If you disintegrate enough, do you become the next in the disintegration line?
I wondered about that question myself. What do others think?
For the most part I like type 7's. The 7's I know are fun to be around, have a great sense of humor, and don't take life too seriously. On the downside, I don't like 7's when they are unhealthy and end up being unreliable, or overly impulsive and deny all problems.
Do you ever get like that if you're a 5 disintegrating?
I don't like it. However it has preceded breaking points of self awareness in the past. The last time I felt I was going in that direction, I distracted myself as best I could before confronting the issue head on (minus the complete disintegration). I do however think it's healthy for someone to become more self aware and introspective if they've the propensity for that to begin with. To be honest, my disintegration point is an 8 and it feels completely off, I get more confused and in pain internally though outwardly I appear like a jerk face.
Why does it feel "completely off" and confusing?
I'm not a fan. I feel I like I primarily have the more negative characteristics of an 8... I get short tempered, confrontational, and insensitive.
It's interesting because I live with an 8w7. And when I start to disintegrate/get stressed out we do NOT get a long.
Haha I imagined that now...
As for original topic
Disintegration sounds like it's supposed to be unpleasant, but do you feel a paradoxical liking for your disintegration point? Do you feel tempted to slip into it just because you think it's more effective or easy or attractive than your integration point? Do you tend to like or dislike people who are the same enneagram as your disintegration point?
I'm supposed to disintegrate into 5. Yes I've had some liking for some 5-ish stuff. I don't however like it *that* much overall.
It's effective to an extent, sure, if I get into new knowledge that then I can use. It can give a lot of power really. Also a deeper view of the world, maybe. That can feel rewarding too.
Now for the negative; too much 5 feels like it's killing me. No longer alive, no longer connected to the world, just meh. It's not attractive at all.
The period of my life where I was really 5-ish about a decade ago, it was me partially recovering from some issue, regaining some of my energy and learning a new language, which later certainly helped me a lot (the language knowledge I mean). So I guess I got out of it with a certain balance of results, part negative (some 5-ish issues that stayed for a while afterwards), part positive (the language).
I don't have a problem with 5's in general, I think. I know someone who types as 5 and we get along really well (she's got 8 too a lot though. I sometimes wonder if she's just disintegrated lol).