Forgive me Stephano for taking so long to get back to you...
^^So this is an e7 answer. And while I realize this isn't how you phrased it...your primary concern is clearly being limited and deprived by mundane work (life.) In other words, you didn't say "I am a composer...I live to compose music" or "I don't care if I'm stuck penniless, composing my music in the closet of my best friend's 300sqf apartment and eating boiled rice for dinner every night for the rest of my life...I must compose!" (<-dramatic but hopefully it illustrates my point.) For you it seemed like composing music would be *great*...but you would consider other lines of work as long as they didn't involved answering to middle-management and a grey cloth cubicle where you've pinned a photo of your dog...along with images of Mozart and Danny Elfman.
Every single day on this site I'm reminded of how massively people suck at enneagram typing. And when viewing some of these 'type me' threads...I generally want to barf into my computer keys. It's hard for me...watching people validate/reinforce each other's respective totally wrong types... No one digs deep enough. I mean, if you aren't appalled or ashamed or embarrassed or a combination of all of those things at the moment you go to attach one of those nine numbers to your name...then the chances you're not quite there yet are extremely high.
Enneagram isn't about the first set of fears you come up against...or the second or third set... no, no, no. Those are all the fears that have been created in order to keep the core fear hidden so deep... so as not to be discovered. In this way it is not unusual for e7s to dream of becoming a significant/respected/famous Composer for example... but when you strip away all the layers and arrive at the core... you discover that the attachment isn't to the image or significance... but rather to the interest or experience or unlimited possibilities. Do you understand?
The first enneagram test I took put me at 4w5...and so I read the description alongside the rest...and thought 'okay'...I'm 4w5. It made just enough sense to me...and honestly, if we are focusing solely on descriptions...7w6 may in fact make less sense to me (many e7 descriptions have a 7w8, Se and/or social-dom bias.) What first caused me to doubt was the fact I didn't relate to 'Heart type.' Head is generally related to fear...and Gut with anger. The Heart type seems to get several different words assigned to it...grief, sadness, shame, envy, image... none of which I relate to. And so I got a bunch of enneagram books from the library. 7 always looked quite stupid to me. I had depth man (haha.) And since it became clear I was a Head type and because I identify with being counterphobic...I settled on 6w7 as my type. But as time went on I thought...this is so not me (6w7 is less me than 4w5.) At this point I knew I was a 7 as pretty much everything about it made me cringe. I just needed to know 1) can 7w6 be cp in the 6w5 way? And 2) can living in a total imaginary world of optimism and loveliness substitute for actual/material gluttony (gluttony of thought?) Yes and yes. Sold.
We all have our dreams though
Yes x infinity.
[MENTION=10082]Starry[/MENTION]
Well, that is hard to answer. I think I would kill myself if I had to spend my whole life in an average job. I want to become a composer someday and from what I have heard it is pretty hard to get into the business. I probably won't go to university, but I will take a schooling for audio engineering.
^^So this is an e7 answer. And while I realize this isn't how you phrased it...your primary concern is clearly being limited and deprived by mundane work (life.) In other words, you didn't say "I am a composer...I live to compose music" or "I don't care if I'm stuck penniless, composing my music in the closet of my best friend's 300sqf apartment and eating boiled rice for dinner every night for the rest of my life...I must compose!" (<-dramatic but hopefully it illustrates my point.) For you it seemed like composing music would be *great*...but you would consider other lines of work as long as they didn't involved answering to middle-management and a grey cloth cubicle where you've pinned a photo of your dog...along with images of Mozart and Danny Elfman.
Every single day on this site I'm reminded of how massively people suck at enneagram typing. And when viewing some of these 'type me' threads...I generally want to barf into my computer keys. It's hard for me...watching people validate/reinforce each other's respective totally wrong types... No one digs deep enough. I mean, if you aren't appalled or ashamed or embarrassed or a combination of all of those things at the moment you go to attach one of those nine numbers to your name...then the chances you're not quite there yet are extremely high.
Enneagram isn't about the first set of fears you come up against...or the second or third set... no, no, no. Those are all the fears that have been created in order to keep the core fear hidden so deep... so as not to be discovered. In this way it is not unusual for e7s to dream of becoming a significant/respected/famous Composer for example... but when you strip away all the layers and arrive at the core... you discover that the attachment isn't to the image or significance... but rather to the interest or experience or unlimited possibilities. Do you understand?
I remember that you once misidentified yourself as a 4, right? I would really like to know now how you found out that you are an actual 7. From what I have grasped from the descriptions the difference is big.
The first enneagram test I took put me at 4w5...and so I read the description alongside the rest...and thought 'okay'...I'm 4w5. It made just enough sense to me...and honestly, if we are focusing solely on descriptions...7w6 may in fact make less sense to me (many e7 descriptions have a 7w8, Se and/or social-dom bias.) What first caused me to doubt was the fact I didn't relate to 'Heart type.' Head is generally related to fear...and Gut with anger. The Heart type seems to get several different words assigned to it...grief, sadness, shame, envy, image... none of which I relate to. And so I got a bunch of enneagram books from the library. 7 always looked quite stupid to me. I had depth man (haha.) And since it became clear I was a Head type and because I identify with being counterphobic...I settled on 6w7 as my type. But as time went on I thought...this is so not me (6w7 is less me than 4w5.) At this point I knew I was a 7 as pretty much everything about it made me cringe. I just needed to know 1) can 7w6 be cp in the 6w5 way? And 2) can living in a total imaginary world of optimism and loveliness substitute for actual/material gluttony (gluttony of thought?) Yes and yes. Sold.
[MENTION=10082]Starry[/MENTION]
glad you decided against self preservation dom. you don't come off as cold or ambitious as an Sp 7
We all have our dreams though
how bout me ENFP 7w6
?
Yes x infinity.