Psychology has been an avid interest of mine for a while, and before discovering these different systems and theories of personality typing, I thought maybe I suffered from avoidant personality disorder. After finding out I'm allegedly an INTp type and what that entails, I'm not so sure if I suffer from it or if extreme social avoidance is just a part of my nature. Then again, after discovering my type, I wondered if at least the I and T parts might not be a result of suffering from avoidant personality disorder. I'm never fully certain of anything. Either way, in regards to socializing, I've always avoided it where possible, because I've always been worried I could make some blunder that I would find personally inexcusable. I hate having to be so keenly aware of myself and everything I do on the spot like that. Not to mention, I hate having to react on the spot like that to. However, I've read about INTp's being social chameleons, and I'm actually quite good at that role when I'm forced into socializing. Also, whatever part of us that allegedly accounts for us being able to be weird or eccentric, but in a lovable, dorky sort of way, I'm very thankful for, as I use that a lot with the opposite gender, and with some degree of success. The real problem, for me, is when it comes time to "drop the act", so to speak. When I start trying to develop an actual relationship with someone, my Ti and the true weakness of my Fe start to shine through. I start to alienate them a bit with both, either by going off on theoretical rants on some esoteric interest of mine, or by reacting to a situation in a way that makes it blatantly obvious that I'm oblivious to their feelings. I have to say, nothing has caused me more troubles or grief, in my well established relationships, than my weak Fe, especially in my romantic relationships. If I have to hear that I'm cold, detached, and distant, one more time, I'm going to go the rest of the way insane! :steam: I live in Western society, I thought being an insensitive jerk was appropriate behavior for a guy and a turn on, but apparently that only applies as an initial attraction. lol