addiction:
After my first night drunk, I was enamored of the possibilities, so numerous, of alcohol. It was a night of revelation; the stars seemed to peer inquiringly at me from between the Park Avenue apartment buildings, wondering how I had it so good.
Then I tried pot. From 15 to 18 I smoked pot whenever I could. In between classes at a friend's place, or on a stoop.
Cigarettes I'd have only every so often.
But by this time, alcohol was a problem. Suspensions, expulsions, and imposed deferrals from several colleges (like UChicago)... they wanted me to take time off based on my boarding school expulsion to look at myself. Got kicked out of a liberal arts college for excessive drinking (and excessive actions and reactions)...
In the meanwhile I'd also tried several other drugs, including but not limited to cocaine, DXM (cough tablets... yes... cough tablets... they get you really high), percosetz (splg?), vicatin, codeine, nutmeg, smoked heroine once...
Okay... so 18, no place to go... was off of college for a year. So I quit cold turkey, worked hard, studied hard, exercised, picked up yoga, picked up some cool friends, repaired my desperate relationship with my parents... went back to school, went right back to the drugs.
3 years hard use... a year-long clean break... and then back.
Another year of school, another season of nutty behavior and too much reliance on drugs... my ideal night involved smoking some weed, downing some shots of vodka and a few cups of beer, and hitting whippits while playing SFII on the snes original and eating really awesome barbeque wings (hot sauce and honey mustard)...
did a fair amount of acid... I tried salvia several times... cocaine again then too...
Left school after freshman year... moved to Wall Street with an older woman.
DRANK DRANK DRANK... now THIS, my friends, is drinking. A virtually unlimited tab (thanks be to our kind stockbrokerly boss, a Korean who pulled in high six figures every year) in a bar surrounded by lots of money... (it was Ulysses, if you want to know... occasionally Delmonico's and a sports bar near the firm...) I also became highly addicted to DXM, which is a hallucinogen with strong, jarring effects on perception of the world and perception of self... made some money, lost more money... did a lot of coke... loved the stuff... you can't be on Wall Street and not do coke... (you can, but you're on Wall Street, for Chrissakes!)
Left after a long while... too long... arrests (and acquittals or ACD's) and all... back to school... 3 months clean... in school... doing well... BOOM... DXM and drinking... smoking pot... occasionally coke....
And the story continues...
The only other things I'm addicted to are books I don't understand (try Heidegger or Deleuze and Guattari), Prison Break (what's Scofield... an ISTP?), and... ummmmm.... no food.... some video games when I was younger like SMB3.... cigarettes (SMOKE BIG TIME)
INTERNET.... addicted to the internet...
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In short... I'm a simple ENTP who just can't quit...