to type me correctly really pointless I guess. My mental health is perfectly fine now, and giving that I'm a lot older and more developed now, I thought I could give it another try.
I thought that I was an INFP for a long time now, but there are things that make me question that. I don't know, Since I'm better mentally, I'm a pretty jumpy person, getting excited so easily, I always seek for some kind of novelty since it excites me, I'm a person who is interested in nearly everything; I'm a science mayor, I'm a poet, I write songs, I sing, I enjoy sports, I enjoy reading about psychology for the fun of it. (extroverted intuition?)
I'm also so drawn to art and any form of emotional expression, art is so pure, art is so real emotionally, since that's what I do too, pour my everything into my writing, although I'm pretty scared of showing this stuff to someone, since you could really get a lot about me if you'd analyse that stuff I think.
I'm somewhat a person that holds onto her values, and the only time I can get really angry is when someone kind of ignores it if I don't want to do something, pushes me to do something that I already said I don't want to. (introverted Feeling?)
The things that made me question my type was a really nice description of Ni that I found, I tried to find it again but failed.. It said something like, that Ni looks for the deeper meaning, trying to look for patterns that reoccur (and oh my god, I do that a lot.)
I really can't tell if I use Ni or Ne. I do get these hunches, that sonmethings going to happen, e.g. I am so so aware of social interconnections in groups, I can tell if an interpersonal problem is going to occur and because of what. And I sometimes just now things, if someone I meet is depressed for example, and although I'm so insecure about this, that I somewhat never share this, it mostly turns out o be right.
But yeah, I also get jumpy, get excited about new ideas, there are definetely things that I begin but don't finish, and I can be somewhat impulsive since my mental state is pretty good now.
I'm also a really .. Fe-ish person? Like I said, I enjoy groups, and I really care a lot about if everyone feels involved and if there's a new person in the group, I'm often the one trying to include them.
It's so weird to be unsure if you use FiNe/NeFi or NiFe/FeNi since the functions are so different, but I feel so inbetween them.
1. Establish a "baseline mood"--when you're at home with nothing to do, where are you at mentally and emotionally? What do you notice in yourself? (Note, this is not a mood you inhabit "frequently", but your psychological baseline).
Pretty chill, pretty dreamy, I can spend days in my pyjamas doing absolutely NOTHING, like, not even watching series, just lying around, maybe studying for a bit until I continue doing nothing. I sometimes thing that it would be nice to watch TV series, but I get carried away mentally so easily while watching, it's like sometimes I can't even focus on this stuff. But I totally need those days, especially for being creative.
I would say mentally and emotionally I'm fine when I do this, just sometimes I feel like I need to do a lot of different things to distract myself. A normal day for me is most of the time a pretty long day at university, followed by going out with friends or having sportslessons.
A few months agp I was really scared of having these "nothing to do days" because I thought I would start overthinking If I have so much time alone, but it's fine.
2. Describe yourself--
a. What's it like to be you?
It's so fun when I'm with friends, I have a wide range of good friends, and I enjoy each of them since they are typically really different kinds of people, and every "flavor of person" brings out other sides of my personality. I enjoy people that are loud and open, since it makes it so much easier for me to open up.
It's stressful when it comes to my academic life, since I take it really seriously, but I just started a few months ago and it's really hard, especially the mathc and physics. (I'm a biochemistry mayor) I got sick a lot, but I'm trying to chill more and not take it thaaat seriously, since I can take a year longer for my bachelor anyways and no one would care.
It's chill and dreamy, I sometimes just retreat into my mind, listening to music, enjoying the view of the sun through the window in the lecture hall, or walking around with headphones and music, or scrolling through tumblr and being completely lost somewhere, just like these moods at home, I love and need this state of mind.
It's a bit difficult when it comes to my family, since I don't really .. like them? there were a few things that happened, that made me lose all trust. I currently live with my mother and I just.. know how to act to not provoke any stress, but she's really really practical, always taking money into account, I feel kind of intruded on the choices I make, since I was thinking about maybe changing my mayor to pharmacy, because it would interest me more, and the first thing that she said was that I can't be so jump and need to finish at least one thing, that I need to finish in time, money.. for me it's also so much about the experience you get, and even if I change my mayor, and even if I need more time, it's experience, that's not worthless.
Generally speaking, I can't stand when I have the feeling that someone intrudes on me. That's probably also the reason I love groups so much when socialising, because I really enjoy hanging out with people, but I don't like someone to intrude or cling to me. And in a group, no one (usually) focuses on you, I can be myself without being anxious about not being funny enough, not talking to much.. because when I don't feel like talking or making jokes, someone else will.
- I feel like this is an important feature of my personality, that's why I made it italic.
b. What have others said about you?
That they're glad to have me, that I'm funny, that I can brighten up the mood at times (I can be really really bubbly)
That they're glad that you can talk about anything and everything with me, that I understand, that I should not let myself be pushed around, that it's my right to leave toxic people, that I should not let people treat me bad, that it's okay to say it when I don't like something
That I can be damn stubborn
That it's funny how I always ask anyone for advice, completely neglecting it most of the time and doing what I think is right.
That they love my writing and singing, that it makes them feel something
That Im incredibly empathetic and that I can make feel others good about themselves
That I'm an incredible strong person (I more or less pulled myself out of depression, an eating disorder, panic attacks, and suicide thoughts)
That Im honest
That I take things too seriously all the time
That it's annoying that I need closure so much and that I'm not living for myself instead of others (although I think that this is not true, this was said by a person who emotionally abused me. and he can't treat people with respect. I try to always say what's on my mind and make it clear how I view someone because I don't like to leave people in the unknown)
That I'm incredibly intelligent, that I reflect a lot
That I only see how a person is, and that some people feel incredibly understood, that I could not care less about what a person is or what they have
c. What do you think of yourself?
I'm incredibly proud of where I am now mentally
I'm proud of the fact that people really seek my advice, that I can help people, that I can make them feel good about themselves
I'm learning to make my boundaries clear, since it happens that people just step over them and I'm not a bad person for cutting people out of my life if they don't get that.
I think that I'm really tolerant, trying to understand and respect everyone, since everyone has their own experiences and their own things to learn, and this is something i can't and should not interfere. I thing this tolerance comes with feeling better about myself, I try to focus on my reactions more, because I can't chance anything else. As I started to respect myself, I could respect others.
I'm a bit annoyed at my jumpiness, and I try to be there for everyone and it's just too much sometimes. I also sometimes feel like I don't know who I am, because I typically adapt so much.
More or less, I think I developed well, I think a lot about what I do, reflect on that, trying to get better..
3. What are the issues you've dealt with in life? List some recurrent themes, and tell us a little about each one.
I think this would be too long, and given that I mentioned the things like depression, intruding and family issues, I will leave this out. The most important things are said already.
4. You're not good at everything--
a. What personality traits and/or ways of being are impossible for you to adopt?
Being practical, being good with money, being productive or efficient, I somewhat always do tasks 72904 times more time consuming and complicated than they could be done (I don't even know why?) being chill while under stress, I once was a little bit mean to someone because I needed to finish a protocoll in 5 minutes (the tutors really really pressured us, there was no time to prepare it earlier) and he was talking and I could not concentrate.
Stress management, I always get sick when it gets too much
b. What are qualities you'd like to have, but can't seem to develop?
Stress management, being a bit more practical, being able to focus more often (If I'm focused on something, you can talk to me and I won't even hear you)
Being a bit more aggressive with my boundaries and not feeling bad afterwards
Being able to chill bit more about practical things
5. Why have you left friends and other relationships in the past and/or why have they left you?
I'm usually and interestingly not the one that's being left.
I left people because they were toxic.
I left my father when I was 12, he was lying to me a lot, he was loading all his problems onto me, his girlfriend called me dumb and ugly and he let it happen, he told me that he didn't love her and then they got a second baby.. things like that started building up when I was 6 or 7 and often when I had to meet him I came home crying.
I left my exboyfriend because he was emotionally abusive, always yelling at me when I was in tears and couldn't even breathe, and I alone was the one at fault always (in his eyes) I think he needed me as a compensation for his lacking selfworth. I have claustrophobia and he smothered me so much I started panicking an he just laughed and got mad at me for being pissed of afterwards. He could not handle my panic attacks, told me that I am imagining it, yelled at me if I tried talking to him about it, yelled at me when I tried to hide that from him.. so many more things, but anyway, best decision to leave that idiot.
It sometimes happens that people think that they can do anything with me, whcih is not true. I do give a lot of chances, and I do understand if you talk honestly with me, but playing games or lying to me are things that make me lose trust, and that's when I distance myself.
I do treat these people with respect still, I am even able to talk to people that hurt me so much that I cut them off, but I'll just never let them get close emotionally.
The stepping over my boundaries thing is also a reoccuring issue, but I think thats pretty visible in my writing
For the following, rank the issues in the order they apply and give a brief description of why and how you relate.
6. Determine your ego ideal--the way you strive to be and want others to perceive you. (Note, you may be consciously aware of failing at this, and you will be hard on yourself if you do. If someone else tells you you're NOT this way, it may make you feel hurt, violated, or angry.)
Which of the following ideals resonate with you the most, and why? Rank them. (1 the most. 9 the least)
2- to be "okay", having it together
4- to be devoted and loyal to a person or cause
5- to be sensitive, original, unique, and creative
3- to be knowlegeable
9- to be powerful, strong, unassailable.
6- to be accomplished and successful
1- to strive to become/behave like a good person
7- to be a loveable person
8- to be loving and benevolent
11. Determine your "felt sense" of life. To do this it may help to look at how you perceive events. Another way to do this is to look back at your childhood and think of all the things your parents did to you. How did you/do you feel about these events?
Here are some common "felt senses" of life:
3- I must do everything to maintain my world
4- I have a sense of being unimportant, insignificant, and underving of attention
1- I feel imperfect, not (good) enough
2- I have been abandoned and I am inherently flawed
9- I'm outside the natural unfoldment of things
7- People have wronged and messed with me
8- I feel isolated, cut off, and ultimately separate
5- I have felt weak and/or vulnerable to attack
6- I've had a sense of being rejectible
12. Core fears. You may have been aware of these fears even as a very small child, before anyone did anything to influence it. You'd be mortified to be in this position or have others perceive you this way.
Discuss which fears have played the greatest role in your life:
1- Creating conflict by making myself or my needs too obvious
4- Rejection, being needy, and not being loved
5- Weak and not being on top of things
1- Failure
1- Being abandoned, sadness, feeling lost
6- Entanglements and losing what I have
2- Something is basically wrong with me--I'm not good enough
7- Boredom, grunt work, and being exposed as a charlatan
3- A lot--everything and everyone to one degree or another. It's very generalized.
the three were just so fitting I could not really rank them
Thank you so much for taking your time!
I thought I'd give typing myself a last try, and any insight on it would be highly appreciated. 0. What's making you unsure of your type? What research have you already done to determine type?
So, I'm into MBTI since I'm 14 (I'm 19 now) and I just got really curious, especially about my type. I was dealing with a lot od psychological problems at that time, and I was only 14, which made trying to type me correctly really pointless I guess. My mental health is perfectly fine now, and giving that I'm a lot older and more developed now, I thought I could give it another try.
I thought that I was an INFP for a long time now, but there are things that make me question that. I don't know, Since I'm better mentally, I'm a pretty jumpy person, getting excited so easily, I always seek for some kind of novelty since it excites me, I'm a person who is interested in nearly everything; I'm a science mayor, I'm a poet, I write songs, I sing, I enjoy sports, I enjoy reading about psychology for the fun of it. (extroverted intuition?)
I'm also so drawn to art and any form of emotional expression, art is so pure, art is so real emotionally, since that's what I do too, pour my everything into my writing, although I'm pretty scared of showing this stuff to someone, since you could really get a lot about me if you'd analyse that stuff I think.
I'm somewhat a person that holds onto her values, and the only time I can get really angry is when someone kind of ignores it if I don't want to do something, pushes me to do something that I already said I don't want to. (introverted Feeling?)
The things that made me question my type was a really nice description of Ni that I found, I tried to find it again but failed.. It said something like, that Ni looks for the deeper meaning, trying to look for patterns that reoccur (and oh my god, I do that a lot.)
I really can't tell if I use Ni or Ne. I do get these hunches, that sonmethings going to happen, e.g. I am so so aware of social interconnections in groups, I can tell if an interpersonal problem is going to occur and because of what. And I sometimes just now things, if someone I meet is depressed for example, and although I'm so insecure about this, that I somewhat never share this, it mostly turns out o be right.
But yeah, I also get jumpy, get excited about new ideas, there are definetely things that I begin but don't finish, and I can be somewhat impulsive since my mental state is pretty good now.
I'm also a really .. Fe-ish person? Like I said, I enjoy groups, and I really care a lot about if everyone feels involved and if there's a new person in the group, I'm often the one trying to include them.
It's so weird to be unsure if you use FiNe/NeFi or NiFe/FeNi since the functions are so different, but I feel so inbetween them.
1. Establish a "baseline mood"--when you're at home with nothing to do, where are you at mentally and emotionally? What do you notice in yourself? (Note, this is not a mood you inhabit "frequently", but your psychological baseline).
Pretty chill, pretty dreamy, I can spend days in my pyjamas doing absolutely NOTHING, like, not even watching series, just lying around, maybe studying for a bit until I continue doing nothing. I sometimes thing that it would be nice to watch TV series, but I get carried away mentally so easily while watching, it's like sometimes I can't even focus on this stuff. But I totally need those days, especially for being creative.
I would say mentally and emotionally I'm fine when I do this, just sometimes I feel like I need to do a lot of different things to distract myself. A normal day for me is most of the time a pretty long day at university, followed by going out with friends or having sportslessons.
A few months agp I was really scared of having these "nothing to do days" because I thought I would start overthinking If I have so much time alone, but it's fine.
2. Describe yourself--
a. What's it like to be you?
It's so fun when I'm with friends, I have a wide range of good friends, and I enjoy each of them since they are typically really different kinds of people, and every "flavor of person" brings out other sides of my personality. I enjoy people that are loud and open, since it makes it so much easier for me to open up.
It's stressful when it comes to my academic life, since I take it really seriously, but I just started a few months ago and it's really hard, especially the mathc and physics. (I'm a biochemistry mayor) I got sick a lot, but I'm trying to chill more and not take it thaaat seriously, since I can take a year longer for my bachelor anyways and no one would care.
It's chill and dreamy, I sometimes just retreat into my mind, listening to music, enjoying the view of the sun through the window in the lecture hall, or walking around with headphones and music, or scrolling through tumblr and being completely lost somewhere, just like these moods at home, I love and need this state of mind.
It's a bit difficult when it comes to my family, since I don't really .. like them? there were a few things that happened, that made me lose all trust. I currently live with my mother and I just.. know how to act to not provoke any stress, but she's really really practical, always taking money into account, I feel kind of intruded on the choices I make, since I was thinking about maybe changing my mayor to pharmacy, because it would interest me more, and the first thing that she said was that I can't be so jump and need to finish at least one thing, that I need to finish in time, money.. for me it's also so much about the experience you get, and even if I change my mayor, and even if I need more time, it's experience, that's not worthless.
Generally speaking, I can't stand when I have the feeling that someone intrudes on me. That's probably also the reason I love groups so much when socialising, because I really enjoy hanging out with people, but I don't like someone to intrude or cling to me. And in a group, no one (usually) focuses on you, I can be myself without being anxious about not being funny enough, not talking to much.. because when I don't feel like talking or making jokes, someone else will.
- I feel like this is an important feature of my personality, that's why I made it italic.
b. What have others said about you?
That they're glad to have me, that I'm funny, that I can brighten up the mood at times (I can be really really bubbly)
That they're glad that you can talk about anything and everything with me, that I understand, that I should not let myself be pushed around, that it's my right to leave toxic people, that I should not let people treat me bad, that it's okay to say it when I don't like something
That I can be damn stubborn
That it's funny how I always ask anyone for advice, completely neglecting it most of the time and doing what I think is right.
That they love my writing and singing, that it makes them feel something
That Im incredibly empathetic and that I can make feel others good about themselves
That I'm an incredible strong person (I more or less pulled myself out of depression, an eating disorder, panic attacks, and suicide thoughts)
That Im honest
That I take things too seriously all the time
That it's annoying that I need closure so much and that I'm not living for myself instead of others (although I think that this is not true, this was said by a person who emotionally abused me. and he can't treat people with respect. I try to always say what's on my mind and make it clear how I view someone because I don't like to leave people in the unknown)
That I'm incredibly intelligent, that I reflect a lot
That I only see how a person is, and that some people feel incredibly understood, that I could not care less about what a person is or what they have
c. What do you think of yourself?
I'm incredibly proud of where I am now mentally
I'm proud of the fact that people really seek my advice, that I can help people, that I can make them feel good about themselves
I'm learning to make my boundaries clear, since it happens that people just step over them and I'm not a bad person for cutting people out of my life if they don't get that.
I think that I'm really tolerant, trying to understand and respect everyone, since everyone has their own experiences and their own things to learn, and this is something i can't and should not interfere. I thing this tolerance comes with feeling better about myself, I try to focus on my reactions more, because I can't chance anything else. As I started to respect myself, I could respect others.
I'm a bit annoyed at my jumpiness, and I try to be there for everyone and it's just too much sometimes. I also sometimes feel like I don't know who I am, because I typically adapt so much.
More or less, I think I developed well, I think a lot about what I do, reflect on that, trying to get better..
3. What are the issues you've dealt with in life? List some recurrent themes, and tell us a little about each one.
I think this would be too long, and given that I mentioned the things like depression, intruding and family issues, I will leave this out. The most important things are said already.
4. You're not good at everything--
a. What personality traits and/or ways of being are impossible for you to adopt?
Being practical, being good with money, being productive or efficient, I somewhat always do tasks 72904 times more time consuming and complicated than they could be done (I don't even know why?) being chill while under stress, I once was a little bit mean to someone because I needed to finish a protocoll in 5 minutes (the tutors really really pressured us, there was no time to prepare it earlier) and he was talking and I could not concentrate.
Stress management, I always get sick when it gets too much
b. What are qualities you'd like to have, but can't seem to develop?
Stress management, being a bit more practical, being able to focus more often (If I'm focused on something, you can talk to me and I won't even hear you)
Being a bit more aggressive with my boundaries and not feeling bad afterwards
Being able to chill bit more about practical things
5. Why have you left friends and other relationships in the past and/or why have they left you?
I'm usually and interestingly not the one that's being left.
I left people because they were toxic.
I left my father when I was 12, he was lying to me a lot, he was loading all his problems onto me, his girlfriend called me dumb and ugly and he let it happen, he told me that he didn't love her and then they got a second baby.. things like that started building up when I was 6 or 7 and often when I had to meet him I came home crying.
I left my exboyfriend because he was emotionally abusive, always yelling at me when I was in tears and couldn't even breathe, and I alone was the one at fault always (in his eyes) I think he needed me as a compensation for his lacking selfworth. I have claustrophobia and he smothered me so much I started panicking an he just laughed and got mad at me for being pissed of afterwards. He could not handle my panic attacks, told me that I am imagining it, yelled at me if I tried talking to him about it, yelled at me when I tried to hide that from him.. so many more things, but anyway, best decision to leave that idiot.
It sometimes happens that people think that they can do anything with me, whcih is not true. I do give a lot of chances, and I do understand if you talk honestly with me, but playing games or lying to me are things that make me lose trust, and that's when I distance myself.
I do treat these people with respect still, I am even able to talk to people that hurt me so much that I cut them off, but I'll just never let them get close emotionally.
The stepping over my boundaries thing is also a reoccuring issue, but I think thats pretty visible in my writing
For the following, rank the issues in the order they apply and give a brief description of why and how you relate.
6. Determine your ego ideal--the way you strive to be and want others to perceive you. (Note, you may be consciously aware of failing at this, and you will be hard on yourself if you do. If someone else tells you you're NOT this way, it may make you feel hurt, violated, or angry.)
Which of the following ideals resonate with you the most, and why? Rank them. (1 the most. 9 the least)
2- to be "okay", having it together
4- to be devoted and loyal to a person or cause
5- to be sensitive, original, unique, and creative
3- to be knowlegeable
9- to be powerful, strong, unassailable.
6- to be accomplished and successful
1- to strive to become/behave like a good person
7- to be a loveable person
8- to be loving and benevolent
11. Determine your "felt sense" of life. To do this it may help to look at how you perceive events. Another way to do this is to look back at your childhood and think of all the things your parents did to you. How did you/do you feel about these events?
Here are some common "felt senses" of life:
3- I must do everything to maintain my world
4- I have a sense of being unimportant, insignificant, and underving of attention
1- I feel imperfect, not (good) enough
2- I have been abandoned and I am inherently flawed
9- I'm outside the natural unfoldment of things
7- People have wronged and messed with me
8- I feel isolated, cut off, and ultimately separate
5- I have felt weak and/or vulnerable to attack
6- I've had a sense of being rejectible
12. Core fears. You may have been aware of these fears even as a very small child, before anyone did anything to influence it. You'd be mortified to be in this position or have others perceive you this way.
Discuss which fears have played the greatest role in your life:
1- Creating conflict by making myself or my needs too obvious
4- Rejection, being needy, and not being loved
5- Weak and not being on top of things
1- Failure
1- Being abandoned, sadness, feeling lost
6- Entanglements and losing what I have
2- Something is basically wrong with me--I'm not good enough
7- Boredom, grunt work, and being exposed as a charlatan
3- A lot--everything and everyone to one degree or another. It's very generalized.
the three were just so fitting I could not really rank them
Thank you so much for taking your time!
