koyomii
New member
- Joined
- Aug 4, 2021
- Messages
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- Enneagram
- 5w4
- Instinctual Variant
- sp/sx
I'd honestly love to see what people make of this. I have a few hunches but I'll leave them as hunches. I'm more confident about my ennegram than anything else.
Questionnaire
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)?
I'm a college student, 19 from the US.
Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire?
Generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, possibly dysthymic disorder.
Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I am moderately left leaning and an atheist.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven't you decided on one?
I know I'm a introverted, and intuitive. Everything else is \_(ツ)_/
I haven't decided because I am not satisfied with the conclusion I have gotten so far from various tests. Sometimes I feel like I am just picking the answer I associate with my type rather than what is true. It is harder to do that on a questionnaire like this.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
To have fun and explore the nuances of what it means to be a human, and to be myself. There isn't any inherent purpose in my life more than a snails.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I relate most to pride and sloth, although if "overworking" was one that could be included.
With pride, I tend to fall into the trap of "I am aware of how stupid I am, so I am smarter than other people for it." Also I always have to be right.
I relate least to wrath, lust and envy. It's pretty difficult to make me mad, and I don't really feel jealous since I know each person in life has their struggles. I'm not a very sexual person so lust is low as well.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
I am drawn towards people who have a sort of darkness in them. I don't mean this in a sense that I like assholes; I mean people who have a complex view of reality or come from an uncommon viewpoint..a sort of hidden sadness that I guess I romanticize.
Even more pretentious I guess...their eyes. People who have an intense gaze I tend to get along well with.
Finally, people who have a strong personality and don't shy away from things. I don't like initiating first (although I often have to) and I find people who can command a situation to be good.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
All types. I have friends who are very shy, friends who are super empathetic and love babies and that sort of thing (unlike me), and friends who are extroverted party-goers who live for thrill. Overall worldview is more important than these sorts of characteristics, I think.
I notice that I have better long-term relationships with people who have a good sense of humor about themselves (can laugh at themselves) and aren't very pessimistic. Everything else is variable.
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Very pessimistic people, bigots, people who are either obsessed with how great they are or how awful they are, incels...any people who are intolerably irrational and cannot be reasoned with.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
People who like to take care of others and derive pleasure from it. I do this on a infrequent basis (volunteering activities), but I feel like I have low sympathy stamina in comparison to some, like a diplomat or those who are nurses.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
Rarely expressed or felt, since during my childhood I was taught to not be angry. I usually only feel angry when I feel there is a injustice being done to me, and that I am in a situation that I can't fix it.
b) Shame
Something I associate with my bad habits, such as procrastination, eating poorly, etc. Shame motivates me to become a better person, in the way that I percieve the actions of others as being flawed in comparison to myself. I am acutely aware of my own flaws, and feel shame.
c) Fear
I have an anxiety disorder, so I live in fear of fear.
d) Love/passion
I idealize romance and romantic love, and finding a perfect partner as the highest form of happiness, even when I am aware logically it is not true.
e) Conflict
I avoid it at almost all costs, unless it's something I know I can smooth over quickly. Due to traumas I feel horrible when people are upset with me.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you've been unable to conquer, ect)?
My anxiety in contrast to my appearance as a assertive, confident and rational person.
Because of the contrast between these two: my mental state of anxiety and the outward appearance of confidence, there is a long-term feeling of being misunderstood.
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I am currently an anthropology major, and I plan to work in a related social science field out of college.
I chose this because humans are an immediate and fascinating problem to solve, and I don't feel I will tire of it. The more I learn, the deeper it goes.
If I could change, I would become an astrophysicist. It is my dream job, but I lack the math skills for it.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their vibe, their energy. If they're in a larger group, whether they tend to notice and try to include everyone? or do they focus on their friends? or are they alone.
Secondly, if I ask them a question that requires a straightfoward answer, how do they respond? I dislike dishonest people, I find it to be timewasting.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
It's okay, I guess?
concerns: us vs. them thinking, an inability for people to acknowledge that what is comfortable isn't always right, and groupthink.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
listening to music, reading, coding.
13) How do you usually "hang out" with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
Initiation is 50/50. I have friends who I have to initiate with, and I have friends who will always initiate. Usually the emphasis is on doing a shared activity together, like going to a nature preserve, playing DnD, or just talking on the phone.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Actions by far. I believe that you do what you believe. Words are ornamental.
15) Oh dear, you've been cursed by a witch! It's ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive.
b) To be immortal
It seems like it'd be fascinating to be immortal. I'd like to see what humans do next as we become space-faring. Also I want to see aliens.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
A person who defines themselves by their own pain and bitterness, who cannot enjoy life because they are weighed down by their own perceived responsibilities or their delusions about the world.
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
Yes, I tend to "merge" with my interests deliberately to fully understand them. It feels like that part becomes another piece of me that I can use to further contextualize reality.
I don't think it's necessarily healthy, but I understand why people do it. It's a salve for the pains of the real world.
I don't do this with real people. I do obsess over people, but not that I want to merge with them. I feel very uncomfortable with the concept of losing myself to another person's will.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
Organized, plans. I don't like surprises, nor chaos.
I don't like bootlickers and strict rules either. Balance is important to have life to the fullest.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
Comfort is when I am rested comfortably in my own head. The world is my oyster, full of concepts and people who are waiting to be discovered.
Comfort is also have financial means to live without constant worry.
Finally, comfort is having people who you know truly care about you in every sense of the word. There's almost a separate universe in being on the same wavelength as someone else.
Questionnaire
1) Context:
a) What is your age range and general location (Country so that cultural values can be taken into account)?
I'm a college student, 19 from the US.
Do you have any impairments that may affect the way that you answer this questionnaire?
Generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, possibly dysthymic disorder.
Any religious or political beliefs (or anything else along those lines) that also might have an effect?
I am moderately left leaning and an atheist.
b) Which types are you currently considering? Why are you considering them and why haven't you decided on one?
I know I'm a introverted, and intuitive. Everything else is \_(ツ)_/
I haven't decided because I am not satisfied with the conclusion I have gotten so far from various tests. Sometimes I feel like I am just picking the answer I associate with my type rather than what is true. It is harder to do that on a questionnaire like this.
2) What do you deem as your purpose in life?
To have fun and explore the nuances of what it means to be a human, and to be myself. There isn't any inherent purpose in my life more than a snails.
3) Of the seven deadly sins, which one(s) do you relate to the most and the least and why?
I relate most to pride and sloth, although if "overworking" was one that could be included.
With pride, I tend to fall into the trap of "I am aware of how stupid I am, so I am smarter than other people for it." Also I always have to be right.
I relate least to wrath, lust and envy. It's pretty difficult to make me mad, and I don't really feel jealous since I know each person in life has their struggles. I'm not a very sexual person so lust is low as well.
4) Analyzing your relationships with others, briefly describe:
a) The type of people you are drawn to
I am drawn towards people who have a sort of darkness in them. I don't mean this in a sense that I like assholes; I mean people who have a complex view of reality or come from an uncommon viewpoint..a sort of hidden sadness that I guess I romanticize.
Even more pretentious I guess...their eyes. People who have an intense gaze I tend to get along well with.
Finally, people who have a strong personality and don't shy away from things. I don't like initiating first (although I often have to) and I find people who can command a situation to be good.
b) The type of people who are drawn to you
All types. I have friends who are very shy, friends who are super empathetic and love babies and that sort of thing (unlike me), and friends who are extroverted party-goers who live for thrill. Overall worldview is more important than these sorts of characteristics, I think.
I notice that I have better long-term relationships with people who have a good sense of humor about themselves (can laugh at themselves) and aren't very pessimistic. Everything else is variable.
c) The type of people you are repulsed by
Very pessimistic people, bigots, people who are either obsessed with how great they are or how awful they are, incels...any people who are intolerably irrational and cannot be reasoned with.
5)What are the traits in others that you admire but you cannot emulate yourself? Elaborate.
People who like to take care of others and derive pleasure from it. I do this on a infrequent basis (volunteering activities), but I feel like I have low sympathy stamina in comparison to some, like a diplomat or those who are nurses.
6) Describe your relationship with the following:
a) Anger
Rarely expressed or felt, since during my childhood I was taught to not be angry. I usually only feel angry when I feel there is a injustice being done to me, and that I am in a situation that I can't fix it.
b) Shame
Something I associate with my bad habits, such as procrastination, eating poorly, etc. Shame motivates me to become a better person, in the way that I percieve the actions of others as being flawed in comparison to myself. I am acutely aware of my own flaws, and feel shame.
c) Fear
I have an anxiety disorder, so I live in fear of fear.
d) Love/passion
I idealize romance and romantic love, and finding a perfect partner as the highest form of happiness, even when I am aware logically it is not true.
e) Conflict
I avoid it at almost all costs, unless it's something I know I can smooth over quickly. Due to traumas I feel horrible when people are upset with me.
7) What are some of the themes that have played a prominent role in your life (ie. A struggle you've been unable to conquer, ect)?
My anxiety in contrast to my appearance as a assertive, confident and rational person.
Because of the contrast between these two: my mental state of anxiety and the outward appearance of confidence, there is a long-term feeling of being misunderstood.
8) Answer only one of the following:
a) What is your area of work/study? Why did you choose this and would you change it? If so, what would be your ideal?
I am currently an anthropology major, and I plan to work in a related social science field out of college.
I chose this because humans are an immediate and fascinating problem to solve, and I don't feel I will tire of it. The more I learn, the deeper it goes.
If I could change, I would become an astrophysicist. It is my dream job, but I lack the math skills for it.
9) When meeting a new person, what do you tend to focus on?
Their vibe, their energy. If they're in a larger group, whether they tend to notice and try to include everyone? or do they focus on their friends? or are they alone.
Secondly, if I ask them a question that requires a straightfoward answer, how do they respond? I dislike dishonest people, I find it to be timewasting.
10) How do you feel about humanity as a whole? What do you feel are some of the biggest problems the human race faces and why?
It's okay, I guess?
concerns: us vs. them thinking, an inability for people to acknowledge that what is comfortable isn't always right, and groupthink.
11) What are some of your hobbies and interests?
listening to music, reading, coding.
13) How do you usually "hang out" with your friend(s)? When answering, think about what activities you tend to choose, whether you hang out with one person at once or many, whether or not you initiate the interaction.
Initiation is 50/50. I have friends who I have to initiate with, and I have friends who will always initiate. Usually the emphasis is on doing a shared activity together, like going to a nature preserve, playing DnD, or just talking on the phone.
14) What is more important, actions or words? Why?
Actions by far. I believe that you do what you believe. Words are ornamental.
15) Oh dear, you've been cursed by a witch! It's ok though, you get a choice on which curse you will receive.
b) To be immortal
It seems like it'd be fascinating to be immortal. I'd like to see what humans do next as we become space-faring. Also I want to see aliens.
16) What do you hope to avoid being? If it helps, describe a person who embodies what you avoid/you as a villain, ect.
A person who defines themselves by their own pain and bitterness, who cannot enjoy life because they are weighed down by their own perceived responsibilities or their delusions about the world.
17) How do you relate to obsession? Do you tend to "merge" with others or your interests? How do you feel about the idea of doing this?
Yes, I tend to "merge" with my interests deliberately to fully understand them. It feels like that part becomes another piece of me that I can use to further contextualize reality.
I don't think it's necessarily healthy, but I understand why people do it. It's a salve for the pains of the real world.
I don't do this with real people. I do obsess over people, but not that I want to merge with them. I feel very uncomfortable with the concept of losing myself to another person's will.
18) Organized or messy? Plans and blueprints or impulse and surprises? What are you preferences and tendencies?
Organized, plans. I don't like surprises, nor chaos.
I don't like bootlickers and strict rules either. Balance is important to have life to the fullest.
19) How do you subjectively view comfort and how do you create comfort in your life and surroundings?
Comfort is when I am rested comfortably in my own head. The world is my oyster, full of concepts and people who are waiting to be discovered.
Comfort is also have financial means to live without constant worry.
Finally, comfort is having people who you know truly care about you in every sense of the word. There's almost a separate universe in being on the same wavelength as someone else.
