I'm glad that nothing horrible has happened. But sometimes it's hard for people to be a human in this society as opposed to a robot, or some beast. Modern society moves too fast sometimes. And we just forget we have lives and families and our own sense of being sometimes.
I know that certain things aren't going to change once I get an MBTI type I am happy with, and that my issues are something I have to work on, and aren't magically gonna dissappear overnight. I know I am the only catalyst for real change within my life, and the only one with the power to move myself forward in life.
And I realise that MBTI isn't all about ME; that the system wasn't built for me, or for me to abuse, and that there are no right or wrong answers on type, and that it's a matter of subjectivity. Like I said, I got carried away and was in a bad place the other night.
Yes, I should have handled it better. I did disagree with some of your points, but I shouldn't have disagreed in that manner, but thank you for your suggestions.
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I am going to point out why I am not certain of Pe-Dom in general (to yourself, and to other members, and maybe some of you could help me shed some light on my typing situation or lead me to some resources which might):
1. A lot of people on this forum, and other forums have suggested that I use a lot of Te in general. (Again, this might have something to do with being 'in the loop', or developing it, but I just want to point that out. This is where I need advice within regards to my type).
2. My enneagram type. This could be another reason why I seem to come across as J-ish to a lot of people. I have a strong presence of 8 and type 8 is generally associated with ExTJ types a lot more than is associated with Pe types.
3. My current course. Within my current music course, we use a lot of Te and Ti in our classes, as well as our assignments. Yes, my T side does come quite naturally to me, but sometimes it's overwhelming when I overwork it.
4. I am quite an imaginative person, and can put my imagination and my visions to good use (well developed N for my age?) most of the time, and turn it into something. Sometimes I do have idle days where I just procrastinate and nothing comes off anything.
5. I have been quite demotivated and depressed as of late. I haven't been doing much and I know I have to get out of this funk I'm in. But I do also think that this is a chance to progress and develop as a person, in finding a release and outlet for myself to become a better person.
I'm packing to go out of town and will only have time for this one thought for now. I do not see extroverted judgment in your dom or aux position...at all. I know you have indicated you are not a fan of enneagram but you clearly have an understanding of its influence because listed in 2 is the entirety of your type related struggle...no more...no less.
I'm just going to flat out tell you instead of dancing around the whole interpersonally-sensitive *in my opinion* crap because regardless of whether or not I've explained it to you in a way you care for...I've got all that is needed in my mind to type you just like I've done before (remember this is not as complex as you are making it). You are an ESTP 7w8...with a strong 8 wing which has been made stronger by the fact you are depressed and currently connected to 5 (7s point of integration) in a bad way. It is over-active 8/5 that confuses you and others and makes everyone think *ooooooo Rico's usin extroverted judgment* when it is not even something that is highly developed in you.
^^will you like that response? Probably not. But that's all I've got time for my friend.