It is something I have my eyes on.. med school that is. I don't know if I can afford to go to it yet.. We'll see how life pans out for me. It is hard to try to balance military life with regular school, I don't know how to do it with med school yet. Maybe an army-sponsored program of some sort. Anyways, I think the most difficult aspect of it, for me so far in school, is feeling like I have to be perfect. I feel somehow behind the other students.. my want to help other people with a career like that is tainted with doubts. I see doctors that are no good, that don't know their job, or make a wrong diagnosis that really hurts someone, etc. It's a lot of pressure to think about.. so every thing I do wrong in a class, I think, "This class is like elementary doctor stuff.. if I'm getting these things wrong, how am I suppose to be a good doctor?" I fill myself with self-doubt sometimes over it, which creates a stress.
The more I study, the better I feel.. and the more I neglect other aspects of my life in the process. I'm finding a decent balance of it all, but it is still bothersome to find time between a career, a family to care for, friends to pay attention to, hobbies and projects that give me personal fulfillment, and lessons that eat a huge chunk of my time.. while learning lessons that I am taking because I don't want to put all of my eggs in a single basket.