SwimmerGal97
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I've always had trouble in school. I love drawing and painting, but my talents lie in the physical use of the materials, my ability to match, harmonise and blend colour and recreate images in detail either from memory or a picture. By contrast, studying art in school we've always been pushed to give it deep meaning, beyond initial observational drawings, the accuracy of images doesn't matter as much as the concept and to really go on a journey. This has lead to a conflict: I love painting and drawing in my spare time but to me, art is about skill over the ability to convey an idea (not that either is better or more important, I just connect more with skill), but I feel in an academic environment, art is geared so much more towards intuitives over sensors (I initially thought I was an intuitive due to my imagination, but after meeting several of them and listening to their conversations I've decided I'm not- they talk about important stuff but boy do they talk and talk about it. I can only take so much). I've always been encouraged and supported on my skill obviously but that only gets me 1/4 to 1/3 of the marks. The rest is ideas, concepts and 'journeys'. All seems a bit woo woo to me. It really frustrates me how they tell you art is there to express yourself in your own way, but my way is wrong because instead of following a spiritual journey, I find it easier and more natural to create one off images that are like a snapshot of things I've seen, things that mean something to me because they express something about my own life in the way i see it (i.e. not in big ideas but smaller things that are just as beautiful) only the detail that triggered me to choose the subject, the common link, might be too small for most to see. My work is a time for me to enjoy the use of materials (I love feeling fresh paintbrushes and smooth paint on high gsm paper) as well as introspect and reflect. Generally my images reflect a memory and seem empty to others even though they trigger something in me. This has turned into more of a rant than a question, apologies for that, but back to my point, does anyone else struggle like this? Does it irk you or do you just shrug it off? I was considering a career in the creative sector but often feel I wouldn't succeed because I'm not really gritty and emotional, I just like pretty things and enjoy creating things that are pleasant on the eye. I was toting with the idea that I could be an ISFP before this post, but after reading it through am now considering ISTP, although I always though I was too... Whats a more succinct way of saying 'have absolutely no mechanical aptitude whatsoever'? And liked pretty things too much