My friend died. He hung himself.

[Chimerical]

My friend Jeff just killed himself. He hung himself on the 3rd.

But I stop and think, why am I so uneffected by this? We were really good friends. Then there's all the other times someone died and I was emotionally uneffected. My grandfather, my 3 year old 2nd cousin, and another close friend, all of who I was close to and spoke to on a regular basis.

I never shed a tear, didn't get depressed. Wasn't even upset.

So I'm often accused of not caring.

Now, Jeff, I miss him a lot.
I miss all the times we had together. I've never been mad at him, never had even an argument with him. He was one of my best friends. I wish he was still here but, there isn't much I can do about that.