Redbone
Orisha
- Joined
- Apr 27, 2010
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- MBTI Type
- ENFP
- Enneagram
- 9w8
- Instinctual Variant
- sx/so
Ne-doms, I want to hear about your experiences with Si when it starts to slap you upside the head and you find yourself in its stranglehold. How does it happen? How do you get out of it?
I notice that I get really scared that I am forgetting some important detail and that I'm going to bring the whole plan crashing down because I overlooked it. So I get out my super-fine mental comb and go over it again. And again. And again. And something that should take me an hour to do takes me an entire day to do. I can't bring myself to finish something because I can't shake the feeling that I'm missing something. I don't trust myself. I feel SUPER inadequate about my ability to keep all the details in order to get things accomplished. It's really bad right now. How am I supposed to keep all this/these details in order--work, family, and pretty soon again, school?
EDIT: I forgot to add, the first thing I will try to do is prioritize. This never freaking works because when I say, "Now serving Number 1 " everything has Number 1 ticket! Okay, well who has 1.1 ticket? Everybody...just crazy. Everything on my needs taking care of list is at the number one slot and I exhaust myself trying to get it all done and end up squandering much of my energy and resources running around trying to cover all bases. I'm getting better at not doing this but the emotional/anxiety push I feel from inside shouting NOW can be really hard to handle and I still fold to it more often than I would like.
Where's the exit sign for this? My anxiety levels are off the charts right now...
How do the rest of you experience this? How do you cope?
I notice that I get really scared that I am forgetting some important detail and that I'm going to bring the whole plan crashing down because I overlooked it. So I get out my super-fine mental comb and go over it again. And again. And again. And something that should take me an hour to do takes me an entire day to do. I can't bring myself to finish something because I can't shake the feeling that I'm missing something. I don't trust myself. I feel SUPER inadequate about my ability to keep all the details in order to get things accomplished. It's really bad right now. How am I supposed to keep all this/these details in order--work, family, and pretty soon again, school?
EDIT: I forgot to add, the first thing I will try to do is prioritize. This never freaking works because when I say, "Now serving Number 1 " everything has Number 1 ticket! Okay, well who has 1.1 ticket? Everybody...just crazy. Everything on my needs taking care of list is at the number one slot and I exhaust myself trying to get it all done and end up squandering much of my energy and resources running around trying to cover all bases. I'm getting better at not doing this but the emotional/anxiety push I feel from inside shouting NOW can be really hard to handle and I still fold to it more often than I would like.
Where's the exit sign for this? My anxiety levels are off the charts right now...
How do the rest of you experience this? How do you cope?