Sorry if I've come across at all offensive in trying to cover the angles. I'm only trying to help.
No, I do not find you to be offensive at all. I actually appriciate whatever you have to say, whether it be in my favour or not, it will just help me in the long run. So thank you for that.
What's your plan of action with your man friend?
At the moment, honestly, I dont know. I care about him a lot, but I am leaving the military (we are both military) and moving back home to go to school which is two hrs away.
I have three weeks left before I leave, so my mentality is enjoy it while I can, and then keep in touch. I'm finding it harder and harder to keep that mentality because the more time I spend with him, the more I want to be with him.
I am flabberghasted almost by the situation, because I do not feel things this intesnly for most people. In fact, I am pretty indifferent to most emotions, and think they are a setback. I don't like relationships, and i have a serious fear of commitment. HOWEVER, I would honestly put all my fears aside and try with this man because when I think about me leaving and things ending as they are now...Its almost as though there's this tragic ending in a movie. It kind of reminds me of the movie Before Sunrise...it's pertty pathetic, if you'd told me I'd of felt this way 2-3 months ago I would have laughed in your face. AHHHH freakin PoLR.
So anyways, my plan of action is to just go with the flow until my time here is up. I will not decline to date other people during the course of three weeks while im here, because he clearly stated that he doesnt want a relationship earlier, and I understand that completely. However, I have needs too and I am not gonna pass up a possibly wonderful opertunity just because my head is stuck up my ass being head over heels for a guy who cannot fully reciprocate my feelings. I will not sleep with other people, because its just not how I roll, I dont usually care, but when I have feelings for someone I cannot fuck around.
I still have to mention however, even though he says he cannot be in a relationship, he exhibitis traist, even at times jelaousy, or almost an inquisitive nature when I am being indifferent about spending time with him. (which is just my way of being indisposable to him at all times)