Azure Flame
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- Aug 26, 2010
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- MBTI Type
- ESTP
- Enneagram
- 8w7
I'm tired of being an INFP. All I ever do is feel, think and make myself promises to help me become a perfect person. I constantly break my promises. Everyday I wake up thinking, 'Today will be the day that I start life and become the ideal me.' I. Always. Fail. The fact that I can't change myself sickens me.
I'm irretrievably overwhelmed with emotions-the world is so beautiful and there's so much pain in it. I want every single human being to be happy, to be the best person they can be. It's too big though, I don't know how to help the world because it's too chaotic and I don't know everything, not even close. If I did know everything I wouldn't know how to organize that information, I don't even know how to organize my current thoughts. There are to many factors in life and to me, life is overwhelming, confusing, hard, chaotic, a puzzle, uncontrollable- it's too much and it's too hard.
I want to become an ENTP. I want to be like Barney Stinson, the Joker, Bugs Bunny, Tom Sawyer, Tyler Durdan, Jack Sparrow, Ferris Bueller, Tony Stark.. some are arguably not ENTP, but I hope you understand what I'm looking to become. I want to not be so emotional.. I want to be clever, tough, adventurous, brave, quick-witted, persuasive, and most of all, in control.
Like an INFP, ENTPs see the world as full of possibilities, the difference is that they know how to navigate it.
Please tell me specific steps I can take, actions I can do, thoughts I can think to become an ENTP. Thank you.
Congratulations' you're a thinker. You like to make statements about what makes sense. Sometimes things make so much sense to you that you have to correct other people who don't make sense. Then these people get upset and say hurtful things to you. Sometimes you go through the most prestigious college wondering, "wow, now that I achieved that, lets do something big with my life!" So now you're a biomechanical engineer who just invented the first robot with a human brain. You get the nobel peace prize because that's what ENTP's get when they invent stuff. You go your whole life accomplishing fantastic things because you have the mental organization to do so. You're at the top of a skyscraper getting your dick sucked and you invariably do not care about who these people are because women are a dime a dozen. You look out the window of the city wondering what it would be like if you were a feeler who had real friends that you openned up to and cared about in a deep personal manner. You wonder what it would be like if you lived that life. After reading all those books and gathering all that knowledge and knowing everything there is to know and inventing everything there is to invent you wonder "what is the purpose to life? why do I feel unsatisfied?" You wonder why people get upset when you correct them. Those who are jealous of your accomplishments seek to destroy you or thwart your efforts to success. You meet someone who is incredibly beautiful. This person is suave, creative, smart, funny, responsible etc. You talk to her, but you're too logical. Too blunt. Too unemotional to understand the subtle nuances in communication that make a conversation smooth. Suddenly you're made fun of because you're clumsy and socially awkward. You feel hurt and rejected but don't realize you feel this way until you've hurt someone else without realizing it. Sometimes you'll be sitting there deep in thought, and someone will ask you why you're sad. You'll reply, "I'm not sad, I'm just thinking." Phew, you managed to thwart one person. Now lets thwart another 30 per week until you eventually lose patience and think there is something wrong with you. Sometimes you see people being happy who have no money but plenty of friends and wonder, "gee, wouldn't it be nice to be that way?"