I'm feeling more and more like a freak here. I don't break things, never yelled out of anger. I speed consistently, but only because I try to minimize driving time; I set my cruise control there. When I'm suggesting a good idea, and people don't listen or consider it, I just stop suggesting it and figure it's their loss. I guess I'm not that invested in it. Fortunately, that's never come up at work. They always consider what I'm suggesting.
In my eighth grade English class, we were required to read a book and write a report every two weeks. I read a couple books every week, but didn't like writing book reports, so I didn't. In our weekly grade summary, I'd always get an A one week (no report due), and an F the next (report due). I finally concluded this was stupid, and wrote up a report on a book I'd just read. When I got the report back, it was graded "F", with a note from the teacher saying she suspected I'd copied it from the book jacket, or from a printed review. Did I confront her? Of course not. I just concluded that there was no point in writing any more reports, so I didn't. This was partially stupidity, and partially just me looking for an excuse to not write any more reports.
A few weeks ago, while experiencing some anxiety, I realized that I was actually angry about something. I thought, "Hey, this is good! I should go with this. Let's be ANGRY!!!" Of course, it immediately dissipated. Very disappointing. I was so looking forward to a good angergasm. Ah, well. Maybe next time.
Oh, and, Kyrielle? The cake is a lie.