concerning drama: i have little to no craving for it... i guess on some level, i like other people's drama (one on one) in the sense that i like to help them sort it out and eliminate it... i like the part where i help them cut through the bullshit and figure out what is actually going on, their level of responsibility, and the best possible resolution... i like my own after it is long gone... when i am able to analyze how things got so screwed up, and how i can avoid it in the future... i guess (despite my efforts to eliminate thinking of myself as a victim) i still have some sort of attraction to the view of myself as some sort of stoic figure battling through tough times that were no fault of my own... i have always been very good at identifying my own level of blame, so it took some pretty heinous examples, and a real loss of perspective (due to depression) to reach the point where i was able to say "but i didn't do anything wrong this time"... i guess for those particular examples i can still see myself as mostly free of blame, so maybe that is what i like about them... having even a few moments in my life that i don't need to take responsibility for is relaxing on one level or another... i never thought as it was happening "i should write about this"... i did however spend a lot of time writing about these things just the same... i can't profess that the writing was of the highest quality, but i performed little to no editing (much of it was done in high school)...
as for deep connections: yeah, that happens sometimes... it's not a default adhesion to everyone i like or communicate with on a "deeper level"... it's one of those things that either happens or doesn't... it's almost a mystical process, in the sense that i have no idea what makes it happen (or fail to happen)... it also happens in various degrees... i think i can count one one hand the people able to give me that feeling today... the number had been higher, but oddly with some of them the feeling of excitement has faded with time... i think that is due to disconnection... if i had stayed in constant contact, i think that the connection would remain... as it is, even with those whose "sparkle" has eroded, i still have a special place in my heart for them... the connection isn't gone, it has merely cooled... perhaps it could be reawakened, but i don't understand how that would happen either... i noticed that the post below mine mentions an increase when under the influence of booze... i would say that alchohol (yes, i know that isn't the accepted spelling) can cause a very good imitation of what i am talking about.. if that imitation is cultivated it can become real (in some cases)... other substances are capable of producing a more genuine response (or perhaps a more sustainable imitation)... in any case, once i care for someone that feeling never leaves entirely... my love, affection, caring, disdain, annoyance, and the like are more or less forever... as more feelings are added in, they simply become layered... if anything about any of this was confusing (or lacking in detail) feel free to ask me about it...
i have no idea if it relates to the enneagram... i find that whole system to be confusing and hard to define in concise terms...