See I don't feel I'm making excuses because I spend so much damn time trying to find a solution.
You trying to find a solution to a problem that doesn't exist does not qualify as trying to find a solution, so you are wrong - again.
First, you need to identify what the real problems are, and it's not even necessary to dive into details to do this in your case - because your primary problems are (a) ignorance, (b) immaturity, and (c) attention seeking.
For months you talked shit on this forum about every topic under the sun, and you couldn't even back your arguments logically or with fact. You simply blabbered your vitriolic filth at any and all who would listen/reply - and when you received some feedback, you simply lambasted them with more of your self-grandiose bullshit until they other party disengaged out of sheer boredom, or more likely realization that you were acting like a punk and a lost cause for any chance of vicarious growth via sharing experiences with others.
Get over yourself. Until you accept responsibility for your life, and hold yourself accountable for your words and your deeds - you are not a man, you are a punk with a victim complex.
If you think that asking people about your imaginary problems is time spent trying to find a solution to your vast lack of purpose and self-responsibility, then you are wasting your time - and other people's time too.
So, you want to quickly establish a connection between your body and your mind to see if it will do you as much good as you think it will?
Then go ahead and stick a car key into an electrical outlet and let me know how that turns out for you.
I'll bet your mind and body work just fine together under that kind of stimulation.
Go read a book, better yet go help some needy people - do something to better yourself.
Pretending to be things you are not, and embellishing your historical accomplishments over and over, year after year will keep you on a path to failure.
The writing is on the wall - so read it, and take it to heart, and evolve. But if you can't do that, then please just shut up and stop writing about all this non-sense about you being so disconnected and helpless.
If only your mind forgot how to control your mouth and your fingers, at least then you would have to keep this shit to yourself and not bother/bore anyone else.