What Are You Feeling II: The Sequel & The Last Crusade & Search for & Revenge of Khan &The Secret of the Ooze

[RadicalDoubt]

Uncomfortable and deep in thought

 

[Indigo Rodent]

Sad.

 

[Pikaqiu]

I felt trapped and stuck in my life but now felt more hopeful.

 

[Earl Grey]

Me having to google this at all:

My ancestors reviving to shame me:

 

[xenaprincess]

Awake, annoyed, angsty.

 

[Earl Grey]

 

[Earl Grey]

[sound of a potato rotating]

 

[SD45T-2]

Sick, crappy, and 101.4 degrees. It looks like omicron finally caught up with me.

 

[Coriolis]

Incredibly frustrated, hurt, and sad.

 

[Luminous]

Sick, crappy, and 101.4 degrees. It looks like omicron finally caught up with me.

Oh no. I hope you'll get over it quickly.

 

[Mind Maverick]

A few things simultaneously, but each of them about different things.

Guilty that a while back, I overshared someone else's personal business. I'm having a hard time letting go of that one. I feel horrible about it, and it's not a fuck-up that I will mindlessly repeat. On top of that, I was somewhat boastful about something in the process of it. For some time, I plateaued. It wasn't conscious or deliberate, so that one is mostly a "live and learn" thing, as I see it. The oversharing wasn't intentional, either, but I should've been more mindful and attentive, and I should've considered the consequences it might be able to have on them.

I also feel stressed, as I am working all the time, am soon to start a second job, and have been under a lot of pressure from getting ready to leave the country permanently (well, outside of visitation), in 7 months. After that, I have a lot of things to catch up on. In about 2 years I will most likely have my first kid, and I don't feel ready in so many ways, but I also am too old to wait much longer than that to try for them. Some couples try for years to conceive. These next 2 years entail a lot of both catching up and preparing ahead for some enormous changes that I know I won't be able to entirely prepare myself for.

On the flip side...I'm grateful to be spending some 1 on 1 time with my partner when we've both been busy these days.

 

[Indigo Rodent]

Almost constant physical and emotional pain and terror of starvation worshipping social Darwinists. Things are much worse in my mother's field and I don't know if we're going to get any contracts this year and money is running out.
I'm so scared I will be dead soon. I don't see any way out.
Also, feeling very isolated.
I'm just so tired with it all. It can't end like this.

 

[Indigo Rodent]

Overwhelming sense of despair. I got some donations from few followers of my art blogs and I feel a bit safer. Just feeling despair at knowing that I live in an evil society that wants disabled people to starve or rot in poverty.
I know I won't qualify for social disability pension because they allow it only for people who became disabled before 18 and despite that I was in therapy since I was 15 and not functioning at school I wasn't sent to disability then.
Anyway, I hate how according to the society, on top of all the pain and missing out on stuff disabled people should have less money, instead of proportionally more to pain and stuff we miss out on.
I hate all this chaos and social Darwinism. Most of people are are pure evil.
The society is evil.

 

[Mind Maverick]

Ok, now I will be leaving to Greece in 7 months (as of the 1st).
I took my drug test for my second job earlier today. I start on the 13th, some really good health insurance kicks in on the 10th. I'll be hella busy, it'll go by fast, and it'll be worth it. I'll work overnight, it pays more. Everything I earn from there will be savings/moving expenses, since the first job will cover my current expenses. I wish I could use this opportunity to finally repay all of my debts, but living circumstances/needs make leaving at that time mandatory. I guess I'll have to do that while working a second job in Greece.

I'm super excited. I've been thinking about it all day. It's bizarre to think that life could finally be good, and stable. It almost seems surreal.

 

[Saturnal Snowqueen]

I hate feeling so alienated, but that feeling of alienation is the only thing that's making me feel unique these day. My separation from everyone else separates me from everyone else.

 

[Indigo Rodent]

Feeling really down lately. Like really depressed. I know that the fundamental problem is that I live in evil society and then, like the main problem is that I exist at all. Basing on knowledge about economy, society, the level of racism back then, knowledge of biology, including knowledge of aging and dying, my parents had no moral right to create me. It was an evil act.
I don't want to stop existing, while I'm condemned to non-existence and also I find existing in this society to be a torment.
I hate that I'm treated as a disposable tool and that the society has deprived me of mental and physical help and wants me to starve or rot in poverty for it, without ever being repaid for the mental and physical pain I experience every single day.

 

[Indigo Rodent]

Mostly dread and dejection. Feeling sick of it all. I miss having cope money and I'm scared of not being able to buy meds and nutrition. I hate the society for creating me in this putrid world. I hate the games of social Darwinism they play. They hate nutrition, they hate health, they hate wellbeing. I hate these degenerates.

 

[Earl Grey]

 

[Maou]

Dead inside, broken, and hopeless.

 

[Doctor Cringelord]