1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
See Q1
2. Study these two images here and here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?
Can't see the images
3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?
I just wrote a cover letter, the gist of it was that I'm a person who looks at the facts and solves problems step by step in a realistic way. I'm also capable of standing in others' shoes and I value differences. That's because I believe variety in perspective (as in, not the narrow-minded kind that you see over and over again-- that's what i mean by variety) is important to growth.
4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?
I'd like to be a bit more like the character Agent Washington, because he's a kickass kind of guy who can be a leader when he has to be. I have zero leadership qualities (too amicable). He gets things done, he's realistic, and he's also capable of making connections to improvise when it comes down to it (though he hates it).And he stands by his values once he figures out what it is. I'm a bit more flakier about that.
...hmm
I don't wanna be...lots of people ... For instance I don't want to be like the guy next to me. A lot of hostility, zero constructive ways of dealing with anything, selfish as fuck and lacks perspective. I don't want to be the kind of guy that lacks perspective. Coz when you don't have the right perspective, you can't really act to change anything abt it.
5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?
Yes I guess so.
I think people would describe me differently depending on how they know me, and what stress levels I'm at (also what level of give a fuck, esteem,etc).
I don't really get much feedback from people in general, but according to someone, I lack confidence, which makes me appear aloof instead, when in fact (according to this person) I'm an intellectually-inclined person with meaningful insights who's happy to contribute.
...I'd take his word for it.
6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2.
Honesty, integrity, hard work, a positive environment, something wholesome (eg: work-life balance, fulfilling all of maslow's hierarchies)
7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?
I... don't like the uncertainty, because there's always a chance it could be worse, and they usually do turn out to either be mediocre or worse than expected, so I mean.
Like ... hmmm in March one of my flatmates will be moving away. I'm like "...granted I don't like him but at this rate, it'll be just me and two messy dicks with anger issues who won't do housework, won't pay their share of the compulsory broadcasting fee, or take out the trash".
I'm actually planning to ask the landlord if I can help in showing the flat when the time comes so that I can have some say about how to introduce the flat, and hopefully find someone who likes things to be clean, but that's also a gamble, coz you really can't tell.
8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I pretty much catastrophise and keep working at it like a hamster running in a wheel hoping it works (often it doesn't in this state).
When it gets stressful enough, I pretty much shut down and start going into escapist mode.
9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
When I'm in company I enjoy, I'm happy, easy to get along with, and I act... genial, am ready to help, I'm open about stuff and I don't mind being a part of the "group", so to speak. I appear reliable (when I don't feel like I'm taken advantage of) and hardworking.
...But that very rarely happens.
10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?
I prefer one-on-one interaction, because there's a lot less to process at the same time.
Group interaction usually occurs with some dynamics, if the "leader" is fair then it's fair, otherwise certain people get shut down and I'm usually one of those coz I have zero charisma when I'm not trying (and I don't have the energy to try).
11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?
I believe people are stupid enough to be influenced by the structures holding society together, but smart enough to deny that categorically. (Like... well... Not dumb enough for it to be a blessing, not smart enough for it to be a blessing, either).
I don't actually like society too much. They usually seem the same to me on a very basic level, and I generally dislike the 'tyranny of the majority'. Those values do tend to change so I'm not like, gonna generalise, but ... I don't trust people. They're not worth it. Put them in a group, they're even worse.
12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?
I'm ok with authority. It keeps things functioning. People respond to authority because it's a function of power. Sometimes power can be abused, but I really do think people need to be subject to some kind of power.
13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?
I'd like more order and less chaos. I'm getting old and tired, I need my rest, I'm a panda... Zzz.
Order means getting to sleep properly at a certain time, getting up at a certain time, being productive at a certain time of the day, etc.
Chaos is when some idiot from grindr assumes I happen to be free whenever they text me. Also one of my flatmates who has zero idea that time is not actually relative, and that daytime is different from nightttime.
14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?
Being stuck/controlled.
I sometimes latch onto any chance of change and just leap without looking or thinking it through as a result.
15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?
I would like to be self-sufficient in all ways eventually. Be debt-free, have a comfortable savings account enough that I don't have to fear, be comfortable enough with being by myself so that I don't have to worry about attracting shitty people (this one I seem to be getting there, but at the same time I guess it kinda also drives ppl who are interested away. idk)
I think they're inspired by being poor and also having a poor judge of character mostly. Getting better on the second part, idk about the first part.
16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
See previous
17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.
...Curious?? Also I have my hypothesis but I haven't made up my mind. I'd not like to talk about what type I think I am so that people can form a bias-free judgement for themselves and offer their perspectives.
18. Finally, is there something else you find to be of importance you want to add about yourself you think might be of relevance when helping to type you?