I often wish that I could live with monks. Not become one, but just enjoy the COMPLETE silence, besides the amazing chanting, all the time. It just makes me feel warm inside. I'd say the completeness of analysis of everything is most definitly what causes my depression. I don't leave any stone unturned even if it has been turned a million times because something could be different this time around.
I totally get that. I so desperately want to be a nun, sometimes, but then I remind myself that there are fucked up hierarchies and superiors to be obeyed everywhere, and I get over it..
Well, correct me if I'm wrong, but the reason why a lot of INTPs have low self esteem is simple: self-esteem is basically a mechanism that makes sure each individual serves the well being of the species, ultimately - in other words, your self-esteem is tightly linked to your usefulness to society, as well as the feedback you get from others with regards to your desirability-as a friend, neighbor, mate etc.
So, it's easy to see why INTPs are prone to suffer from low self-esteem, since they are stubbornly fixed on mapping the world in their heads, from an objective, "outsider"'s perspective, having no regard for their own humanity and emotional needs, which, whether we like it or not, are identical to the average person's emotional needs-need for respect, affection, and ultimately, affirmation and acceptance, all of which are much more difficult to attain by the typical INTP.
Now, am I right, or am I right?