Risen
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- Mar 19, 2008
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- 9w8
There are 3 main qualities of myself, immutable qualities, which I have always had to suppress in order to better get along with the majority of people, to not stand out in an unproductive way.
1. Freedom to display my full intelligence.
If I had a dime for every time someone has told me "you're too smart" in a not so endearing way, I'd be quite a few dollars richer.
2. Freedom to demonstrate my full love and kindness through actions or words.
I like to do good things for my friends/loved ones, some more than others. I don't don't desire to for the sake of being nice, but because I feel it's what I should do, and more so, it's just in my nature. I'm a giving person, but I often times cannot put that on display for a myriad of social and normative reasons.
3. Freedom to be a horny bastard.
This is something that I choose to suppress more because of my views on the causes and effects of my own sexual behavior. It's less of a "I must hold back to get along" sort of thing as it is a "This is the only good way of living I can ascertain" sort of thing.
Since #3 is of my own volition, in response to the nature of the world I live in, I can't really complain about it. The first 2, however, feel like limits upon my true potential, especially #1. Oh how I loathe the world for being so resistant to my intelligence. Let me realize my true potential and utilize my full intellectual abilities without having to alienate every human being that cannot handle my IQ. How can I grow to become stronger and more intelligent when I can only use my greater intelligence in select parts of my life (SOME academia), and not in the greater portion of it (socially). Why must I be forced to adopt two modes of intelligence for two different worlds?
1. Freedom to display my full intelligence.
If I had a dime for every time someone has told me "you're too smart" in a not so endearing way, I'd be quite a few dollars richer.
2. Freedom to demonstrate my full love and kindness through actions or words.
I like to do good things for my friends/loved ones, some more than others. I don't don't desire to for the sake of being nice, but because I feel it's what I should do, and more so, it's just in my nature. I'm a giving person, but I often times cannot put that on display for a myriad of social and normative reasons.
3. Freedom to be a horny bastard.
This is something that I choose to suppress more because of my views on the causes and effects of my own sexual behavior. It's less of a "I must hold back to get along" sort of thing as it is a "This is the only good way of living I can ascertain" sort of thing.
Since #3 is of my own volition, in response to the nature of the world I live in, I can't really complain about it. The first 2, however, feel like limits upon my true potential, especially #1. Oh how I loathe the world for being so resistant to my intelligence. Let me realize my true potential and utilize my full intellectual abilities without having to alienate every human being that cannot handle my IQ. How can I grow to become stronger and more intelligent when I can only use my greater intelligence in select parts of my life (SOME academia), and not in the greater portion of it (socially). Why must I be forced to adopt two modes of intelligence for two different worlds?