We are both 17, male, at the same school.
Just for context: About a year ago i told him that i liked him as more than a friend, knowing he was straight. This is the scariest, most personal thing i have ever told anybody. It made things a bit rough for a while because i said some stupid things and my emotions got the better of me, but we got over it and he became my best friend, the person i could tell anything. I am very introverted and only have a couple of close friends, he is the only person i feel comfortable expressing my emotions to. I don't think it has much to do with this though, he says it doesn't bother him and it was a long time ago.
For some time now, more than 2 months, ive noticed that he hardly ever talks to me in comparison to his other friends, and he looks more comfortable with them. Maybe this is just because they are more extroverted? We used to talk on IM very often, but that has basically stopped, maybe just because i stopped starting the convo. He never initiates contact/conversation with me unless its something essential and he never really tells me anything of any importance to him, which makes me think he doesn't want to talk to me. It really feels like he is always ignoring me.
I told him it seemed like we weren't close anymore/that we hardly talk, and he told me:
So he's saying he puts time into talking to other people so they recognise him as a friend... but im too boring to deserve that?its not that i dont think of you as a friend, its just that at school, conversations dont go anywhere. that and i want other people to recognise me as a friend as well. and for that, i need to talk to others/be in conversations.
i think ive lost some my patience as well. meaning i get bored of conversations where nothings happening quicker/easier.
ive also kinda stopped talking to 'x'. makes me . but its coz i find it even harder to keep conversation with him than i do with you. whenever he talks to me, he starts with something that is really strange and hard to follow. idk if he does that to everyone though.
and for the record, i still regard you as one of my best friends.
And im the next 'x'?
His behaviour leads me to think that im just a distant friend/acquaintance to him, but yet he says that im one of his best friends... confusing.
It is extremely unusual for me to care about a friendship this much, romantic feelings just really screw me up. Damn Fi! :steam:
Maybe im just expecting too much...
My apologies for polluting the forum with my teen crap