The Ü™
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ExTJ troublemaker in the playground
And what makes you so different now?
ExTJ troublemaker in the playground
what is a katydid?
what is a katydid?
remember my mom staying in my room with me for an hour when I was six or so, because i was sobbing so hard. I couldn't articulate to her what I was afraid of, because it was so big and she would not understand, NOR could she fix things (so what would be the point?): I wasn't afraid of death, I was afraid of eternity because i could not understand it. I would have rather died than live forever and not be able to get my mind around it.
Thanks, Oberon--I was hoping someone would post a picture for me. They're quite loud here in the Alabama woods during summer.They make a sort of buzzing noise, not unpleasant if you're used to it. Hundreds of them at once can aurally dominate a yard.
I had a similar crisis when I was six, and again at seven. Horrifying. It made me want to curl into a little ball and scream and scream and scream.
I just block it out and don't think about it, because I can't do anything about it. It just is what it is.
Oddly, I find the infinite to be pretty unimpressive. Want to see infinity? Look up at the sky on a cloudless night, and there it is. Look between the stars, and there's infinity staring back at you. It looks pretty flat, honestly.
Dimensional "created" space I can handle. That includes multiple branes and alternate universes. What I can't handle is "eternity", something without time limit. Our present universe, as old as it is, still had a genesis, and will have a terminus long after we're gone.
When the wheels fall off of the concept of limitations, I can't handle it. I have to have parameters, even if those parameters are wide-ranging or relative to another position other than mine. Eternity is within the experience of no one and therefore undefinable. I like abstractions fine, but things that refuse all human conceptual definition make my nervous system hum like a high-tension power line. I hate it.