I want to be free and free people and free things. Liberation!
I want to find true love (in all its different forms and shapes) and happiness -- healthy, functional, transformative love and true happiness.
I want to experience The World, Life, and Other People.
Where do you hope to be in 10 years?
I want to be where I want to be. I want to have figured it out by then. I want to have processed through all my demons and issues. I want to be Complete and Activated. Also I better have popped out my biological kids by then. And found my life partner. And found My Calling.
If I haven't done this in 10 years, ZOMG, fughget about years 15,20, and beyond. I am too depressed to think further.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I feel like I have at least one but more like many some fundamental blockages holdings me back and preventing me from being who I want and need to be. So if I could change ONE thing about myself, I would clear that blockage so I could flow, like water, through life and be the force I was meant to be.
I've used the analogy of water before, and I stand by it.
Currently, I feel frustrated.
I want to feel Authentic and I want to feel Alive.
On a superficial level this means I wish I were more honest, or just honest. I wish I could handle, process, and express the emotions of anger and sadness better, without shame, guilt, fear, self-consciousness, or hang ups.
I wish I could be terrified of things and still jump in, both arms ready to embrace the future.
I want to be a hard ass and a bad ass and be in control of my life and command respect so that I do not have to feel like I'm always second-guessing myself and pulling back.
I want to feel strong and trust myself and others.
Ummmmm, YEAH.
Thanks for the questions EA! LOL. Just in time for a not quite mid-life crisis! You saved me a whole journal entry!