NeverAmI
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- Nov 5, 2009
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- INTP
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- 5w4
Well I'm not sure if this is just a ME problem, or if it pertains to other ISFPs. I'm alot better at expressing myself through works. Like art, music, writting and dance. Speaking on the other hand...not so good. I guess it doesn't help that whenever I talk at home, everybody ignores me. So I think I've just stopped communicating verbally to people because nobody really listens. And thats a fact, not something I've made up. Like, yesterday I only said one sentence the whole day. "I'd like a steak please." Other than I just don't speak too often.
Metaphors do help at times, but for some bizarre reason the people I know aren't into abstract thinking in that way. Its very, just tell me the facts and leave me be. So you can imagine someone like myself isn't too understood at home in that way.
I can relate completely to this. I have always had a VERY hard time relaying my thoughts in speech. I didn't even use words until I was 4 years old.
My problem is more about social anxiety I think. I would refer to my inability to speak in busy social situations and with people I am not 100% comfortable with as sensory overload. I would just go bonkers processing so much stuff at once. If I was in a crowd I was wondering about every person, if I heard someone laugh I wondered if it was about me. I was constantly wondering how someone would interpret every word that comes out of my mouth, most times I say soemthing completely stupid and put my foot in my mouth anyway, so... Why bother?
Even when I do manage to get my words out, most people give me that look like they have absolutely no idea what I am talking about. I very much relate to the ISFP's description of marching to the beat of a different drummer.
Many times my ideas/thoughts/feelings are so fluid, so dynamic, and so intangible that they simply transcend words. By the time I write or speak the words, they no longer apply in certain cases.
Now this sort of thought process in my head shouldn't be confused with a lack of identity. I have strong morals that I live by, things that feel right to me. These ideals and core values are static.
As for reciting certain situations that happened during the day, I am lucky if I even remember them, lol.