Thanks for all the responses! It seems like such a fun forum witha lot of interesting people. As for my enneagram I have only taken a test once, so I should really look into it more! I saw some others filling out this one, so maybe this is useful. I hope they made sense, I figured if I did them quickly and let every answer be what I first thought about they'd be the most truthful!
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
I think it's the Fi part that makes me unsure because I can't understand how much of a roll it has played in my life. Meanwhile Ne has been something I've been aware of that being a part of who I am before I even knew what MBTI was, if that makes sense. And like you said, Forever_Jung, the introversion/extroversion has also played a part in my confusion. I find the differences between the two interesting, but I cannot place me in either one of them. I do get energy by being around people, but it can also become overwhelming. I do fine alone, as long as I have something to keep me accupied or else I get bored and lonely and just want some human contact.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Happiness, being happy and making others happy in return. Anything that inspires me, most things do! I get really bored if I don't get to do creative things. So although I enjoy my job a lot, I hate that it leaves so little time for me to create things since what I really want to do is writing and filming and even photography. I also wants to create because I get so frusterated with media and how little diversity it is and how much better it could be.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
Oy! Probably now or when I was little. When I've been happy. I'm 19 now and 15-17 was just not good... Once I got out of school it was a lot better. Although school had some good things too like I got some great friends who were like me in many ways. I've never had trouble finding friends, but a lot of them have been bored about what excites me and if something gets me exciting I will talk about it. A lot. Also while I was growing up I went to summer camp every summer (ages 10-16 I think) and that just made me so carefree and I like that version of me. That also happens when I'm out of town. I love Stockholm and living in a big city but I don't like the day-to-day life and when things are the same all the time.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Whenever I feel anxious or sad. I was depressed a lot in highschool and everything with that came back to self-loathing and insecurities and not so fun stuff like that. Or when I hurt someone elses feelings, I do hate that a lot. I really don't know what to say here, guys haha.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
Oh decisions? Yesterday I took a picture of birthday cards and sent to a friend so they could decide because I just couldn't. "But the green has butterflies... oh the purple is so fancy" etc. However when they then said "take the blue one" I went "Nah I'm taking the purple one." However when I went to highschool (grades 10-12 here in Sweden) I knew right away when I saw their catalog. I was just like "there is where I need to spend my next three years". And that was a pretty big decision.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
Yes! Especially if I'm excited about it. Hopefully someone else is excited too, because I don't need to have all of the control, but I definitely need a say about it. But I'm interested in what other people think too and what they want to come from it.
7) Describe a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
I had a lot of fn yesterday when my friend had a birthday party. I had a bad headache though, but it was still a lot of fun because there were a lot of friends I haven't seen in a while and good food and I don't need much else!
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you?
Jumping right to it, but I can be insecure about doing it right so hopefully someone there I can ask if I'm doing it right.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
*Looks around room* Oh. Not very. But I'm getting better, because I'm starting to understand what kinds of rules and structures I need to make my life work.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
This was a hard one. I'm not sure, I think I'm trying to understand the idea and try to be optimistic about it and make it even better. This is not even the question, I am so sorry!
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
Can't it be both? I do need to be myself, and I'm not good at playing games so that happens naturally I think. I think it's important that everyone belongs, and in return that they feel free to be who they are.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
Sometimes I speak before thinking, then I usually realize it in the middle of the sentence like "wow probably shouldn't have started this but here we are... oh well let's just continue and see if we can make this less awful".
I think mostly I enjoy one-on-one, because in my family there's this "king of the hill" going on. You make sure to fight until the word is your and you don't even stop talking to take a breath, because if you do, someone else will start talking and you don't know if you'll ever get a chance to continue. And I gotta tell ya, it's hard to get your point across that way with everyone interuppting each other! Although if it's more peaceful, I do love group discussions, because there are more opinions around. Like in school when we had discussions, they could be a lot of fun and interesting.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
Like I said in a question before, I do rather jump in and learn as I go. Actions probably do speak louder than words, but I do need people to talk to me to say what they think or feel even if they are showing it by their actions. I'm needy
okay.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
I do rather spend the evenings with friends. And I don't really watch tv, I watch the shows on my computer when I have time so it can definitely wait.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
Well yesterday my friend told me "you swear a lot when you're stressed out, don't you?" so there's that. I'm probably very rude and hurtful so I try not to talk to people until I've pulled myself together. I probably cry too. I don't handle stress well at all.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
It's actually rare for me to dislike people and if I do it's usually their morals I have trouble getting past. Even then, I'll try to give them the benefit of the doubt with the exception for bigotry. Othervise I guess dishonesty and gossiping are
things I have a problem with.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
I love talking social justice, which I'm passionate about and can get emotional about. I love talking about identity and gender, sexuality and things like that. Film and television - both about how amazed I am by clever writing and character development and how disappointed I am when the show/character/couple had SO MUCH POTENTIAL!
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?
Oh. If I pay the least attention to it I doubt I'll even figure about what it is I'm missing to be honest, haha. Umm but I'm a time optimist, often late. I have horrible sense of direction it's a wonder I even know where I live. I don't know what to tell you, honestly.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
This was probably the hardest question. I'm not sure how they percieve me. They'd probably say about me not being good at being on time, bad sense of direction, can't pay attention to something for too long and all of that would be correct! Also that I'm overdramatic about things, such as my friend leaving for a year to live in America and she says I act as if she's leaving forever. I can't think of much that my friends think that is untrue. When I was younger I'd often get that I was cheerful and "always happy" and things like that although I was in a really bad place, so there's that. I'm not sure what they would never say about my personality probably that I have a good attention span? Hahaha.
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Well now that I work fulltime, I really try to put my freetime to good use. I'd want to be outside if there was nice weather and be with my closest friends. I'd want to bring my camera and make films or take pictures. I would want to go to concerts, a zoo or an amusement park or just somewhere fun. And eat someplace with really good food.