greenfairy
philosopher wood nymph
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- May 25, 2012
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Ok, I was thinking about my type (as I do probably every day) while procrastinating to avoid schoolwork, and I came up with a more clear idea of things than I had before. Which means that right now I am in the thing in the title, whether it is a tertiary loop or just a weird psychological phenomenon.
Here's how it works. I go inward and shut out external information other than sensory stuff. (sounds like Ni-Se, or shutting off Ne). I retreat from reality. Why? Is it because I have social incompetence like an INFJ or INTP, or because I had negative past experiences like an INFP? I don't know. But it's food for the loop. I then do one or a combination of several things: analyze things (anything at all I happen to have an interest in) to death, look at characteristics of myself and compare them to other people's (comparing and contrasting with fine distinctions), and imagine what the world would think of them, see what meaning might lie in these personal things, or imagine funny social scenarios like episodes of a sitcom. This sounds like Ni, Ti, And Fi or Fe or a combination. Analysing my type is one of these ways of escape from responsibilities. Responsibilities make me feel like no one is looking at me and I'm just a slave.
I do it to create an artificial social life, combined with an exaggerated sense of my own importance to alleviate the loneliness.
This could look like several things. Ni-Ti loop, Ni-Fi loop (just going by the functions, but it doesn't look at all like the description), repressed extrovert. I know there is something to the repressed extrovert theory, because when I was younger (0-6) I was outgoing and happy, and as soon as we moved and I became unpopular I started this semi-autistic thing. It's not that I don't value social interaction (like it says for INFJ), it's more like I'm scared of it and imagining I already have it is easier (like INTP "gives up" or INFP is haunted by negative experiences). But when I do have social interaction and I do it well I am much happier and increasingly less scared. Or I could be a social introvert who has just been denying myself socially. I'm always imagining I'm in some sort of a virtual world like the Truman Show, or like a reality show, where I'm being watched, and I can talk to "the world", and I'm never alone. And interacting with one or two other humans helps and makes my happy, but it's like that isn't good enough. I want to be seen by everyone. Sounds kind of Fi. But then not too terribly introverted either, since if I had a really good social life I think I'd have less of a need for this. Not that my social life sucks or anything; I actually have a lot of acquaintances and I can act outgoing. I just don't spend much consistent time with very many people, and I wish that weren't true. I wish I had a ton of friends who I could do things in a group with. I'd do it often.
I do the social thing, but I also get equally into the mental. I can play Tetris or do Sudoku or think about a theory or a system or pick things apart for hours, combined with some sort of sensory distraction.
So I am definitely feeding both an F function and a T function, with the help of intuition. Sounds kind of like INFJ I guess, but differently than I've seen anyone else describe. Do INFJ's create artificial social lives, I wonder? Does any other type? Does a repressed extrovert theory make sense?
Here's how it works. I go inward and shut out external information other than sensory stuff. (sounds like Ni-Se, or shutting off Ne). I retreat from reality. Why? Is it because I have social incompetence like an INFJ or INTP, or because I had negative past experiences like an INFP? I don't know. But it's food for the loop. I then do one or a combination of several things: analyze things (anything at all I happen to have an interest in) to death, look at characteristics of myself and compare them to other people's (comparing and contrasting with fine distinctions), and imagine what the world would think of them, see what meaning might lie in these personal things, or imagine funny social scenarios like episodes of a sitcom. This sounds like Ni, Ti, And Fi or Fe or a combination. Analysing my type is one of these ways of escape from responsibilities. Responsibilities make me feel like no one is looking at me and I'm just a slave.
I do it to create an artificial social life, combined with an exaggerated sense of my own importance to alleviate the loneliness.
This could look like several things. Ni-Ti loop, Ni-Fi loop (just going by the functions, but it doesn't look at all like the description), repressed extrovert. I know there is something to the repressed extrovert theory, because when I was younger (0-6) I was outgoing and happy, and as soon as we moved and I became unpopular I started this semi-autistic thing. It's not that I don't value social interaction (like it says for INFJ), it's more like I'm scared of it and imagining I already have it is easier (like INTP "gives up" or INFP is haunted by negative experiences). But when I do have social interaction and I do it well I am much happier and increasingly less scared. Or I could be a social introvert who has just been denying myself socially. I'm always imagining I'm in some sort of a virtual world like the Truman Show, or like a reality show, where I'm being watched, and I can talk to "the world", and I'm never alone. And interacting with one or two other humans helps and makes my happy, but it's like that isn't good enough. I want to be seen by everyone. Sounds kind of Fi. But then not too terribly introverted either, since if I had a really good social life I think I'd have less of a need for this. Not that my social life sucks or anything; I actually have a lot of acquaintances and I can act outgoing. I just don't spend much consistent time with very many people, and I wish that weren't true. I wish I had a ton of friends who I could do things in a group with. I'd do it often.
I do the social thing, but I also get equally into the mental. I can play Tetris or do Sudoku or think about a theory or a system or pick things apart for hours, combined with some sort of sensory distraction.
So I am definitely feeding both an F function and a T function, with the help of intuition. Sounds kind of like INFJ I guess, but differently than I've seen anyone else describe. Do INFJ's create artificial social lives, I wonder? Does any other type? Does a repressed extrovert theory make sense?
